Royally Normal

24

For everyone else, their high school graduation day was a day of celebration. You worked so hard for twelve years and then worked your ass off to get into college.

Then there I was, crying in the bathroom during our celebratory graduation party.

I only had two days left in New York before I jetted off to London. 

For the past few days, I felt like I was king the biggest mistake of my life. I was going to a country where it felt like everyone hated me. Noone of my friends would be there and I was moving so far from everything that I've ever know.

What was I doing?

I didn't know if it was because I was listening to my friends' excitement about college or all the time I spent with Cole.

God, I just felt so lost.

The door opened and I immediately covered my face.

"Oh shit, I didn't know you were in here." Sammy hesitated

"Are you crying?" he questioned me.

I could hear him walk into the bathroom and close the door behind him.

"Ai, what's wrong? Talk to me." Sammy touched my shoulder.

"It's nothing." I shook my head as I wiped my face.

"It's clearly not nothing if you're crying." Sammy leaned against the sink. "I know I'm not Cole, but you can talk to me."

I sighed. "I know I can talk to you. It's just that today is supposed to be about happiness. I don't want to drag you into my sadness."

"I can handle it. Tell me." he requested.

"Ok."  I sat down on the edge of the tub, "I feel like I'm m making the biggest mistake by going to London. Everything is so new and different. I don't know if I'm ready for that."

"Everything new is going to feel different and scary. I know it's a different country, government, and culture over there, but you need to experience it. If you don't try it, then you might regret never giving London a chance." Sammy advised. 

That was true.

It made me feel a little better.

"I know that you're thinking about your relationship with ole Nathaniel, but you're both young. You've been in New York for most of your life, go see what in the United Kingdom. " Sammy went on.

"What if I hate it or I don't make the change that I want? What if it's like a domino effect and everything goes downhill after?" I ranted to him.

"You have got to stop thinking about what could happen and start living. You never know what could happen. This could be great." he shot back. "If you hate it, can't you just leave?"

I nodded. "It's a big deal though. It's called abdicating and the throne would go to my sister."

"Who knows? Maybe Cole wants to be a lawyer in London?" Sammy brought up.

"I don't want that life for him. He has so many dreams and I don't want him to be some public figure that takes photo-ops." I explained to Sammy.

I stood up from the tub and touched up my makeup. "I'm just nervous, but I'll get over it. I already committed to the four years at Oxford, so I need to follow through."

"Remember, you don't have to have every single detail of your life figured out right now. Anything can happen and you're only seventeen." Sammy reminded me.

I nodded my head. "You're right."

I turned to Sammy. "Thank you, Sam."

He hugged me. "Let's go back down. Everyone was looking for you."