Losing you book 3

Chapter 6

YVE

It was such an amazing day, I didn't want it to end yet, but then, JC would be home with us from now on. As soon as we parked the car after our two minute drive home, we got down and I told him, "You get Yno, I'll get Yna."

I thought he was going to argue but he didn't. We took the kids up to our unit and our maids were waiting for us.

"Please get the rest of our things in the car." I told them. JC gave them the car keys and they went down.

"Where do they usually sleep?" He asked.

"They have their own rooms and they're both toilet trained already. They have their own bathrooms in their room. I had to renovate the unit for them." I told him as I walked towards one of the other two bedrooms and opened the door.

"This is Yna's room." I told him as I opened the door and laid her down on her bed. I went to get her sleeping garments and changed her. I tucked her in and kissed her goodnight.

I turned to JC and asked "You want to kiss her goodnight?"

"Yes." I took Yno from him so he could.

"I'll put Yno to sleep now." I told him as I walked towards the door and out.

I headed to Yno's room and went in. I put him on the bed and got his sleeping garments. I changed his clothes and I was about to tuck him in when JC came through the door.

I turned to look at him and asked, "You want to tuck him in?"

"Yes." I moved aside and watched as he came closer to the bed and tucked Yno in. I watched him as he stared at our son before finally kissing him goodnight.

Once he stood up we walked towards the door and he closed it behind him.

I walked towards our bedroom and opened the door, I actually expected him to follow me but he was standing where I left him. This is like déjà vu, only, I didn't kiss him for him to be rooted on the spot. I'm not ready to kiss him just yet.

He started walking towards the bedroom so I walked right in. The maids have already brought up our things. JC was standing near the door and I don't know what he's thinking. He was just staring at me.

"Just ask JC." I said.

"Are you sure you're ok with me here?" He asked me tentatively.

"Yes. I trust you. The JC I know, the JC I married would never make me do something I don't want to do. He'd never ask me for something I'm not ready to give." I told him. Repeating the words he uttered earlier today.

Then my insecurities hit me, I'm different, I've aged with what I had to go through and my body has changed too, I've already given birth, to twins at that. Although most of my friends say I've never been sexier, I don't feel that way.

I closed my eyes and I saw Laura running towards JC and kissing him again...

Stop!

"Anyway, I'm taking a shower." I walked towards the walk-in closet to get my clothes before heading for the bathroom. Up until the time I saw Laura kissing JC, I've used his shirts to sleep in but after, I started using my own. I guess I'd just keep using mine from now on. He's already here anyway.

"Yve..." He started to say but I already closed the bathroom door. Whatever he had to say, I don't think I'm ready to hear them.

I sat down on the water closet to control my emotions. I've been strong for so long and I'm tired.

I took off my clothes and went in the shower. I let the water wash over me as I cried. I didn't know what I actually expected when he came back, I didn't even know he was coming back. I've lost all hope when I saw her kiss him. Yet here he is.