Avengers broken

Ch. 30 "Kids?"

                                                  Hayden POV 

I laid in the bed, I looked at the clock it was 3AM, yet another sleepless night, I slowly sat up in the bed digging through the bag I brought with, Putting on some fresh clothes on, 

I open the window because I didn't want to wake Clint or Laura, she seemed nice, but you know what they say don't judge a book by it's cover, 

I walked the grounds for a while, until the sun rose, I sat on the roof of the barn, this place, somewhat brought my mind at ease, 

This place, it felt relaxing, like I could actually feel at peace here, is that even possible? could that even happen? I thought 

I shook my head, no you can't look at how you can't even get a decent nights sleep because of my past constantly reminding me where I come from, 

I don't know my mind is a mess, why did Clint bring me here? was it because he felt sorry for what's happened, or was it something else, I thought 

The sun finally rose, I climbed down the roof of the barn, 

I climbed the tree that was close to the window of the room I was staying in and climbed back through the window, 

I closed the window just in time to hear a knock on the door, 

"Hayden you up?" I hear Clint, 

"Um, Yeah," I said walking to the door opening it, 

"Great come on, Laura made breakfast, come one there are some people I want you too meet," He said 

"Alright?" I said a little confused 

"Who is it more Shield agents?" I asked 

He chuckled, 

"No mini agents," He said as we walked down the stairs two little figures came running towards us, 

"Daddy," The both yelled hugging him, 

Clint hugged them as he lifted them off the ground, 

Clint has Kids? I thought 

"Hayden this is Cooper and Lila," Clint said 

I smiled, a genuine smile something about small kids brought that out of me no matter what demons lurked in my mind, 

"Hello it's nice you meet you two," I said 

"Do you work with daddy?" Lila said 

"I do," I said chuckling 

Laura came walking in with a little baby, 

"And this is Nathaniel," Clint said taking the baby from Laura, 

I chuckled as I crossed my arms looking at Clint, 

"And here I thought I was the only one hiding secrets," I said 

Clint chuckled 

"Yeah, Fury helped me set this up when I first joined Shield," Clint said 

"Makes sense," I said 

"Come on guys let's eat before breakfast gets cold," Laura said 

I watched as they rushed to the kitchen Clint not far behind, 

Have to admit Clint being a husband and father did not see that one coming, I thought as I walked cautiously into the kitchen and ate breakfast with the Barton family like it was a normal thing, 

The thing is I don't even know what normal is, me and my parents never did anything like this, no family meals, no laughing having fun, I don't know what this is? 

If I don't know what this is, why does it feel so right? I thought 

Is this how it is supposed to feel? or am I just analyzing this a little too much, 

After breakfast I decided I was going to check out the land of this place, the sun was high in the sky, I was currently sitting on a wooden fence looking at the miles of land, 

This place is something I've never experienced before, It was relaxing, 

I hear walking, and See Clint, 

"Thought I would find you out here," He said 

"mm," I said humming 

"This place, how long have you been here?" I asked not looking at him, 

"Ever since I joined Shield," He said 

"Hmm," I hummed 

"Pretty great huh?" He said chuckling 

I nodded, 

"Now what I wanna know is why you were sneaking in your window at the early morning," Clint said 

"You knew?" I said looking at him, 

"Ex assassin," He said smirking 

"Hayden I want you to feel like this is your home, you don't have to sneak out, you can come and go as you please," Clint said looking at me serious 

"Okay," I said 

                                                    Clint POV 

I can see Hayden slowly coming out of that shell, the wall finally slowly starting to chip away, a few more days and maybe just maybe, she will trust us, 

The smile she gave to the kids when I introduced them to her, It was something I have never seen on her face and I want to see that more often, I want Hayden to feel like a kid, have the childhood she deserves, 

I just hope she can let down that wall she has up, I thought as I sat there watching the sun go down with her