Brad Simpson Yin And Yang

"Because I love her"

This chapter isnt that long because I didnt have much motivation writing it but things will start looking up for Brad and Ariana.

Chapter 9 : "Because I love her"

“Yea it’s me” he says with a sad tone. The atmosphere goes quiet. Why were we always in situations like this. I quickly wash my face and wipe it off. Since I was crying my makeup was ruined but I didn’t put much on so it was fine. I open the door to see him waiting there for me. I hadn’t seen him in so long. His hair looked a little bit longer than before but that's not important. His eyes were dim and had little to no light well when he looked at me or around me. “I think I should start,” I said after clearing my throat. He looked a bit shocked that I wanted to talk it out. “Um ok” He says with a little happiness in his voice. “I would like to say I’m sorry for not forgiving you for what happened between us three years ago. That’s it” I say to him then walked away. I can hear his footsteps rushing after me. “You're not gonna let me explain myself,” He says, grabbing my arm which was his new thing nowadays. “There's nothing for you to say and if there is I don’t really wanna hear it” I say, taking my arm out of his hands. I know I said I would forgive him but seeing him again made me remember everything he said that night.

“Meeting you was my biggest mistake”

“Can you just stop” He yelled at me which shook me a bit. We both stood in silence. I have never seen him this angry before. “Just let me explain without you constantly leaving. Why do you keep doing that? It’s honestly annoying as hell” He says clenching his fist. I continued to remain quiet not trying to make it worse. “You know what nevermind?” He says while unclenching his fist. “This was all a mistake that I never meant to happen. Everything” He says exhaling. “Your right,” I say, plastering a smile that was fake. We continue to walk down the hall in silence. “Are you um going to be staying with Rosie?” I say breaking the silence again. “Yes I am” he says looking at the time on his watch. “Why?” I say as we turn the corner. “Because I love her,” He says, annoyed.  

I didn’t stay till the end of the show. After about 3 songs I just felt sick to my stomach. The night I had not gone as I planned and I wished I had stayed home like Skylar had said. It had been another 2 weeks Brad still hadn’t come home. I had seen him a couple of times around the flat when I got home from work or when I came out of my room. I wasn't avoiding him and he wasn’t avoiding me. We were not talking to each other because there isn’t anything to say. That night in my bedroom made us confess how we felt about each other and the night of the gig confirmed it. I had gotten a job at a cafe down the street and still needed to finish my UAL application. 

“Hey Airana” Tris says snapping me out of my thoughts. “It’s Ariana not Airana” I say rolling my eyes. He lets out a loud chuckle. He knows I hate it when people call me that it’s annoying. “Sorry Ari but um we have a gig later tonight, you still coming?” He says hoping I would say yes. I honestly didn’t want to but if it meant he would be happy. “Sure but I’ll meet you there” I say staring at my laptop trying to figure out what pictures I would use for the last segment on my application.  

Tristan had already left and I was home alone getting ready. Today I was feeling a little better and planned on enjoying myself and blocking out some of my sadness. I decided to wear my black arctic monkeys crop top with some black jeans and some sneakers. I decided to do my hair in a ponytail with a little string of my hair in the front out. My make up was light. I grabbed my phone along with my purse and got in the taxi down stairs.

When I arrived at the venue there was this big scary man waiting outside. “Um hello I’m Ariana here my backstage pass” I said taking my pass out my bag to let him see it. He looked at it for a couple of seconds before he handed it back to me. “Can I see some ID?” He said in an angry but calm tone. I took my ID out and showed it to him but he still had a blank look on his face. “You're not supposed to be here, I'm going to call the head of security” he said reaching to grab his walkie talkie. “I promise I’m supposed to be here. My cousin is the freaking drummer of the band” I said pulling out my phone to show him. “Wow you have a picture with him just like every other fan I have heard before cut the crap and leave before I call the cops” He says, lashing out his anger at me. “She’s supposed to be here and unless you want to lose your job I’d watch how I talk to her” a voice says behind him. “I’m sorry miss I didn’t know” He says in a gentle voice. He moves out the way so I can get in. “Thank you, it's fine,” I say, flashing him a smile. I look up to see Brad at the top of the steps waiting for me. “Thanks” I say, looking at him for the first time again in another two weeks. His hair grew more and his eyes looked more tired than usual like he hadn’t slept. “What are you looking at?” He said annoyed that I was staring at him for so long. “Nothing” I said calmly while we walked in silence. “Sorry” He whispered before we got in the room where everyone else was. I went around and gave everyone hugs and catched up for a bit. I noticed that Bradley was sitting all alone on his phone and I couldn’t help but wonder where Rosie was.  I watched his feet move up and down in anticipation as if he was waiting for a text or a call back. As much as I wanted to go over to him and ask what was wrong I knew it would make him more upset after I was his biggest mistake. “Boys it’s time for you to head on stage” Joe says entering the dressing room. 

During the concert I couldn’t help but get him out of my mind. Was he okay? What happened? Is it because of me? Did Rosie find out we kissed? Did he tell her and she broke up with him? All those thoughts ran through my head that I didn’t even realize the show finished until Kristie grabbed my hand. “Come on, the show is over” She said gently pulling me backstage. When we got backstage she let go of my hand and all of us walked back to the dressing room to get refreshments before we headed out. “I’m going to go to the bathroom, I'll be back” I tell Kristie before turning around to find a bathroom. I continued to walk down the hall looking to see if I could find a bathroom but nothing. “You kissed her Bradley what do you want me to say” I hear a familiar voice yelling down the left hall. I turn down the left hall curious to who it was. “Just because I kissed her doesn’t mean you should have slept with another guy” I hear a guy yell. I peep down the hall to see Rosie and Brad yelling at each other. I hid behind the sound equipment so they wouldn’t see me. “Okay and you cheated and I cheated what’s the difference” Rosie yells back at Brad. I watched her fist clenched into a ball. “I know what I did was wrong but what you did was worse than me” He yells at Rosie tugging on his trousers. “You know what I should've slept with her because at least I’ll know she would do a better job in bed than you” He says looking at Rosie right in the eye. I watch Rosie’s face go pale. Then she unclenched her fist then slapped him right across the face. I watched Brad grab his right cheek which got red quickly. “I hope she’s better at that too". I watched Rosie march out to the exit. I saw tears form in his eyes. Thoughts ran through my head. Were they talking about me? Why did Brad just say that? “Why are you hiding back here?” Tristan says, coming up from behind me. I watched Bradley turn around to see me hiding behind the sound equipment. I watched his face get really angry.  Damn it Tristan.

This is the end of chapter 9. Chapter 10 is when things start getting better and thanks for reading.