unmendable ⍟ jaemin

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" no i dont, " jaemin said bluntly, though he could visibly see what her concerns were, " you're still a baby to me. " he smiled, his hand reaching to pet her head.

his touch sent butterflies to her stomach- the ones that would eventually return and travel up her throat, wrapping themselves around her windpipe to choke her if she ever recalls the memories she was making in present moment.

" you're my baby, " he pulled the hood of her hoodie up, " you should get back to the base first. "

" wh- "

" i'll catch up with you later okay? " though he seemed as unexpressive as always, y/n could sense that there was something jaemin needed to do, therefore obliged to his request by turning her heel and walking back from the direction they came from.

within a blink of an eye, jaemin could not be found at the spot he was last seen on- almost like he vanished into thin air but in reality, he had joined the man cad in black shirt and cap behind a tree with a wide trunk where the bench they last sat on could be clearly seen in view.

" pleasant way to meet you, " jaemin's voice did not seem the slightest bit pleasant as he greeted the crouching man whose hand held a dull coloured camera.

the man flinched at the deep tone, fumbling with the rock-heavy canon camera in hand that was basically snatched out of his hand before he could even do anything.

" who sent you here? " he questioned, pulling the memory card out of its slot and tossing the camera back to him, " answer me. "

" na jaemin, " the man managed to call out without stuttering, " love makes you weak. "

jaemin tilted his head to one side as he watched the man get up, the aura around him seemed to go from fearful to fearless.

" a wolf never wanders alone, " and with that, he took off, ducking past the thousands of walks of life as jaemin watched blankly as his back view disappeared from view.

his mind processing what the man had just told him. cursing, his hands rolled into a fist as his hand shook with frustration.

" fuck you... "

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" whats wrong jaemin? " a question thrown to him the moment he arrived back in the base.

he shook his head, just a brief second later, he found himself standing in the middle of a place of bloodshed. walls around him splattered with blood stains and the amount of lifeless bodies that littered the ground was uncountable.

limbs twisted, some missing one part or another. a gun wound through a person or a knife stabbed into them. used weapons acting as decor on the floor with extra hand ornaments that were detached from the owner.

an unknown place where it was once chaos, red being the most obvious and prominent colour visible.

jaemin jolted as soft impact was felt on his shoulder, he tilted his head to the side but the face he saw seemed like an alien and foreign to him.

the hand he saw in his eyes dripped with blood, he expected to see a blade penetrating through the skin but instead, there was a gasping hole in the hand.

he jumped, though it felt like he was outside his own body.

" what the hell is going on? " his memories felt vague, as if details erased from his mind automatically, turning them into dreams that only had outlines to them.

" why am i here? " his head spun twenty times faster than a merry-go-round, " am i going crazy? "

he was shook out of his terrance, aggressively. his surroundings returned to normal, the weightlessness of his limbs, unfortunately, remained.

" you okay? " y/n eyed the man, her hands dropping to her sides.

jaemin gave her a little nod, just a small one incase his head snap off due to the sped his head was spinning. he felt beyond horrible for keeping his condition a secret from y/n, he didn't have the guts to update her about himself. not an ounce, not even a speck that was dust-sized.

yet he knew that the time would come, there would be a day when y/n would find out, there was absolutely no way of keeping it from her forever.

secrets were not meant to be kept.

jaemin's only hope was that y/n wouldn't be angry with him and that she wouldn't blame everything on herself.

" i'll see you. " he muttered, keeping his balance as stable as he could and turning away.

he felt her comforting touch on his shoulder again, " jaemin, are you- "

he turned to face her, his head dipping down so that his chin could rest on her shoulder which was evidently shorter than him... by alot.

jaemin wrapped his arms around her, earning a little gasp of surprise from her. it wasnt long before her fingers slipped through his fluffy hair, massaging his scalp lightly.

" big baby, " she scoffed, rolling her eyes a little, " you just wornt grow up would you? "

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" wake up, " when the covers were pulled off her, y/n already knew who it was.

her hands blindly searching for her blanket of warmth with her eyes still shut, " go away, jeno. "

she was basically yanked out of bed a second later- anyone who was acquainted with jeno would know how he was persistent.

" its like 6 am jeno, go awayyy " she whined, " shoo " flinging her arms around as if she was getting rid of flies near her.

jeno rolled his eyes, clearing his throat a moment later, " jaemin- "

he knew it, the moment y/n heard his name she stirred awoke. though visibly engulfed by sleep, jeno awarded her an A for effort for getting out of bed.

" jaemin? " she stifled a yawn behind her hand, " what about him? "

jeno give his usual eye smile, placing his hands behind his back as if he was role playing a supervisor role. " if you get ready within 10 minutes then i'll tell you. "

a cat plushie was sent hurling through the air, hitting him squarely in the face. to be frank, jeno was surprised by the amount of strength the pitete girl possessed, it was just a soft toy yet it felt as if she smacked her hand to his face.

" see you in taeyong's office, " jeno called out, her room door shutting soon after.

" taeyong's... office? "