•Haikyuu x Reader• ~oneshots~ {Requests open}

I can't remember who I was, just last december -Hinata Shoyo x Reader-

Requested by: loveofdekuslife
TW: References to abuse and being rejected after coming out
Remember you are loved and respected no matter who you love! Love is love!
This is a songfic based on 'Oh My God' by Alec Benjamin!
Everything in bold is lyrics from the song.

Looking at the pictures I keep on my shelf, cause it's been so long since I've looked like myself,

It was a late afternoon when you were wandering around the school, bag on your shoulder. It was your first year at Karasuno high school, you hadn't really explored the outside area, you were in the Baking club, so you didn't go outside often. You were bringing a box of treats for the volleyball club, since you were friends with Yachi and Hinata, and you wanted to make something for Yachi and her new teammates. Yachi didn't know, but the third years knew, it was going to be a surprise for the second and first years. You looked at yourself in the reflection of the windows on the gym, seeing the eyebags, messy hair, and frown slapped on your face. When was the last time you were happy? Like, actually happy?

Burn another candle down,

You silently opened the door to the gym, walking in with the box of cookies, what you didn't expect was a volleyball to fly off a familiar orange-haired boy's arms and hit you smack-dab in the middle of the face. It knocked you and your box down, well, the box of sweets flew up into the air, and opened, spilling everywhere. The mix of frosting, broken cookies, and cookie crumbs covered you and the floor surrounding.

Burn another candle down,

"Hinata! Boke! You just hurt L/N-San! What the hell dude!" you heard a familiar voice yell out. It was Kageyama, that volleyball boy from your class. Your vision was blurry from the shock of being hit in the face, and you felt blood trickle out of your nose. You heard the squeaking of shoes as people ran over to you. The entire team had run over to you except for a tall blonde. The two third years you recognized as Sawamura Daichi, and Shimizu Kiyoko, were crouched down in front of you. You saw Kageyama, Yachi, Hinata, and a few other boys you didn't recognize were standing behind them, Hinata, looking very worried.

Running low on patience,

"Are you okay? Where are you? What were you doing? How do you feel?" Kiyoko asked, grabbing a handkerchief from her pocket, putting it on your nose to stop the bleeding.

Running low on fumes,

"Yes, I'm in the Karasuno Boys volleyball gym, I was bringing treats for Yachi's new club, and I feel not great currently," you replied, grabbing the handkerchief yourself and pressing it on your nose.

I'm never gonna make it halfway to the moon,

"Okay you're fine then right?" Hinata asked. You nodded slowly, still a little dazed from the smack to the face. You felt your anxiety coming in waves, making you panic.

But it's too late to turn around,

"I'm okay Hinata, just covered in frosting and a little dazed," you laughed nervously, the entire team was standing around you.

But it's too late to turn around.

"Are you sure you're okay L/N?" Yachi nervously asked, moving past Daichi to be in front of you, checking you out herself. You wiped some frosting from your body.

I'm running out of oxygen,

"I'm okay, just covered in frosting, I-I'm sorry I have to go now," you felt the anxiety creeping up, you quickly got up and ran out of the gym. You felt the embarrassment set in, your social anxiety was part of the reason. You slipped on your way to the bathhouse, tripping hard. You let out a shriek as the skin on your knee ripped. Now you had a bloody nose and knee. Great. You held your knee in pain. "Ow ow ow ow ow..."