No Matter What 2 | Donah Meavey

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Daniel's pov

Actually I'm extremely happy that Jonah decided to come here and we could finally make things clear. I haven't thought today when I woke up that he's not even just gonna show up at my apartment, but we basically get back together. Well I don't know if we officially got back together or not cause we haven't said anything clearly, but nor did we for the first time so..okay, it doesn't matter if we say it or not cause it's way more important to me that he's here with me right now.

Like I said before, shit happens sometimes, but I know he's not like that. It only was a one time failure and I'm more than hundred percent sure that it's never gonna happen again. I see it in his eyes that he's truly sorry for what happened and I forgave him already. Not fully still cause it's not that easy, but I love him more than anything and I'm not gonna risk losing him again. There's no way.

"It's getting pretty late, so..I should go." Jonah said as we were still sitting together on the couch in the living room. He was right. I mean it was getting late. It was almost 10.30pm. Then I actually realized that he most likely still doesn't have a place to go to. Holy shit. Through the whole time we were not together, he was probably sleeping out there on that bench in the park.

"Where would you go?" I asked him, kind of worrying after what I just realized.

"Don't worry about that." he replied. Oh my god it means that he really sleeps on that bench again. Ugh I should have known that. I made him homeless again.

"No no no, you can't go and sleep in that park again." I said. But actually he has been sleeping there for about a month now.

"It's fine. Seriously." he said like it's nothing. For me it was a big deal cause I feel guilty. Well I am guilty.

"No, it's not fine..it's horrible that now because of me you have to sleep on the streets...again. I haven't even realize it back then. I'm sorry Jonah." I said sadly and he just hugged me, rubbing my back softly.

"Don't blame yourself. It's not your fault. If I would've behaved normally, then things would be different now. I messed up everything I could in my life." he said and we pulled away.

"Don't say that. You know...uhh I think..I should apologize too. Cause I guess things would be different now if I would've just let you explain yourself that night. And maybe I overreacted it...well for sure I overreacted it and I'm sorry for that." I said honestly, acknowledging my part of guilt. Jonah smiled at me and automatically my lips curved into a smile too. "You're not mad?" I asked and he just rolled his eyes playfully.

"Me? I should be the one asking you this question." he replied and we laughed. Then he caressed my hair and it made me blush lightly.

"I was never mad at you. Just...slightly disappointed I think." I responded and he nodded, understanding me.

"I'm afraid it's never gonna be the same between us. That thought is making me feel anxious." he said quietly and looked down.

"I feel the same way." I acknowledged and he looked up at me.

"Really?" he asked. I nodded and we were just looking into each other's eyes.

"What now?" I questioned. I've never been in a situation like this. So frustrating.

"I don't wanna lose you." he said immediately. "If I can't have you, I don't want no one. Like...I love you so damn much, but..I feel like...what happened is always gonna be in the background like a shadow." he added.

"Yeah. You're right. But I think we can make this work..together. We went through so much together and we never gave up, never lost hope. We were here for each other every time. I fell in love with you as soon as I saw you. That has to mean something. We never even argued if we don't count that night. I know there were some hard times anyways, but you always put a smile on my face even on the darkest day." as I was saying this, I started to get emotional and Jonah too. "I don't wanna throw all of this away just because we made one mistake."

"You spoke from my heart, Dani. But I'm the one who made that mistake." he said and I shoke my head no.

"I'm guilty just as much as you are. I know that." I replied.

"You're not." he whispered with teary eyes. I hugged him cause I saw that he needs it now. He couldn't stop blaming it all on himself, but I wasn't innocent neither. He just now that the whole reason why he got drunk and we broke up, came out as a big misunderstanding, he can't accept that he did it all because of nothing basically.

We were hugging there in comfortable silence for a couple of minutes. It was now past 11pm and I was getting sleepy a bit.

"I think I'm gonna go to bed now. If you don't mind it." I said and we pulled away.

"Of course, no problem. I was about to leave anyways." he replied and I tilted my head looking at him.

"Jonah, I already told you that you can stay here. I'm not gonna let you sleep on the streets." I said and he smiled.

"Well I can take the couch then. If you really don't mind me staying here." he responded and I smiled as well. I was just happy that he's back in my apartment again. Even if I would love to have him in my bed like I used to. But that would be early. Or not? I mean we're not strangers, but still.

"I want you to stay." I said and his smile widened.

"You can't even imagine how much this means to me. Thank you so much." he responded and I stood up from the couch.

"You're very welcome. I get your PJ's and some blankets." I replied and headed into my room to get them. Actually his pyjamas were still in my bed, waiting for him. Like I knew he's gonna come back to me. Or more like I wished. I grabbed them and took some blankets from the wardrobe and in a few seconds I was already back in the living room next to Jonah.

I stopped by the end of the couch and he stood up. Then I handed him over his pyjamas and the blankets.

"Thanks." he said as he took them from me. I smiled as a response and he smiled back at me, putting his pyjamas and blankets down on the couch. "Well..goodnight Dani." he added.

"Goodnight." I responded. Then he came even closer to me, put his index finger under my chin and leaned in. In the next moment I felt his lips on mine.