If You Have To Ask

• Part 13 •

We talked and danced the night away and before I knew it, it was time to close.
"Sorry guys we're closing" Fred came over to the table putting his arm around me.
"How about an after party at my house?" Chad smirked looking at us all.
"How about it Faye, come on you know you want to?" Flea nudged me giggling.
"Fine let's go." I got up and went to grab my purse from behind the bar. As we were walking out Fred caught my eye from across the bar.
"What" I said looking at him.
"Just watch yourself okay?" I lent over the bar and kissed his cheek.
"Love you dear." I joked as I walked out with the guys.
"Hey I think he likes you" Chad said giggling like a girl.
"I think your more his type babe." I laughed catching up with John and all I heard were Flea and Anthony in a fit of laughter.

We got to Chads place and it was much bigger than his last house. I walked in and I think the guys could tell I was a bit taken a back.
"Come on I wanna show you showing" flea said grabbing my arm "if that's okay Chad?" I mean it is his house.
"Yeah of course I'll get the drink out." Chad went into the kitchen as Flea led me to another room just off the living room. I walked in to see multiple sets of drums, amps, guitars and the nicest piano I've ever seen. I walked around in awe stopping at the piano.
"You still play?" Flea looked at me with his big friendly grin.
"A little, I mean, I haven't in a while" I started fiddling with the piano and it all came back to me, I started playing Starman by David Bowie. I didn't finish the whole song but was soon being hugged by Flea.
"She's still got it" he said excitedly.
"You still play huh" I turned around to see Anthony in the doorway.
"Yeah I guess" I said knowing I was blushing. This man just made me feel ways I didn't think I could feel. We all made our way back to the living room to see Chad bringing out beers, vodka and the devil - tequila. He ended up inviting a few more people over and before we knew it, it was a full blown party. I was so excited to catch up with all the guys. I talked to Chad the most I mean I'd seen John and Flea but not Chad, he was like my big brother it was so nice to see him. I wanted to catch up with Anthony but I didn't know where he was, probably trying to get his next victim. I met some guys that would be going on there next tour, muse I think there name was, they where so nice. I decided to go on an adventure around Chad's house to find a restroom, I walked up these huge spiral stairs I was in awe his house was amazing. I eventually found a restroom and just stood in there to give myself a minute.
Seeing Anthony again completely set me back. I hadn't seen him in so long, in person anyway. He was the love of my life and I wasn't going to deny the fact that I missed him but I certainly wasn't going to give him the satisfaction of telling him that. I sighed and re-done my red lipstick. Suddenly someone barged through the door.
"Oh sorry I didn't know anyone was in here" I looked up to see Anthony. He was different than all those years ago, his hair was platinum blonde which was strange for him but I liked it, he seemed a lot more grown up I mean he was 37 now, maybe he's matured?
"It's okay I was just leaving" I grabbed my purse and went to walk out of the restroom back to the party. Anthony grabbed my arm and before I knew it we where stood in the doorway so close to each other, staring into each other's eyes.
"I missed you a lot you know" he put his hand on my waist looking deep into my eyes. Then I noticed something on his cheek and neck. I put my hand on his chest and got closer, close enough to feel his breath.
"Next time you tell me you missed me, make sure your not wearing someone else lipstick" I slapped his chest lightly and walked off. I wasn't about to let myself fall for him again. He ripped my heart out.
I got back downstairs and realised it was nearly 3am. Most people had cleared out but there was still Anthony, John, flea and myself.
"Hey you can stay over if you want" Chad said to all of us.
"Yeah like the old days" John smirked at me as Flea jumped between couches. Anthony came over and sat on the couch opposite to me sheepishly. He'd now wiped off the lipstick marks.
"Okay but someone's gonna have to lend me a sweater or something because I'm freezing in this dress" I laughed looking at my skimpy outfit.
"Here have mine." Anthony threw me a sweater that he was wearing earlier.
"Thanks" I locked eyes with him smiling. I could barely control myself around me, he made me feel 23 all over again. We stayed up drinking and playing games until we all fell asleep.
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I woke up not knowing what time it was but knowing that I was at work today.
"Shit shit shit." I mumbled getting up looking for my purse trying not to wake anyone up.
"You okay?" I turned around to see Anthony rubbing his eyes sitting up.
"It's 3pm I'm at work in an hour." I finally found my purse and was trying to get my heals still on.
"Do you want a ride? My cars here anyway." He got up walking towards the counter for his keys.
"Sure if that's okay?" I said looking at Anthony.
"Of course, you'll have to show me the way to your place though." He grabbed his sunglasses and lead me towards his car. I got in the passenger seat and felt a bit awkward, I mean this was the man I thought I'd spend my life with and I haven't seen him in 7 years.
"I didn't think you danced till late." He asked keeping his eyes on the road.
"Yeah I don't but I have to help set up." I was tapping on my knee trying not to show that I felt nervous around him. He just nodded at my reply and carried on driving. I showed him wear to go and he dropped me off outside my apartment. I got out of the car walking towards the stairs before he shouted on me.
"Faye... I Erm" he rubbed the back of his head "I'd love to see you again soon, I really have missed you." I didn't know what to say so instead of saying anything I ran back up to his car and kissed his cheek. I could feel myself blushing so I quickly ran back towards my apartment, got in and locked the door. Why would I let myself love this man again, he broke me mentally. Maybe he'd grown up, I don't know if I could trust him again but every fibre of my being was pushing me back towards him.

4pm rolled around and before I knew it I was at work.
"So, what time did you get home?" I turned around to Fred leaning on the bar like a concerned father.
"Don't kill me but about an hour ago" I gritted my teeth waiting for what was to come. To my surprise Fred was quite calm.
"How did you get home?" He asked calmly. Here it is this is where he loses his shit.
"A-Anthony dropped me off."
I walked behind the bar trying not to look directly at him.
"Oh okay" he walked up beside me pulling me into a tight hug. I thought he'd be mad.
"You do realise if he breaks your head ago, I'll break his dick." Fred said so seriously but I burst out laughing.
"Oh Fred I love you." I grabbed his cheeks planting a peck on his lips before going backstage to prep outfits for tonight.
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12am rolled around and the shows were done for another weekend.
"God I'm knackered I don't even think I'm gonna stay to drink." I huffed putting my head on Fred's shoulder.
"That's okay because you have a visitor outside." He raised his eyebrows at me.
"Who?" I grew more suspicious.
"Just go outside and have a good night, Ill call you tomorrow okay" he kissed my cheek and practically pushed me out of the door.
To my surprise outside waiting for me was Anthony leaning against a Harley. I smirked walking up to him.
"What are you doing here?" I folded my arms trying to look all serious at him. He got up and walked towards me, I could feel my heart pounding out of my chest.
"Come for a ride with me, I want to take you somewhere." He grabbed my hands holding them while he waited fir an answer.
"Let's go." I knew I couldn't resist this man. I just don't want to be hurt again.