Emotions are hard. (Newsies 1992)

Realization Hurts Harder

Davey POV
My hands were clammy and my face was pale. How could Jack walk out like that? He didn't even bother to give a proper goodbye. I glanced over at Sarah, her cheeks wet with tears. I stood up from the table and hugged her tight. Was I angry at Jack? I told him that Sarah would be understanding, I didn't want Sarah to be hurt but did I want my sister to be dating him? I let go of her and she seemed to be looking less disheveled.

My father and my mother sat and ate their dinner like nothing had happened. I understood they'd probably had predicted Jack's reaction; but they wouldn't never predict mine. I put my vest back on and grabbed my cap. "Young man, where do you think you're going?" My mother asked with a concerned tone. "To find Jack." Was all I said before shutting the door behind me.

It was dark and cold outside. I had a few ideas of where to find Jack. my first stop was at the lodging house. I checked with Kloppman to see if Jack ever made it back. The old man shook his head. "Haven't seen him since this morning." Kloppman told me. I left the lodging house and went to check a few more places, a small stable, a few alleys, the distribution center. Jack wasn't in any of those places. I had one last option, the train yards.

I arrived to the train yards a little out of breath. The whole place was empty, expect for the sulking boy sitting on the bench. I stood next to bench and watched Jack, his head in his hands. Jack looked up at me and I instantly felt heartbroken. His nose and eyes were red from crying, Jack Kelly, brave strike leader, was crying. "What the hell do you want?" Jack scoffed, I was taken aback by this. "You left rather abruptly from dinner, just wanted to check in on you." I told him, my feet shifted uncomfortably. "Yeah well I'm fine so you can get out of here now." Jack stood up, the intimidating look on his face, the fact he was just a few inches taller than me, my knees turned into jell-o. "Jack I made that mistake last time, I'm not letting you wonder New York like this." I tried my best to stand my ground, but I could still feel the sweat on my hands.

"I thought I told you to not act like my mom, I can handle my own." Jack rolled his eyes. "Please Jack-" before I could finish my sentence he had grabbed me by the shoulder, shoving me against the wall...again. "Maybe for once you should stop following me!" Jack yelled, I stood there and just stared at him. "I've made up my mind, I'm heading out to Santa Fe, that's it." His words weren't registering with me, my focus was on the hands that were right on my chest. "Why do you do this?" I asked once I had re-gained my thoughts. Jack gave me a puzzled look. "Do you do this with everyone? Pin them to the wall when your upset with them?" I retorted. He let go of me. "You really aren't taking this seriously huh, do you not care I'm leaving?" Jack choked, he looked like he was going to cry again. "You don't have to though!"

"I broke up with Sarah, you're going back to school so I don't have a selling partner no more." I took a moment to think. "You're staying for us?" Jack didn't make eye contact with me. "Jack, the newsies need you more than we do." Jack wiped his eyes. "I never said I was staying just for you!" Jack yelled out through tears. I had never seen him like this, this emotional that is.

Jack's POV
I couldn't tell Davey the real reason I'm leaving, it's hurt him too much, more than I've hurt myself. Once I came to the full realization that I had feelings for Davey instead of Sarah, I couldn't bare to look at him. It hurt knowing I'm having so many emotions over some boy. "He's not just some boy." My subconscious told me. Davey looked up at me, he was confused and shocked and I didn't blame him. "I wasn't staying just for you." I muttered, not telling the whole truth. "Then why are you leaving?"

"It's none of your business!" I retorted. "It is my business, you're my selling partner, you taught me how to be a newsie!" Davey cried out in distress. "I don't want to go back to school becuase being a newsie has given me so much!" Davey heaved. It always made my heart flutter when Davey showed what he was passionate about. Well, if I was going to Santa Fe I won't see him anymore. Might as well fees up now.

"Davey, I'm going to sound so dumb when I say this and I know for a fact you'll hate me but," I took a deep breath, here it goes. "I like you the same way I thought I liked Sarah, I'm running becuase I knew you'd hate my guts," I knew I'd start crying again but I kept talking, "I couldn't look at you with out getting overwhelmed and getting all jittery." Davey stares for a second, he looked so lost and that made me feel worse. "Ik sorry Davey, I should be leaving-" "Jack, wait!" Davey grabbed my wrist and held me back. "I don't hate you, I really don't."

He grabbed my hand and rubbed his hand across my knuckles. "Don't do this to me Dave," I pull my hand away. "Just let me leave so I don't have to deal with my dumbass emotions." Davey grabbed my hand again and used it to pull him closer tok him. "Dave-" I was going to tell him to let me go but then he pulled me in and kissed me. I pulled away and shoved him back. "Stop playing with me!" Davey sighed, "Maybe I did that becuase I like you back?" He said sarcastically. I opened my mouth to say something but then I realized, he's right.

"So, you're gay too?" It was a stupid question but it was the best I could come up with. "I don't know, but I do know that I like you too, Jack Kelly." This time I pulled him in and kissed him, seeing as we both that experienced it was a little messy. "Do you think the other guys will be bothered?" Davey asked. I shrugged, "maybe, but that doesn't matter."

Ok this ending was a little weird but I really hope you enjoyed this story! It took a while to write but now it was worth it! This was really fun for my first fanfiction! -Noodles