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this is gonna have random caps and will probably have cussing and like a bit of nsfw??? idk if it's that nsfw tbh :)

why am i acting as if someone's gonna read this long as thing lmfaoooo 😭💀

OH MY GOD WAIT IM WAIT NO WTF SHIT MAN OH MY GOD I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT TO SAY???))$2$&:9

OKOK SO

basically there's this one person, right, we met a while ago on a buzzin larries group chat on twitter, and i don't know there was like something about them that i liked, but i never exactly acknowledged it, because i thought it was just cause they're really funny and like adorable and i don't know i was just like yeah it's a friend way kinda thing. and like i really payed no mind to it and now that i look back, that's like what happened the first time i ever had a crush on someone hafghjw. anyways, of course though, we're all in a group chat and we're teenagers and we're always h word so they were like talking about sexting and i was like 💃🏻🕺🏻💃🏻🕺🏻 I DIDNT KNOW WHAT TO SAY I DONT KNOW THEYD BE LIKE "veeeeeeee" AND ID ALWAYS SAY NO BECAUSE IM SHY AS FUCKSIOS and like so another person in the gc did and the two of them kinda started to date ????

but they'd always sing to me, well not like sing but they'd type some random things like "veeeeeee i love youuuuuu" or like "veeeeeee you mean so much to meeeeeee" and they called it singing and what was weird is that they'd always sing to ME first then maybe after to they were dating and like of course, we're friends so i'm all like chillax 🙄🤚 i love you too, now go talk to your gf.

the thing is though like ??!$6$ i always wanted them to be on and like talk and i'd get so happy when they were online???? it was weird, but like i said, i thought nothing of it. anyways so they like date the other person who's also my friend, but somewhere along my friend kind of like ghosted them???? like my friend ghosted everyone i think, i'd facetime them all the time the bam it was like nothing. so like two days ago the person dms me because well we talk cause we're friends and they're like i miss you AND I DONT KNOW WHY LIKE I LITERALLY ALWAYS WANTED TO TALK TO THEM LIKE ID ALWAYS TEXT FIRST CAUSE ID MISS THEM WHEN WE WOULDNT TALK BUT THEN I REALIZED THAT I WAS PROBABLY JUST BEING CLINGY SO I WOULD HESITATE IN TEXTING THEM

but anyways they like texted me and were like i miss you and like "do you want to be my gf" and i'm just like hold up wtf just happened 🤺🤺🤺 and of course i'm all lost and i'm like uhmmmmm..... do you really like me or are you just lonely.... and they're like "omg no like i really like you and i don't mean to date like right away i mean like get to know each other more and i like you......" AND SO IM LIKE 🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋 HSKSJSKKDJD MY TUMMY FULL OF BUTTERFLIES CAUSE I WAS LIKE WELL SHIT I DONT WANNA SAY YES CAUSE WHAT IF THEYRE PLAYING AND LIKE IDK BC LIKE AT THAG MOMENT IM LIKE WELL SHIT IVE LIKED THEM ALL ALONG AND LIKE

the first and only time i had had a real crush went in a somewhat similar way ???? it was like i didn't know them yet, but theyd have something about them that made me want to get to be with them or talk to them every chance i could get and it's like something always had to trigger me to realize wtf was happening and that the butterflies weren't me just being nervous about the friendship. and like with the first crush i ever had i realized i liked them when the person told me a secret and this time it was triggered with them telling me first. so like yeah basically i have big fat fucking crush and like i ended up telling them i was attracted to them since the beginning,, hold on omg i'm boutta demonstrate hold my water bottle please...

*yes the convo was in all caps and what about it 😘 and yes i am retyping it, because i made a lot of typos (i was nervous 🙄)*

me: I JUST REALIZED SOMETHING

them: WHAT

me: I THINK I LOW KEY LIKED YOU WHEN YOU WERE WITH ****** BUT I WAS LIKE NO 🤺 LIKE WHEN WE FIRST MET I REALLY LIKED YOUR PERSONALITY AND STUFF BUT I WAS LIKE LMAOOOO NO

them: WHAT OMG

me: EMBARRASSING FOR ME

them: AND YOU DIDNT TELL ME
them: UM
them: I LITERALLY LIKED YOU AS WELL

*end of convo for y'all 😁*

MOVING ON

i don't know if i should feel bad for liking them because of my other friend. like i feel kind of shitty, but at the same time they basically ghosted them with no explanation and they also haven't even talked to me.

fuck they're so nice and cute and adorable and we get on so well and we like a lot of the same things like please idk i want to kiss them and like make out or like recreate the beginning of unbelievers without the hating each other part or something idk and they're a top and i'm a huge ass submissive bottom and like pls i'm on my knees please let me have your babies 🧎🏻‍♀️ also, yes i told them that. (not like directly directly, but still directly, because i said their name) please i don't know what to do all i know is i'm 🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋