All the things I never told you

someone even half as good as you.

Kya came back to Republic City for a short time. I'm sure you heard about it. The Southern Pole is a small place and you two are close.

Me and Kya have surprisingly grown closer over the past couple of months, I mentioned to you that I wrote her letters right? Did I send that letter to you? Nevermind. The point is we've kept in touch, she says you're getting better.

That you've started walking, training even. Please don't push yourself. I know you're probably excited about returning to your duties and as proud of you as I am for being so selfless, I don't want to see you hurt yourself in the process.

Everything will workout. You just have to give it time. I promise, this one I don't make lightly.

I know that soon enough you'll be back here helping us fight crime. Speaking of crime, have you heard about Kuvira?

Apparently she's out of control. I'm not one to get into gossip, nor do I want to spread rumors but the reports that have been sent out are startling. She's practically forcing city-states to join her, and if they don't agree she coerces them.

It worries me that Bolin is still working for her, I know he's gullible but something about the woman tips me off. I have a feeling that something is going to happen. Seriously, Korra, she calls herself, and I quote...."The great uniter" who does that?

Goes to show that when given positions of power people are almost always bound to take advantage. I mean think of the Earth queen, The past firelords. They all had this amazing amount of power but in the end it turned them corrupt. Maybe they always were,  perhaps a turn of events along the way made them who they were and are now. Regardless, it scares me.

Because I wield that kind of power, you wield that power. My company, your avatarhood. In terms of influence it's one in the same. Either one of us in the right circumstances could make choices that result in us becoming the likes of Kuvira or Firelord Ozai.

I think about that alot. The line between good and evil, right and wrong. How so often what should seem clear and straightforward becomes messy. We saw it with the Revolution. A movement to gain equality by hurting Benders. Then, with the civil war, one tribe simply trying to help the other, to no avail.

Everyone wants to do what they think is right. No one does something because they want to be evil. I'd like to believe that's a fact. We're all the heroes in our own story, that's a fact my father taught me. He wholeheartedly believed what he was doing was right. Just like Zaheer, and all the other Red Lotus associates.

But they were wrong. They were wrong about you, they doubted you, your abilities, the idea of even having an Avatar in some cases. They were all wrong.

You're good. I'm not sure if it's simply you, or the combination of thousands of good people and a spirit intertwined to create a person I am so impossibly in love with. And that's a question for which I'll probably never have an answer.

All I know is you are good. A good person. A good daughter. A good friend, one of the best I've ever had. So many bad things have happened to you, yet it's never changed your heart- if anything it's made you better.

How are you so good?

And what do you see in someone like me? Enough to keep me as a friend even through all we've been through? I remember you told me you loved me once.

I have my doubts you were 100% serious. It was before you went to confront Zaheer, I tried to stop you, we all did. Before you left you said those three words and for more than it's all I can ever think about.

You didn't mean it- not in the way I wish you did. Of course you love me, I'm your best friend as you are mine. But you'll never love me the way I love you because you only see me as a friend.

I hate that word.

I hate that I can't see you.

I hate that you're in too much pain to write me back, and I'm too much of a coward to do anything about it.

If I was more brave I could get on a boat right now, the South Pole is only a few days journey. I am in fact, a coward. I've tried more than once, buying tickets for boats, even renting my own to make a surprise trip. It never panned out.

I always managed to convince myself that you didn't want me there. Maybe it's the truth, maybe it's not. But if you wanted me there you would have told me wouldn't you?

Would you? I'm not so sure I know the answer to that.

My mind always went to the worst places. Me in a heavy trench coat, knocking on your door. Senna and Tonraq gladly letting me in. I would make my way over to your room. Ecstatic to see you after so long.

I don't like going into detail. Let's just say you weren't so ecstatic. If anything I'm an overthinker. It's my greatest protector as a business woman... and my biggest weakness as a friend.

You deserve better. Better than me, Mako, or Bolin. Someone who doesn't delegate on every little thing. Someone who isn't afraid to go the distance because that little shrivel of a chance you'd feel the same would be enough. You deserve that.

You deserve what you give to us. What you give to me and the whole entire world.

I'm sorry I don't have much to give. That the world will always take more from you than it could ever give. I guess that's what happens when you're the Avatar. I don't see you as the Avatar. I see you as the person who always trusted me, who gave me a home when mine was taken, who sailed across the desert with me, who loved me for all I was.

You were the first person to accept me as I was. You were intense and hotheaded. Sometimes you still are, and you see that in me. You see it and you embrace it.

I don't know if I'll ever meet someone even half as good as you. Granted half as good is still pretty damn good.

I love you Korra. Please write me back soon, I miss you so much.

Love, Asami