Brad Simpson Yin And Yang

Mistakes

Chapter 8: Mistakes

It’s been 2 weeks since I last saw him. The fight we had that night was different than the last one. Confessions and words were spoken. Today was the day of the gig and I’m not 100 percent sure how this was gonna go.

Flashback start:

His lips are soft just like I imagine them to be but they are not mine to keep. I push him off of me quickly. “What the hell are you doing, are you crazy” I yell. He remains quiet with his head down just like the night in my bedroom. “I just thought that “ He trails off keeping his head down. “You have a girlfriend Brad you can’t just kiss, are you stupid?” I yell again. He lifts his head up and I can see he’s mad. “I’m not stuipid and to get this straight I was just trying to make you feel better” he says with the angriest tone I have ever seen. “Make me feel better by cheating on your girlfriend wow Bradley first I’m not beautiful and now I’m a whore you really know how to make a girl feel special” I yell again. He’s really starting to work my nerves. What is wrong with him. Ever since the train station he’s been trying he’s hardest to piss me off. “Would you just let that go already damn. I said I was sorry. Just let the damn thing go already it’s been three years” He says yelling at the top of his lungs. “Don’t you think I feel bad about it everyday. Yes I know I hurt you and I’m trying to fix it but you won’t let it go. For three years I have drowned myself in drinks because I hurt you” He says calmly. “I didn’t know that,” I said quietly. “I kissed you because I thought that doing that would help you move on or something and stop worrying about me” He says raising his voice again. “I’m not worrying about you, I could care less,” I say, raising my voice as well. Who does he think he is some god? He thinks because he’s a celebrity that every girl is drooling over him please I could care less. “So you don’t care about me?” He says tilting his head. “I never did” I said walking towards him. “I didn’t seem like it when you kissed me back 2 minutes ago” He says crossing his arms across his chest. “It was a mistake and first off don’t try and spin this on me” I said.  “Me ever having feelings for you in the first place was a whole mistake” I yell. “You don’t even mean that,” He says, stepping towards me. “Yes I do “ I say, stepping back. He reaches out to take my hand but I push back. “You know what, just forget this whole thing is a mistake” He says stepping away from me. “You're a mistake” I yell. “I’m the mistake,meeting you is my biggest mistake” he says slamming my door. I heard him slam his bedroom door then it went silent. Then the front door slammed.

Flashback ends:

“What are you going to wear?” Callie says, snapping me out of my thoughts. “More like I’m staying home and not going anywhere” I say pulling my covers back over my head. “You can’t ignore him forever,” Callie says dragging my covers off my head again. “Isn’t he the one who left?” Skylar says, grabbing a crop top from my closet. “You're not helping,” Callie says, rolling her eyes. “I mean she should go if she doesn’t want to,” Skylar says, turning around to face Callie. This is when I know things are getting heated. “I’m gonna go but after the performance is finished I’m leaving” I tell them. This way I’m not picking sides. “Me and Callie are gonna go home and get ready,” Skylar says while putting out the clothing options she picked for me on my bed. “I can’t believe you painted all of this” Callie says looking up at the galaxy sky I painted above my bed. I get off my bed to give Callie and Skylar a hug before leaving. 

I decided that today is the day I talk to him. Today is the day I forgive and forget everything. Today I need to move on and find someone else. I couldn’t keep doing this to myself. I promised my mother I would be happy and I intend to keep it even if it means we are just gonna be friends or enemies. Or just nothing.

I decided that I was going to wear the red lace crop top with my black jeans along with my black leather jacket. I did my make up light because I wasn’t really in the mood to go all out. I left my hair curly because like I said not really in the mood. “Come on Ariana Joe's downstairs” I hear Tritian yell from the front door.  I grabbed my bag and ran to the front door. “I love your look, it's giving me 90s vibes” he says while locking the door. “Thanks” I say heading towards the elevator. We both get in the lift and watch the numbers drop. “You know one day your gonna have to tell what really happened between you and Brad. You know that right?” Tris says as the lift door opens. “I know” I say walking next to him towards the van. When the van door opens he’s not in there. I wanted to ask where he was but it wasn’t my place. “Where’s Brad?” Callie who comes from behind me and Tris and hops in the van with Skylar. “He’s already at the venue with Rosie,” Joe says as Tristian closes the van door. 

The car ride was mostly silent except for the jokes that James and Connor kept telling making everyone laugh except me. He didn’t even take the van. Thoughts ran in my head on how bad this can go. Maybe I should have stayed home like Skylar said.

When we arrived at the venue we could hear screaming girls everywhere. We all give the security man our passes to scan and head inside the building. The boys rushed to makeup and sound check while Skylar, Callie, Joe, and I headed into the boys dressing room. When we got to the dressing room Rosie was snuggled up in Brad’s arms and placing kisses on his head. I decided to take the seat closest to the door. Brad didn’t even look at me when I entered the room. I took my earphones out my bag and played my playlist of songs on Spotify. When the other boys were all good for sound check everyone began talking and having conversations with each other.

“Hey are you ok” says Kristie, who I didn’t even see come in. I look up to see everyone staring at me waiting for my response. “Yeah I’m fine just not feeling well” I lied. “Are you sick?” James asks who is sitting across the room. “No I just need some water I’ll be back,” I say, walking out of the room to the water fountain at the end of the hall. I could feel tears form into my eyes. I rush to the nearest bathroom and thank god it was a one person bathroom. I let every pain I was feeling this year out. I quickly covered my mouth so no one could hear my cries. But something stopped my tears.

“Hey Ari are you in here? The show’s about to start in 10” He says knocking on the door. “Brad?” my voice cracks. 

This chapter was a bit short but the next one should be longer I'm currently brainstorming.