unmendable ⍟ jaemin

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" you're early, " sarcasm dripping from taeyong's voice clearly evident the moment y/n stepped foot into the office.

" i- oh hi-  good morning? " she greeted the five other boys in the room blankly, " i didn't know- "

" lets quickly get this over and done with, " the leader cut across her, " you'll need to get to school later, remember to not get close to anyone or let any information slip. "

four envelopes slid across the table, " wolf crew's members pictures are inside. we'll leave the rest to you, if you need anything, you can find them. "

" oh and, " he tossed them identity cards, " you'll go by the name on the card, that's all. "

" fake identity cards...? " y/n mumbled out as her fingers traced over the name kim yoon-mi.

" you all can leave, " they bowed respectfully, " except jaemin. "

she followed the rest out of taeyong's office, her eyes glued to the pair left in the office as the door swung shut to block her view.

" how long are you planning to keep it from me? " he sounded strict, like the parent kind of strict, " your condition, what are you planning to do about it? "

" nothing, " he shrugged the thought off like always, " i don't need any medication or anything to get better. "

his collar was forcibly grabbed by the cherry red hair boy, taeyong never liked to use force on his members but he couldn't just neglect the way jaemin treated himself- like he didn't value his life.

of course being in the gang is dangerous and death is always closer to them compared to regular citizens, he detested the way jaemin would find ways to be defiant and the way her carried on hurting himself.

" jaemin, listen to me for once okay? do you like having these sort of things happening to you? do you like feeling as if you're walking on walls? do you like the feeling of losing control of your hands? " taeyong hissed, " do you? "

how he hate those forbidding eyes.

" i dont need those drugs to get better, " it was the truth, he never felt that medication helped. he thought of them as a ploy so that people believed that they were getting better, " i need her, and she'll be my medication. "

the leader's grip loosened, he never once understood what love was. after this family was torn away from him, he didn't remember how the warm and comfortable feeling of love felt.

" she doesn't even know about it... "

" no secrets can be kept forever. "

... 💔

" there's alot of risks isn't there? " dino's mind was cluttered, he wasn't exactly sure how nct handled their missions. he blamed it for always trying to avoid visiting heir base as much as possible just so he could keep y/n off his mind.

damn it.
( i read it in japanese lol )

" don't just keep all your thoughts together and spit it out. " jaemin- who had just rejoined the group, clenched his teeth, sure he was... well, jealous. he never liked y/n getting close to dino, not even a little bit.

dino slid the two pictures out of the white envelope, " why would gang members be in a school? " he held the photographs up in front of them, " don't you find them familiar? we don't even have their information. "