Brad Simpson Yin And Yang

"Did the two of you date"

Word Count: 1864

Chapter 26: “Did the two of you date?”

“Tris I don’t really…”Brad begins but he’s immediately cut off by Tris. “I don’t care if you don’t wanna talk about it I want to know. Matter of fact I need to know” He said clearly annoyed. “Did the two of you date?” He says with his hands clenched. “No we didn’t” I said quickly.  My cousin looks me in the eyes trying to read my face to tell if I was lying. “Then what happened?” He said softly. I wanted to tell him everything because I didn’t want to keep secrets from him but I know that by doing that he would be upset. I didn’t want to cause the band to split up when it was just getting started. Well not just since they have millions of fans. But you get my point. But that wasn’t the only reason I didn’t want to tell him what happened. I mean for crying out loud I’m embarrassed to. How could I tell him his best friend who I swore to him when the band joined that I wouldn’t try to get with that I had fallen in love with him. And how I wasn’t his type or should I say not hot enough. Just thinking about it makes me so upset. Why wasn’t I born with good genes like everyone else? Why couldn’t I be beautiful like those models girls he loves so much. 

“Ari...ARI!” My cousin shouted, snapping me out of my thoughts. “What?” I said looking up at him. “We don’t have to talk about it if it’s making you upset” my cousin says wiping away the tears that were formed on my cheek. I didn’t even realize I was crying since I was so deep in my thoughts. “No we can talk about it” I say, making them both shocked. “But if we talk about this I need you to not get mad and listen okay” I said softly. I turn to see Brad with a scared look on his face. “You sure?” He says with worry in his eyes. I could tell he was scared of not only losing his drummer but his best friend and flatmate. “It’s alright,” I said, patting his hand that made him smile a bit. “Remember when you first joined the band and you made me promise that nothing would ever happen between me and your band mates” I spoke up. I could see my cousin's face starting to get angry again. “Yes and I remember you promised nothing would happen. The both of you did matter of fact” He says sternly. “Well after being friends with the boys for years I started developing feelings for Brad” I said quickly. I watch Tris take his gaze off of me and focus it on his best friend. I could feel the heat coming off of him. “So the two of you had a fling is that what you're trying to tell me?” He said angrily. “No it’s nothing like that” I said with my head down. 

I was or should I say I am embarrassed. How do I tell him that I got rejected by his best friend because I wasn’t hot enough and not good enough. Now that I think about it I’ll never be good enough for christ sake. All his girlfriends were basically hot instagram models then there’s just me. A stupid girl who fell for a guy who doesn’t want her. A guy she would risk anything for. A guy who she has supported and cared for since they met. A guy she was still in love with but was scared to admit it. Why couldn’t I be enough for anyone. I couldn’t be enough for my dad and some of my other family members who hate me just to hate me. It’s like nothing ever works out for me. My mom is in the hospital holding on to her last breath and it’s all my fault. What if I hadn’t told Brad I had feelings for him. What if I stayed that night instead of taking my leftover money to take a taxi back to my dad’s. What if I had just waited till morning to call my mom to pick me up. What if I never fell for him. Maybe things would have ended up better for me. I would still have one of my best friends. My mom wouldn’t be in the hospital. My dad and Andrea and her evil daughter Megan would all be a happy family. Not only am I not enough I keep screwing up other people's lives along with my own. Even though it happened years ago I wish I could go back in time and fix everything I missed up. 

I couldn’t stop thinking about what would have happened if I was so stupid and selfish. My thoughts were then interrupted by someone's big arms around my body. “We don’t have to talk about it anymore,” Tris says now in front of me. He then wipes away my flood of tears that were rolling down my face. I didn’t even know I was crying, especially that much. “I’m sorry I didn’t mean to push you guys like that when you're ready you’ll tell me. Is that ok Ari?” He says rubbing my back.

Brad’s POV:

“I can’t stand the tension that’s been in the house lately and I know that the two of you said you'd tell me when you're ready but I’m tired of waiting” Tristan yells. I can tell he was pissed off. I mean it isn’t fair to him to constantly listen to his cousin who he sees as his little sister and one of his best friends to be fighting everyday. I look over to Ari sitting on the other end of the sofa not too far from my reach. I wanted to grab her and pull her into my chest and tell how much I appreciated her. How much I care about. Also how I think I might be in love with her. But I’ll never get the chance to because I threw it all away three years ago. I broke her and I wasn’t there for her. I let her down and by the look on her face I can tell it’s painful for her to talk about it too. Or should I say more painful for her.

“Tris I don’t really…” I begin before he cuts me off. “I don’t care if you don’t wanna talk about it I want to know. Matter of fact I need to know” He says angrily. He is right he does need to know but I can’t tell him I rejected Ari and made her insecure about herself so he can kick me out the flat. Or much worse, leave the band and by the look on her face she was thinking the same thing. “Did the two of you date?” He says with his hands clenched. Just as I was about to answer she spoke up faster than lighting. “No we didn’t” she says quickly. I watch her play with the sleeves of my old hoodie I gave her years ago. I still couldn’t believe she had it. Tris then starts looking her up and down trying to read her. “Then what happened?” Tris says softly. I looked at Ari and she had this unreadable expression on her face. Even though I have no clue what she was thinking about I just wanted to pull her into my chest and tell her everything was going to be okay. That I can be here for her now. That I am and always have been sorry for what happened that night. 

“Ari” Tris says, snapping his fingers to get her attention but her eyes were still locked to the ground. I watched tears roll down her face. Tears that I caused. “ARI!” Tris shouted which snapped me and her both out of our thoughts. “What?” She says, taking her eyes off the floor. “We don’t have to talk about it if it’s making you upset” Tris says, seeing that she was clearly upset. I felt a wave of relief washed over until she cleared her throat and spoke again. 

“No, we can talk about it,” she says quietly. I was shocked and by the look on Tris face he was too. “But if we talk about this I need you to not get mad and listen okay” she spoke softly. I wanted to be angry at her for not letting go along with Tris and just talk about it but like he said he deserved to know. “You sure” I asked her. She then turns her head and stares into my eyes for a second. “It’s alright” she says then pats my hand gently. Her hands were soft against mine. Just as soft as her lips against mine. All I wanted to do is to kiss her but I couldn’t not just because Tris is here it’s cause she probably or does hate me. I watch her take a deep breath and begin. She then starts telling Tris about our promise to him and I can tell he was getting more mad at both of us but mostly me or only me. :”So the two of you had a fling is that what you're trying to tell me?” He said angrily. “No it’s nothing like that” she said with my head down. I watch her zone out again and the tears in her eye begin flooding her face. She sat there zoned out in her thoughts crying. Just as I was about to pull her into my arms Tris beat me to it.

“We don’t have to talk about it anymore,” Tris says finally. I continued to sit silent not trying to cause anything to miss up. I want to tell her everything and just lie in her arms. Or just have her lay in my arms.

Ari’s POV:

“I’m going to go to my room for a bit” I get up not waiting for an answer. I walk to my room in silence. I quietly closed my door behind me then dropped my body on the bed. I turned my head to the wall and my eyes drew to the smudged cloud instantly. I couldn’t help thinking of what would have happened that night if I did kiss him back instead of pushing him off. My thoughts were then interrupted by an unknown phone call.  

“Hello” I said politely as possible. “Hello good afternoon is this Ariana” an unknown male voice spoke into the phone. “Yes um who is this” I answered. The man then spoke again but this time I felt my whole world crashing down. The words he spoke caused me to drop my phone.

This is the end of chapter 26. Thank you so much for reading I know I haven't updated in a while because I took a break to take of mental health so I back right now. Leave a star and feedback if you want thank you so much for the support.