What If I Jumped? (Kiribaku)

• chapter one •

Kirishima's pov

I layed in my bed at the dorms, and stared at the ceiling. It was around 11pm on a friday, and I can't sleep, not because of noise or whatever, I just can't stop thinking about things. It's not necessarily bad thoughts all the time, it can be random, but they keep me up, and before I know it, the time flies by.

Tonight however, it is bad thoughts keeping me up. And I can't be alone when I have bad thoughts, because I will overthink and believe them, and then I won't know what to do. But I can't go to anyone about it because no one knows I feel like this. I'm always happy and outgoing, and I know I lift their spirits when things get rough, so for me to ask for help, it can damage things.

I put my hands over my eyes as I try to sleep again.

Half an hour goes by and I'm still awake. The thoughts have gotten worse. And there's a quiet voice in my head that is telling me I'm useless. That my quirk doesn't help anyone, I'm only at UA because I energise people. My friends don't need me, they're better off without me because they're stronger, and smarter. And in a fight with a villain, I'd only just hold them back.

I tend to overthink alot, and I blame myself because I don't know anything better to do. I feel my eyes tearing up. I really need to cry, but I don't have the energy to. I've been losing motivation to do anything lately, no matter how simple. And I can't even cry when I needed to.

Soon the tears starts running down my cheeks whenever I blinked though. And I got a weird sensation in my chest, as if my heart was being pulled or something. I curled into a fetus position and put my hands on my heart and chest, I sobbed as quietly as I could. After a couple minutes, I was having a full on panic attack. I couldn't breathe, but I couldn't stop crying either.

I accidentally breathed in, which, because of feeling like I had a lump in my throat and opening it up at the same time as breathing, i let out a loud gasp and sobbed out loud a bit louder accidentally. I'm guessing someone heard because I got a text.

I rolled over in bed and tried to calm down as I went to see who text me.

Bakubro🧡
Hey, shitty hair.
Is that you that I hear crying? You're fucking loud.

I mentally slapped myself, I thought I was being quiet ish.

Me
There's someone crying?
It's not me, don't worry

Bakubro🧡
Don't lie to me shit face.
I'm going to your room now

Me
I'm not lying!
And also, I'm trying to sleep, so go away

Bakubro🧡
Shut the fuck up, open the door.

I wiped away my tears the best I could, and since it was dark it would be hard for katsuki to see them anyway. I cleared my throat and opened the door.

I was met with bakugo, who pushed past me and walked into my room. I closed the door and turned my light onto dim, so that we could see, but not so that he could see my face well.

Our eyes met and I quickly looked away. Bakugo sat on my bed and patted the space next to him, "Turn the light off, shitty hair. No point in leaving it on."

I turned it off and sat next to him, our backs on the wall, with our feet hanging of the edge of the bed. Suddenly I felt the need to cry again. My breathing sped up the tiniest bit so I bit my lip slightly, and let out a small sniffle. Bakugo looked at me while I looked at the wall.

"I'm sleeping here tonight." He said, still looking at me. I blushed the tiniest bit, but it was so dark that he couldn't see.

"You don't have to, there's nothing wrong."

"Shut your mouth, I'm sleeping here. You can go on the floor." I looked at him in disbelief.

"This is my room though! You came in here without my permission!" I whisper yelled.

"I don't care, I'm sleeping here whether you like it or not. And plus, would you rather share a bed? No. So you sleep on the floor." He growled at me.

I sighed and got on the floor. Facing away from him. He asked if I wanted a pillow, or an extra blanket, "No." I replied, in monotone.

I didn't look at him as he got into my bed, because I was worried he'd feel the wetness on the pillows from my tears, and I didn't want him to question me.

But unfortunately, nothing ever works out for me.

"Oi shitty hair. I was fucking right, you were crying." He whisper/growled.

"It doesn't concern you, so I'm not going to talk to you about it." I said, curling into my body for warmth.

Bakugo looked at me, still in bed, and just sighed loudly. "Fine. Come here."

"What do you mean, 'come here'?"

"I mean fucking come here, get in the god dammed bed!" He whispered aggressively.

I turned my head to look at him and he was laying down, close to the edge so that I could sleep closer to the wall. I climbed over him and got in the blanket.

"This is only because you're sad. Don't think anything else about it."

"I know" I mumbled as I closed my eyes.

"Move over" He suddenly told me.

I looked at him in annoyance, "I can't, I'm next to a fucking wall."

"I'm about to fall off, shit face!"

Reluctantly, I grabbed his right arm, and since he was facing my back already, I pulled it over my waist.

"What the fuck are you doing!" He growled.

"Do you wanna fall off?", I asked questionaly, "and it's just hugging, friends can hug." I laughed a bit.

He growled a bit, and put his arms around me, his chest to my back. I blushed and felt my heart speeding up when I felt him breathing on the back of my neck.

He hugged a bit tighter, and we both slowly difted off to sleep...

That's the first chapter! It's not to bad so that's good I guess:)
I'll update tomorrow too