If You Have To Ask

• Part 25 •

6 months later....

As I sit watching the sunset on the beautiful beach, caressing my ever growing stomach, I thank god for how lucky I have been.

My record came out a month after I started recording. We wanted to get it done and out as soon as possible. The reaction to it was immense! Not as big as the Chilis but still huge for a first.

The morning after I started recording I found out I was pregnant. It took me a while to get my head around, I didn't think I was ready and I knew Anthony wasn't. Hence why he still doesn't know as I reach 7 months. That god damn camping trip.

I know it seems bad, I haven't even told him he's going to have a daughter but I just can't. I don't trust him and I haven't even seen him in 6 months. He's been off doing god knows what with god knows who and I didn't care to even ask John. He's one of the few people who knows I'm pregnant. He feels awful keeping it from Tony but I know I can trust him and I know he'll be there to hold my hand when I'm ready to tell him. Which I will be. One day.

Tomorrow I have a small show at the theatre down the road from the studio. I say small, it's max capacity which is around 5,000!! I know crazy right?

I decided I've had enough at the beach and decide to head back home as my cell rings.

"How's my favourite whale?" John chimed.

"Oh just great and stop calling me a whale I'm not even... okay well maybe I am big but still. How are you?" I giggled as he was basically I'm hysterics.

"I'm good doll, actually I'm in town and was wondering if I could meet you tomorrow before your show?"

"Omg really? Yes definitely. Wait-"

"Yes he's in town as well but I don't think he'll come and see you until your ready, but you really need to hurry up and tell him. You could pop at any second."

As he laughed his comment off I heard someone's voice in the background.

"Who's about to pop?" Thankfully it was Chad but oh god he couldn't find out. Not like this.

"John don't!"

"Oh just one of my old friends from school. Anyway Melissa I've got to go, speak soon" he wasn't good at bluffing.

He hung up quickly and I let out the breath I didn't realise I was holding. God Chad could talk me into telling Tony and I just wasn't ready. Get me home.

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Sat on my couch, legs on Fred as I devoured a whole pack of popcorn to myself. I don't think my petite frame could handle getting any bigger with this baby but I still had 2 months left. I am so excited to meet my baby girl, I have her crib set up right next to my bed and Fred has fully taken the roll of baby's second mamma. I know what I'm naming her but I decided I won't tell anyone until I actually tell Anthony I'm having his kid.

Mine and Fred's movie finished and we just sat on the floor going through all of baby's clothes. Fred let out a small cough setting down what he was doing.

"So..."

"I'm not talking about it" I snapped back.

"We have to Faye, it's time. I've gave you all this time not go but now we have to."

"I can't. What am I even going to tell him? Oh yeah by the way Tony, I don't trust you enough to get back with you but here I'm carrying your daughter." I rolled my eyes and gently played the small pink baby grow I was folding.

"No, we can rehearse it. Pretend I'm Anthony."

"Okay..." I huffed. "Anthony, I don't think me and you is a great idea at the moment because I'm pregnant... and it's yours."