All the things I never told you

keeping busy.

Dear Korra,

Korra! You'll never believe what happened! I just signed a contract to help redesign Republic City's infrastructure! Much to Raiko's dismay over "budgeting concerns". I don't really see why budgeting is more of a concern than the wellbeing of our home. Certain parts of the city are still in dissaray after your battle with UnaVaatu. (Not that it's your fault. Damn Raiko won't do anything about it.)

You and I have seen the city personally over the years. Even before the destruction that took place that day there was still changes that needed to be made. Thousands live on the streets or in small, practically unlivable shanties. If anything, the damage your battle caused will end up doing more good in the long run.

We'll be able to build apartments that can hold hundreds in smaller spaces. People that have been homeless due to lack of living space will be able to buy a home and live comfortably. It just goes to show that even things you label as your "failures" usually end up helping others.

I've been keeping pretty busy the past few days since the deal became official. Working with Raiko and the other buisness people has been challenging to say the least. Work seems to be piling up and I'm the only one willing to do it. Not that I'm complaining, if you can't get it done right you might as well do it yourself. I have a hunch that late nights in the office might become more common.

Speaking of keeping busy, how have you been doing? Mako and Bolin have been wondering. I lied and told them we haven't been keeping in touch. But I still want to know for my sake.

I know I wrote that I didn't like asking you that. There's a part of me that believes you don't like talking about it either but there's only so long I can go without knowing. I wrote to Kya last week, I don't know if she told you. For my sake I hope she didn't.

I don't know why, me and Kya have never been all that close. She's nice, don't get me wrong. It just felt very sudden sitting down and writing a letter to someone I'd only talked to once or twice. Maybe I was desperate to know how you were doing, part of me knows that when you tell me you're doing fine you're not.

Turns out I'm right. According to her you're still having nightmares, you can't walk yet, and you're having outbursts, among other things. Why did you lie to me? Can I really even call it a lie? I didn't ask you directly if those things were happening. Vaatu, I didn't even ask you how you were doing. I'm an idiot Korra. I really am.

How were you supposed to respond to my letter? I literally said "how are things in the south?". Of course you're not going to indulge me in the trauma you've faced in the past 6 months as a response. Wow... it really has been that long hasn't it? Six months, half a year. Somehow it feels like it's been years.

I'm sorry I haven't written as many letters. It's not as if you write back as often but you actually have a good excuse. I simply don't know what to say... Something I admire about you is that over the years your compassion has allowed you to relate to others in a way I never could have imagined.

Me and Opal were talking the other day, she was helping me come up with sketches for rebuilding as apart of her tasks for the remodeling of Air Nation culture. We ended up talking about you, how good of a teacher you were for Opal when you two first met. Despite the fact you hadn't ever taught anyone in your life. Did you know you're one of the reasons Opal even decided to leave Zaofu?

She was so scared to leave her home for something new and unfamiliar. But with you as her teacher and friend and an extra push from our esteemed cheif of police she made the choice to take her chances. Alot of the new Airbenders agree it would have been alot harder to make the change without your encouragement and sacrifice.

You inspire people Korra, not because you're the Avatar or because you have an infinite amount of power. More so, because you've struggled like everyone of us and you still find a way to get back up, and end up getting even stronger from the experience. You found a way after Amon, Unalaaq and Vaatu, and now the Red Lotus and Zaheer. You're working so hard, just remember that you always have a place in Republic City.

You always have a place with me. If you wanted it that is. Knowing you, you probably would just tell me you're fine even if I sent this letter out. You'd deny everything Kya said despite the fact that we both know the truth.

I'll let you be stubborn. I'll let you win this once. You're going through stuff, I just hope you know I'm here. You seem to have created this illusion that the idea of me heading to the South Pole would be an issue. The reality is that, if you asked, I would drop everything. My company, my plans, I'd cancel everything to be with you for as long as you wanted.

Spirits, you'd probably end up forcing me back on a ship to Republic City. To put it simply- I'm not sure what would be worse. Seeing you after six months only to leave and not see you again for who knows how long. Or going without seeing you, and waiting until you come back for good. Which could be any day now... or it could be another six months.

I don't want to rush you. You shouldn't come back for Mako, or Bolin, or me. You shouldn't come back because or Raiko or whatever is happening in the Earth Kingdom, when you come back it should be on your own terms. It should be when you decide you're ready. We all know you deserve that much.

I know you deserve better, I'm sorry I can't give that to you. I miss you Korra. I'll be sure to keep you up to date in less forward letters I actually send out to the South.

Love, Asami.