No Matter What 2 | Donah Meavey

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Jonah's pov

"...I get your PJ's and some blankets." Daniel said and left to his room. It's actually such a big gesture from him that he's letting me stay here. He has a big heart really. He's so forgiving and nice to people who don't even deserve it. Just like me. I don't deserve this treatment at all.

In a few seconds I already heard Daniel coming back to me. He stopped by the end of the couch as I stood up. He then handed me my pyjamas and the blankets.

"Thanks." I said and took them from him. He smiled sweetly at me as a response and I had to smile back at him cause he was so adorable. I put my stuff down on the couch. "Well..goodnight Dani." I added.

"Goodnight." he said. I would love to spend my whole night with him as well, but I guess he's not ready to let me way too close yet. Right now we are at the very early faze of a relationship again. But we already kissed. So in my opinion, kissing is allowed in this faze. That's why I couldn't help myself, but stepped even closer to him, put my finger under his chin and leaned in. Then I kissed his lips, leaving a sweet peck on them.

"I love you." I said when we pulled away.

"I love you too." he replied. Sound to my ears. He looked at me with his wonderful ocean eyes and I saw exactly what I saw every time we made eye contact before. The true love for me. I literally can't ask for more.

I hugged him tightly and closed my eyes, enjoying his closeness. Then I had to let him go cause we're both tired and it's late night already so we need to get some sleep. Although I wish it wasn't separately, so I could hold him in my arms through the whole night.

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When I woke up in the morning, I felt so fresh. It must be because of the comfortable couch I slept on. I looked at the clock on the wall and it was actually kind of early. 6:14am, Sunday. Well, Daniel is probably gonna take his time sleeping cause first of all, it's Sunday, and second of all, it's his day off. I should make him breakfast at least, to show him how much I care about him and also to thank him for letting me sleep at his apartment.

The thought of this little surprise immediately put a smile on my face. I sat up and hung my legs over the edge of the couch. I put my clothes on and hurried into the bathroom to get completely ready for the day.

In a few minutes I was done there and headed back through the hallway, into the kitchen. Of course I was trying to be as quiet as possible cause I don't wanna wake him up so early.

I opened the door on the fridge, looking at what we've got here. I saw an avocado and instantly thought of a nice avocado toast with boiled eggs. I know it's one of Dani's favourite meals for breakfast. Everything I need for that is right here so I only have to put it all together. And boil the eggs. And that's it. Easy, healthy and fast.

I took that one big avocado from the fridge and four eggs. I searched for a pot and filled it with water. I have time till the water reaches its boiling point and I can put those eggs into the pot, so meanwhile I started to prepare the creamy smashed avocado.

When it was done, the eggs were getting boiled as well so the only thing left, was to put toasts into the toaster.

It was around 7am when I got completely ready with everything. I made two of the best looking toasts in my whole life just for Dani. Seriously they looked so delicious and kind of aesthetic as well. I really tried my best. I put them into the fridge for him. My portion of two delicious avocado toasts was prepared on the kitchen table. I sat down and enjoyed every single piece of it. I haven't had a breakfast like this in a while. Out of the money I kept getting from random people passing by me, I could only afford to buy a small espresso.

After I was done with breakfast, which was actually so much better than I expected, I made myself a cup of coffee. The machine beeped and I took the cup. I slowly walked out on the balcony. The sun was rising, birds were singing. It was wonderful. As I was standing there, I looked over to the spot near me, where Daniel and I had to hide, so we could be alone for a couple of minutes when his mom came to visit us. That memory made me smile. I remember as I almost dragged him out here just so I could kiss him. I miss that and those times in general. We had some struggles with money and that wasn't good at all, but in the relationship between us, everything was more than perfect.

I took a sip of my coffee and sat down into the chair that's out here on the balcony. There's also a small coffee table next to it. I used to sit here sometimes also before we broke up. Mostly it was when Daniel was still working in the cafeteria and I was home alone almost all day long. Of course I visited him daily, but I couldn't stay there until his shift was over. That wouldn't be nice from me cause I would've distracted him from work. In the end he was fired cause of lack of concentration, as one of the reasons. Well maybe that was also because of me. Gosh, I keep finding out about things I caused and haven't known about and haven't even realized. Great. Everything that happens is just my fault. What kind of person am I?

I'm glad I came here and we were able to talk and make things clear, but I guess I should've just left afterwards. Cause I'm afraid I'm gonna cause Daniel even more pain and problems in the future, if we stay together. We love each other and actually everything means nothing if I can't have him, but maybe for him it would be better if I would disappear from his life forever and he could move on, find someone who treats him the way he deserves it and with whom he can be truly happy. Someone who would never hurt him the way I did. On the other hand, he chose to be with me, forgave me, even if not fully yet, but he wanted me to stay. That's what matters right now. And I promised him that I'm never ever gonna hurt him again. I'm not gonna break that promise. I swear to my life.

As I was thinking about all this, Daniel appeared within the balcony door. I looked up at him and we smiled at each other.

"Good morning, Dani." I said still smiling.

"Good morning." he replied sweetly.

"I made you breakfast. It's in the fridge." I said and surprise was the main expression on his face.

"Really?" he asked. Aww he was so cute with his morning voice. I almost forgot about how sexy he sounds in the morning. How could I?

"Yeah, so enjoy your meal." I said and he turned around, going into the kitchen I guess. I put down my coffee on the table, stood up from the chair and followed him with a smile. I couldn't stop smiling cause I was curious how he's gonna react.

He opened the fridge and got so happy. I just laughed how a simple breakfast was able to make him this happy. Even if it's his favourite.

"Oh my god. Thank you so much. Seriously." he said taking the plate with the toasts out of the fridge. He put the plate on the kitchen island and looked over at me with a smile. "You haven't forgotten?" he asked and I walked closer to him. I stopped right in from of him and caressed his hair.

"How could I forget about my love's favourite breakfast?" I questioned and he blushed lightly. Oh I love this. He then kissed me. Actually it surprised me cause yesterday I was the one who kissed him both of the times. Okay he kissed me back both of those times, but haven't been the one to start. This means he seriously meant everything he said about his feelings towards me. That even after all, they have never changed.