Loving hurts (Discontinued)

Chapter 4

This is what I think Alex would look like but be free to use your imagination -H

Harry's POV

I sit in the back of the cab thinking and I soon realise that this is a very bad idea. But because I have no where else to go I don't tell the driver anything. As soon as the cab pulls up I hop out and give the man 100 pounds ignoring the shouts coming from him saying it was way too much. If I have money to spend why not spend it right.

I walk up to the door and my hand is shaking as I knock on the door hoping. "Coming one minute." A voice from inside sounds. 14 seconds later I hear the door unlock and a head that I'm very relieved to see peeks around the door. "Harry what's up? Come in. What's wrong? What happened? Do I need to fight someone?" Gemma pesters me as I walk in. I just look at her scared and glance my head around. "Don't worry mums probably off at her boyfriends house." she says muttering something like that douce bag Robin at the end.

I just look at her. Then in a minute I'm hugging her not wanting to let go. I don't even realise the I'm crying until she tries to soothe me. Crying hard into her she just stands there hugging me back. A few minutes later my sobs have calmed down a bit but I'm still crying. Slowly lifting up my head she whispers "How about we go to the living room and we can talk there?"

Not even noticing that I'm nodding she led me to the living room. The place hasn't changed much the same couches and tables and stuff but the one thing that's catches my attention is the pictures. At first glance they look the same but if you look at them for more than a second than you'd realise that the photos were lopsided. The only reason for that was that they were edited. If you look close enough you can see that there is the shape of a human missing because of the bad editing. I immediately know what has happened. Can't have a disgrace in the family can you. Gemma catches me staring and starts talking. More tears run down my cheeks but I don't even bother wiping them away. My shoulders are shaking but I can't tear my eyes off the pictures.

"I'm so sorry Harry."

"Why am I such a disappointment?"

"You're not."

"Of corse I am. I'm literally edited out of the photos. I got kicked out and I am having to be the womaniser in the band to cover up the fact that I'm gay. So dont tell me I'm not a disappointment." I say getting louder as I finished. "I can't even talk right. It's so slow like I'm thinking through every word. I can't sing, I have no place in the band except as the sex idol and I can't even like the right person." I say breaking down at the end.

I crumple down to the floor my legs not able to hold my body up. Huge racking sobs echo throughout my body. I feel Gemmas arm wrap around me and I'm faintly reminded of Louis making me cry even harder. Gemma is just whispering softly to me trying to get me to calm down.

Gemma's POV

I hear his breathing slow down and even out, he has to be asleep right. Looking down at him my assumption was correct. I just rock him slowly back and forth trying to take in everything he just said.

He thinks that he's a disappointment. I mean he is in one of the biggest bands of all time and yet he still thinks that he's a disappointment.

I need to move him before my mum comes Homs and see him. However I can't lift him on my own so time for some friendly neighbours I hope.

Quickly walking outside I knock on Alex's door.
"Hey what's up Gemma?" He answers leaning on the doorframe. "Um this may seem weird but can you help me move my brother to my bedroom. He's to heavy for me to carry him without him waking up and I was hoping you could help." I ramble, him getting more amused as I continued.
"Yes I will help you," he says as he closed the door behind him. "But may I ask is he passed out or asleep and why is he asleep or passed out on the floor?" He asks knowing why I needed to move him after hearing our mum that night.

He walks with me inside my house. "Well he is asleep but I'm not sure if he would want me to tell you why he's asleep on the floor." I say stopping in the hallway to face him. I then turn around and walk into the living room glad that he hasn't moved or woken up he looked like he needed sleep desperately.

Looking over at Alex he just nods and bends over to carry harry in a princess position. "Where is your room?" He whispers to me once Harry is securely in his arms. "This way." I nod my head over my shoulder and make my way up the stairs looking over my shoulder to make sure that Alex is following me.

Walking into my room I quickly pull down the covers on my bed so Alex can slip Harry into it. After lying Harry down he shakes his arms to get rid of the ghost feeling as harry curls in on himself. I cover him up and start to walk out following Alex.

After closing the door I turn Alex around before he goes downstairs by tapping him on his shoulder. "Thank you so much you don't know how much trouble you saved me." I blurt out meaning every word.

"Your welcome. Don't worry I won't ask anymore questions." He says proving to me to me that worry was written all over my face.
"I can't thank you enough. Like you saved me from my mum hopefully so like really thank you." I say following him to the door.

"You should come over some time?"
"Yeah that would be nice thank you. Here, how about I give you my number and you can text me so we can work out a date when I don't have my little brother sleeping upstairs." I say becoming really happy all of a sudden hoping he doesn't say no.

"Yeah I'd like that." he says giving me his phone. "Bye thank you so much." I say as he walks over to his house. "See you soon." Is all he replies before I close the door.
Now time for that tea I've been wanting.