Beautiful Nightmares

Kabanata 10: Fiesta

Kabanata 10: Fiesta

When I stopped being naive, the world made me see the lonely things. That I can't be everything I think I can be. What I had envisioned for myself is not always where I'll eventually wind up. The world made me experience the anguish of letting go of something I had long, held, dear, and turning away from what I had long believed was best for me. It seemed as though I had abruptly resumed my life.

I hope I fall in love with life again.

One day, maybe, I won't take sunsets so seriously that they always make me miserable. I want to appreciate sunsets in a way that renews my soul and gives me a sense of accomplishment. Life is slowly unfolding for me. It's how we've been able to continue moving forward in the face of difficulties. I came to realize how unavoidable they are and how much of this so-called "life" is composed of them.

I start to walk back from the village after my morning jog. I realize kase na halos wala naman akong ginagawa dito, so a little run won't hurt right? And I also promise myself last time na mag start ng magexercise after kong makauwe, but why do it later if I have so much time right now?

Kristen, come right back

I've been waiting for you~

I hum while pushing a few tall grass na maaaring makadali sa legs ko. Baka mamaya may basil jan eh. And yes I know what basil is. I may not find dun sa thought na people name other wild animals, alam ko naman kung ano ang isang wooly caterpillar. I don't actually know kung bakit ako nageexplain, feeling ko kase ambobo ko dun sa part na naamaze ako that Adam named his horse Sean. I thought kase people do it for publicity or views on social media. I'm really more naïve than I thought.

"Anong meron?"

Bungad na tanong ko pagdating sa bahay. People are swarming outside with their colorful clothes and even have flowers and stuff.

"Oh, hinde pala nabanggit sayo ni Kuya Adam ate? Fiesta ngayon." Sagot saakin ni Chuchay habang busy sa pag gagawa ng isang crown flower, or maybe it's a flower necklace?

Hinde gaano madami ang tao sa baryong ito, as in barely kaya hinde ganon kahirap malaman na may something because even though this place is small and almost isolated, ngayon ay mangilan ngilan akong nakikitang mga bagong muka.

"Nga pala ate, may ulam jan natakpan sa lamesa. Umalis kase si Lola at nakikitulong sa paggawa ng ulam sa kabilang bahay. Kasama niya si Buchoy." Wika nya sabay taas ng kanyang ginawa na may malaking ngite.

"Si Kuya Adam naman po, maaga umalis tutulong ata maglagay ng kaunting palamuti sa baryo. Kaya dalawa lang tayo ditto ngayon." Napatango naman ako.

"Wala ba tayong maitutulong sa kanila?" tanong ko.

Isang multong ngite naman ang lumabas sa mga labi ni Chuchay at ikinaway ang kanyang ginagawang mga palamuti.

"Isang tradisyon saamin na magsuot ng mga bulaklak tuwing piyesta, ngunit dahil puro matatanda nanamn ang naandito sa baryo ay hinde na makagawa ang iba. Kaya tayo nalang ang gumawa para sa kanila." Ani niya.

Napangite naman ako at marahang tumango. You can really see how she cares for the whole village. I never even cared to my relatives or kapit bahay nang ganyang taong gulang palang ako. Maybe, it is because she was raise in an isolated place? Nevertheless her intention was genuine, na parang tuwang tuwa pa syang may kasama siyang gumawa ng mga palamuting ito kaya wala ng pag-aatubili na sumang ayon ako at agad na nag ayos ng sarile.

Amoy pawis pa kase ako kaya nagbihis ako ng damit at buong maghapon ay yun ang ginawa naming dalawa. And to my surprise ni hinde ko nakita ang anino ni Missy buong araw na iyon. I heard her name being called kanina from a far, but I'm too focused sa pagawa ng mga bulaklak na ito.