through the phone | mileven texting au

forty-two

mike the dummy 👊🏻💖

pretty girllll
i miss you

i saw you like 3 hours ago

where you at
i wanna see you

i'm home?
i just got off a call with liv and my stupid team 😤😤

ok
totally care
I MISS YOU
I NEED TO SEE YOU

then come over?
i really don't mind

i know
but holly
can you come over 🙂🙃

i cant

whyyyyy 😩

period cramps 😩😩
don't wanna move
🥺

oh
i'm sorry
i heard they bad bad

mhm
it is
i almost fainted once. i was like lightheaded and then had to sit down in school

WHAT
HOWS THAT POSSIBLE

yeah
my vision was blurry after that
i had no strength to move
it was terrible
i hate periods
sometimes i wish i just went bleh

what does went bleh mean

you know like...... bleh

huh

whatever
don't wanna spell it out
anyways probs gonna skip school tmr
no biggie
hate my life

but your life includes me ☹️

🙄🙄
you know what i mean

no i don't

you're annoying
shut up

wait then what are you eating tonight?

i think my dads coming home early
and i texted him saying i'm moody so i think he knows to bring me marshmallows which helps my period
and he'll probably buy takeout

good

need to puke
gotta go

oh my god
(delivered 5:49pm)

i feel so sick
i think i might be pregnant
but that's not possible because i'm on my stupid period
people say you can die from too much blood loss from periods
what if that happened to me?

don't be silly
it won't

yeah but
what if it did

then i would cry

no you won't

yes i would

noooo you won't
because we've been dating for like 2 and a half months
you probs wouldn't care
and that's okay
because i'll die happy knowing you didn't waste your tears on me

wtf are you on about
why would i not care!?

becauseeeeeee

because what?

because i'm suicidal anyways so it would be bound to happen ya know

el
what are you saying?

hehe
i'm just stating facts boo

what facts?
i don't see or hear it

like
the chances of a suicidal person dying is higher because you know. suicidal.
the chances of me dying in the following year is also high
so if i died now it wouldn't really matter because i have everything set up and done

set up?
and it would matter btw

nah it wouldn't
it's gucci i know that already

but what do you mean by set up?

you know just
how my dad will be after i pass
what happens to winnie
went to the places i want to be
visited my mom enough this year so she's up to date when i join her
and i dated you
i kissed you
and we did the nasty nasty
i met the party
i played my hockey
told my liv i love her
and i have my letters
so i am good
really good

what letters?

well before
i didn't talk to people much so i found writing them down on paper and pretending that i'll give it to that person would help
eventually they just evolved to my death note
why we taking bout dis?
switch subjects
bloop bloop
i just online shopped
feeling hyper

i don't want to switch subjects

ugh fine
recap
extra depressed on periods
and now that i got worse
i'm also really suicidal on them because they always make me think that if i die i won't go through pain like this
and then it will lead on to me thinking about the other pain i've been through
then i just wanna hop into the bathtub and then do 😕🔫💀
so yeah there

i'm coming over

bruh what no
you have to take care of holly
i'll be fine
anywayssssss
gotta do hw and binge watch greys
byeeee

fine ok
text me if you need to

i will
😤😤

❤️
(seen 6:12pm)

bb

hi ❤️

i'm in so much pain
i need help
idk what to do
my dad is just staring at me in pain
because he doesn't know what to do either
i definitely can't go to school tmr
BAHAHHA IM JUST LAYING HERE LIKE 😣😖💀
i feel dead
i don't think i moved much

take pain killers, el

nah
never helped
text me about something funny
or bad
i don't care
distract me

um
so my dad came back for like an hour
has a whole fight
and the whole time me, holly and nancy sat there like 👨‍👩‍👧 eating dinner in our hands because they were fighting and it was like a whole movie
and then me and nancy were just like ooh yes good point and like nah that's bad
and we just kept commenting until they glared at us and stopped

BHAHAHAHHA
I CAN TOTALLY IMAGINE THAT
also bb
i forgot to tell you that i need help with science
see you smart and i'm dumb so i need help

of course
can i come by tmr?

nah
i'll be in pain the whole time
i wouldn't be able to focus

ok then :(
the day after?

yeah sure
that'll probably be better
i'm gonna sleep now

okay
goodnight ❤️

goodnight bb 🥺🥺
(seen 10:39pm)

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a/n: i'll continue on texting chaps since i love them too much