What If I Jumped? (Kiribaku)

• Chapter Forty-one •

Kirishima's pov

The next thing I knew, I was outside the door to Bakugo's dorm, shaking, standing next to Kaminari, who insisted that he walk me back.

"You're okay, it's okay-" He tried to calm me down, but it made no difference.

Though I didn't want him to, he knocked on the door and waited for it to open.

"I don't want to tell him what happened.." I mumbled, quietly, ashamed of my actions.

He was silent for a second or two before answering, "Neither do I."

He knocked again, this time louder.

There was a rustling of sheets and a tired groan, followed by a panicked breath. I assumed he realised I wasn't next to him.

I could hear him get out of bed and walk across the room.

The door opened, revealing a worried and sleepy Bakugou. He looked at me anxiously, then looked at Denki glaring.

"What did you do." He questioned him.

"B-baku.." I called him, softly.

"I'm here, angel." He answered, pulling me into him, gently as he could. He wrapped me in his arms, hugging me warmly.

I let out a few tears, but felt more safe now that I had him. I closed my eyes and breathed out.

One of his arms rubbed my back, comfortingly, as he continued to ask Kaminari questions.

"Why were you two together this late at night?!" He whisper/yelled.

I could practically hear the gulp that Denki made.

"I-i.. uh-"

"Tell me now."

"I wanted to meet him?" He answered, unsurely.

"At this time?"

"...Yeah."

"What did you want to meet him for?"

"I just wanted to hang out.."

"And you couldn't have just 'hung iut' tomorrow?"

"..I'm sorry, I didn't think."

"No. No you didn't." He huffed out and moved his hand from my back to my hair, massaging my head as I controlled my breathing.

"..What happened, baby?" He asked me, kissing my forehead.

I sniffled, "Can..can we not talk about that please?"

"Kiri, I need to know. I'm not going to get angry at you."

"You will get angry at me, though."

"Angel, please tell me.."

I placed my arms around his waist, pulling me closer to him. My head rested on his chest, listening to his heartbeat.

"Before I tell you..please don't hurt Kaminari.."

"..I won't."

I took a deep breath as I tried my best to explain what happend.

I could tell that Bakugo was doing his best not to lash out at Denki when I got to the part of us kissing. But as I moved away from my position, now standing infront of him, I could see he was holding back tears.

"Bak-"

"And what happened after you.. kissed him.." His voice cracked a bit, making him clear his throat.

"Baby.."

"Just tell me."

I sighed as tears filled my eyes yet again.

"..I got flashbacks of Dabi. And the things he did."

Bakugo's eyes widened at me. He looked so sorry and sad.

"I'm so sorry, Kiri.." He looked down to the floor.

"No, don't be sorry, you didn't do anything. I'm the one that fucked up. Not you."

"I mean I'm sorry that you got flashbacks, those weren't your fault. I'm pissed that you kissed him." His undereyes were red with holding back tears.

I furrowed my brows to not cry at the sight.

"I'm sorry. I am. It was a mistake and-"

"It was..?" Denki butted in, looking at me with watery eyes.

I forgot he was even there..

I looked over to him with regret clear on my face, "You know that we couldn't-"

"I- Yeah, you're right.. I'm sorry, Bakugo. Sorry, Kiri. I'll leave you two alone properly now.." Without another word, he walked away, out the building.

I was going to call after him but I decided against it, turning back to my boyfriend instead.

I watched as he used his palm to wipe his eyes, "..Baku-"

"Can we talk about this tomorrow? I don't think I'm in the right headset for this right now."

"..But please let me apologize. Let me explain. Or something. Just please.." I reached for his hand to hold it but he pulled away.

"Listen.. I don't hate you for this. I just can't talk to you tonight."

"Please-"

"We'll talk tomorrow, I promise.."

He stepped backwards, back into his room, hand on the door.

"Am I.. am I not sleeping with you?" I asked, trying not to scream at how stupid I sounded after what I did.

"Goodnight, Kiri."

He shut the door.

I stood still for a minute. My lip trembled as tears ran down my face, silently.

My feet slowly walked back to my own dorm room, standing infront of the door, hesitating to open it. I felt that if I went in there, something bad would happen. Or that I would do something bad, like hurt myself.

So instead of opening it, I sat down on the floor, facing the opposite direction, with my back against the wood.

My shoulders shook as I let more tears run down my already wet cheeks. I bought my knees to my head and wrapped my hands around my legs, crying into my body.

I was aware that Bakugou might hear me, so I tried to stay as quiet as possible, choking on the lump in my throat every few minutes or so.

Soon, my eyelids slowly drifted to a close, sending me off to an unwanted sleep..

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Guys, I'm sorry it's so short but I had no inspiration for this one. However! I do have my next chapter planned out :))

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