Trust me

Anger and Love ☯

"Reu" I whispered, stepping closer towards the oak tree that he was leaning against.

But he didn't look up, much to focused on the book he was reading. I tried to get a better look at it, quietly leaning down so that I had a better view of the title. Peter Pan. By the looks of it he was almost finished, and I couldn't help but feel bad for him. He was going to hate the ending.

I walk closer to him, quite enough so that he couldn't hear me. He was so peaceful, so... pretty. I just wanted to kiss him over and over again.

Stepping closer and closer to him I willed myself to remember why I had come here. I was angry. More than angry. I had woken up in the morning to find an empty bed next to me; he hadn't even bothered to be there when I woke up. It was either he was ashamed- Not that we did anything- or he just didn't care. Either way, I was extremely upset when I realized I was alone.

And now here he is, sitting under the oak tree like nothing had happened last night. Like every word he said to me wasn't spoken. But I couldn't get the word 'princess' out of my mind. He called me Princess, and it had sounded so amazing coming from his sweet lips.

I knew I had to confront him, ask him why he wasn't there. But I wasn't exactly sure what to say. 'Hey Reuben, you weren't there this morning, you obviously hate me.'

I sigh, it was now or never.

"Reuben." I say a little louder, but once again he didn't look up, instead he just held up a finger, signaling for me to wait. I stood there impatiently, extremely hurt that he wasn't even happy to be in my presence. I contemplated leaving, turning around and waking away. But I wanted answers, which required me to stand here and wait awkwardly.

Finally Reuben looked up, a small smile spreading on his lips. I didn't return it.

I might as well get to the point. "Why weren't you there when I woke up."

He looked extremely taken aback by this question, a puzzled look crossing his eyes. But he composed himself, sinking further into the tree and looking directly into my eyes.

"I needed to think about some stuff, ya know?"

No. I didn't know. What did he have to think about? Whether he liked me or not? My stomach churned at the thought.

"No, I don't know. Would you care to explain?"

I walked so that I was standing directly in front of him, making sure to never leave eye contact. Folding my hands in front of my chest I gave him a stern look, hoping that it was convincing enough.

"Jess I know what it seems, but its not what you th-"

"Of course its not." I sigh, running a hand through my brown hair. "That's what everyone says. Its not what it seems. But normally it is, so can you just tell me the reason or maybe I should just go?"

Reuben looked stunned again, I had never been this direct with him before. But I was sick of being blown off by guys.

"Jess" Reuben whispered, running a hand through his blonde hair. "Its just, I need to tell you something."

This made me scared, extremely scared. I sat there in shock, knowing that I probably looked like a moron. What on earth did he mean?

Suddenly Reu was standing up and stretching his arm out for me to take. I put my hand in his reluctantly, letting him pull me up.

"Relax." He whispered, pulling me down the hill and towards the meadows. Why were we going here? Isn't this the place that I had tried to commit suicide just a couple of days ago?

"Why are we-"

"Shh" Reu cut me off, squeezing my hand and pulling me a little quicker towards the cliff. I was nervous. What did he want? Why was he taking me here.

I looked down at Reuben's hands in mine, admiring how well they fit together. It was like they were meant to be. I finally found myself relaxing, enjoying the comforting sound of the grass beneath our feet.

"Here" Reu said, stopping just on top of the cliff.

I looked at him confused. Why here?

"What are we doing?" I question, looking at the view in front of me.

"I need to tell you something." I looked at him, edging him to go on.

Reuben took a deep, earth shattering breath before starting. "The first day I met you were down by that oak tree." Reu motioned with his head towards the tree before continuing. "You looked so peaceful, so perfect. It took me almost an hour before I even had the guts to talk to you, and when I did, I didn't regret it for a second. You told me your secrets, and I couldn't help but want to know more. I wanted to know everything about you. Finally you opened up to me, the day you tried to-" He cuts himself off, taking a deep breath. "I watched your hair flowing perfectly around your face and the tears running down your cheeks, and you looked exactly like me."

He suddenly stops, glancing at me slightly before staring back up at the sky.

"Go on." I say, dying to hear the rest.

"I-um." He hesitates before he continues. "I realized something that day that I hadn't realized before."

He turns around and takes both my hands in his, looking deeply into my eyes.

"And what was that?" I breathed, anticipating what was to come next.

"That night when you asked me to stay. I hoped that was a sign that you felt the same way."

I was starting to get the gist of things, becoming nervous by the second.

"Jess, that day at the cliff. I realized that... well..."

Reuben sucks in another shaky breathe before finally letting out the words he had been holding in for so long.

"I think I love you."

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