On My Own Time

Chapter 12

"I still can't believe you have a girlfriend," Sara said as we waited in the lunch line.

For once in my life, I was not hungry. I was nervous and my eyes were constantly scanning the crowd to make sure Victor wasn't nearby. My body was practically ready to run if I even cought a glimpse of him. I didn't even respond to his last message. I had no idea what to say and frankly, I was too nervous to say anything anyways. Sara wasn't helping my situation because she wouldn't let the topic go. It was annoying but I knew it was my fault. I'd be surprised too if Sara suddenly announced she had a boyfriend. But I grew anxious. If this is how she reacts to me supposedly getting a girlfriend, how would she react if I got a boyfriend. I wasn't even sure about their views regarding that topic. We just never came across it.

I was so nervous that I ended up telling Sara that I forgot about a report and needed to go to the library. Surprisingly, she bought it and let me be. I was quick leave the lunch line and get to the library, smiling at the librarian as I walked to the back and hid between the shelves. I was glad I didn't see the spot taken by a couple that wanted to get a little dirty or some students actually looking for books or wanting peace by reading in the back. The librarian was strict and didn't allow students to talk loudly or fill up the library. The old librarian didn't care and the place used to be filled with talking all over the place.

"Avoiding me?"

I jumped and swallowed down the scream that want to be released. Of course he'd find me. He probably saw Sara alone and asked her. He sat down beside me and released a sigh.

"Do you actually have a girlfriend? I couldn't tell if you were lying or not. Though a big part of me is saying you're lying," he said with a chuckle.

I wasn't sure how to take that. Why did he believe that? So what if I had a girlfriend? It's not impossible and Lacey is actually a very beautiful girl.

"You don't think its possible?"

He looked at me and moved so he was now facing me. His eyes studied my entire face, searching for a sign, any sign, that would tell him that I was lying. However, I was actually quite upset and my face was serious. I could get a girlfriend. I'm respectful and I'm not completely into guys. I love who I love. The point is that I can get a girlfriend.

"I don't know. You just, what we've been doing-"

"What we've been doing? Hanging out?"

"Flirting."

I looked away, not knowing what to say. I was flirty and I couldn't deny it. It would be stupid to say I didn't mean it that way because it was obvious I did. Stupid Victor and his stupid charming ways.

"What changed this morning?"

"I just came to a realization," I mumbled, still looking away.

He gently grabbed my face and made me face him, leaning in slightly as he said, "What realization?"

"You have a girlfriend, Victor."

He leaned back in shock, his eyes widening. Then, his lips slowly turned upwards and he started to release small chuckles, trying hard to hold in his laugh since we were still in the library.

"Me? Have a girlfriend?"

"Oh stop, I saw you two two times already."

He stopped his chuckle, realizing he was caught. Damn, I sound like a jealous girlfriend catching her boyfriend cheating. I was even a little hurt but I knew I shouldn't be. He sighed and moved closer, throwing one of his muscular arms over my shoulder.

"I'm not ready. To come out, you know? She's mostly for an act. Come on, Diego. It's different chemistry between us and her and I. You and I have things in common and her and I don't which makes it all the more better. Her and I, it's nothing really. I was enjoying what we, you and I, were doing."