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🥀~shuichi x sad!sucidal!reader~🥀

  (A/n: if you ever feel like this please talk to someone you trust about it ❤️ don't die stay alive with all of us)

Warnings: MENTION OF A ANIMAL DEATH/angst/cussing/s*icide attempt

Nondespair and there out of highschool

🍄y/n's pov🍄

I just got home and all I want to do is curl up in a ball and cry. Nothings working out for me my boyfriend shuichi asked for a break about a week ago my dog died and I lost my job.

Why?! Why do I have to but like this?! I'm ruining everything.

I threw my bag on the couch and ran up to my room in tears getting lost in my own thoughts. I got in bed and threw my blanket over my head and cried for what felt like hours. My phone was on the table next to me I remembered my best friend himiko was having a magic show and I was supposed to be the assistant my phone started to ring multiple time it kept going off I ignored  it

I will just ruin it all!

My bed sheets were wet from my tears. I just held my blanket wishing my boyfriend was here but figured I was to much of a bother for him. I cried more of the thought of losing him he means so much to me "WHY DO I HAVE TO BE SUCH A FUCK UP?!" I screamed into my pillow "WHY...why?!" I yelled again. The calls finally stopped and I looked at my phone finally wiping the tears from my face 32 missed calls and 77 new messages.

Tears started to drip on to my phone as I clicked to see one of the messages my eyes widen with slight shock. It was from shuichi? 40 of those messages were from him?  All of those messages were him worrying about me-    I looked down at the final message which read

I love you more then anything please don't ignore me!

I threw my phone back down not replying thinking of everyone I messed up from having this break down- I pulled shuichi from his job tenko and himiko had to cancel the show and everyone who wanted to see the show couldn't.

Maybe- it would be better with out me? I mean nobody would have to worry about a bitch like me!

I got up and threw on my shoes a coat and messaged himiko, tenko and shuichi they were the only ones I cared about I love you all so much

I'm sorry for being such a bother don't worry you won't have to deal with it after tonight❤️

More tears filled my eyes rereading my text before sending do I really want to die?  No.  Do I feel like it would be better?

Yes.

I grabbed my car keys and head out to car after I pressed sent on the message. I got in the car and banged my head against the wheel wondering if this is the right thing to do "I have to- I have to- I have to-  for them." I repeated to my self starting the car. My phone started to blow up from text they were all messaging me making my phone go off like crazy.

Each buzz made me want to stop and see what it said hoping for a reason to live. I felt selfish wanting one since I'm just a burden too everyone- I started to drive to my destination

         🌻shuichi's pov🌻

I got a text from y/n I was basically praying they were ok. I blew up there phone with text I'm guessing himiko and tenko did too since they texted me asking if there ok- I felt my heart racing from fear. I run up to my boss "b-boss! Can I go something very important is happening!" The boss was my uncle so he agreed to let me go.

Worry flooded over me at lightning speed. I started my car and raced to y/n's house I didn't care if I got a ticket they meant to much I can't lose them and I won't! I raced in there house to see a note it I scanned through the note before seeing a simple sentence at the bottom

I figured it would be best if I just die. I love you all so much❤️

I felt my heart drop. Tears started to run down my face I threw the note in the ground and ran to my car using my sleeve to wipe away tears "no no no no no NO!" I yelled at myself starting my car in panic

              🥀y/n's pov🥀

I was finally at my destination I jumped out of my car putting my keys on my pocket of my black coat. I was at the water tower of my city, I felt death coming closer. Every time I walked up a step to the ladder one thought flooded my mind

Should I actually do this?

This world is so cruel. I want to do this I need to for my friends as well.

I climbed to the top of the tower I got on the edge before I heard a voice that sounded familiar "Y/N! DONT DO THIS PLEASE!" I looked down to see shuichi crying looking up at me. "Y/N COME DOWN HERE PLEASE! FOR ME!"  I smiled and started to cry again to "t-this is for you-" I said "WHAT NO I LOVE YOU I NEED YOU TO BE HERE WITH ME" shuichi screamed up to me.  I smiled and started to climb down from the ladder shuichi smiled and ran over to me hugging me he put his head on my shoulder and just held me he didn't want to let go but I didn't want him either~

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MY FIRST ANGST! Wow it's not to bad remember though if you ever feel like this reach out for help you are loved❤️

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