If You Have To Ask

• Part 16 •

I woke up in the lounge on possibly the comfiest couch I've ever slept on. I looked at the clock on the wall and it was only 7am, non of the guys would be up yet. I decided to get up and go for a smoke (yes I know bad I still smoke). Anthony T-shirt was just long enough to cover my panties but when I stretched you could see my ass. I felt some what giddy at the fact that I was wearing Anthony's T-shirt, just knowing he was close to me made me feel safe, the safest I've felt in 7 years. I lit my cigarette and started walking around the balcony, trying to gather my thoughts. I leant over the edge just trying to take in the amazing view of Las Vegas when I heard the balcony door slide open.
"Morning sunshine" there was Anthony, coffee in hand standing there smiling with just shorts on.
"Oh hey, good morning" I knelt back down a bit embarrassed that he's probably just seen my ass, not that it'd be the first time.
"You want some coffee?" He walked towards me holding out another cup.
"Hmm my favourite thank you." I smiled at him taking the coffee as he came and stood next to me. We both gazed out at the view in silence.
"What do you want to do today?" He swayed into me gently while still looking out into the distance.
"I don't know, what do you suggest?" I looked at him. He hadn't noticed I was staring at me while he was thinking. I mean he truly was a gift from god. His platinum blonde hair shining in the sunrise. He suddenly turned to me meeting my eyes, he realised I was staring at him the whole time and I could tell he became embarrassed.
"Well... we could erm... go shopping? Or just for a browse and maybe breakfast?" He said nodding as he took another sip of his coffee.
"That sounds good, I'll go and get ready." I began walking back inside.
"Well we are kind of sharing a room so hope you don't mind if I do as well." He said as he held the door open for me.
"Yeah that's okay i won't look I promise." I giggled as he followed behind me.
"Can't say I'll be making the same promise." He laughed as I jokingly gave him a funny look.
I searched through my suitcase trying to find the perfect outfit to spend the day with Anthony. I don't think I've been so excited in a long time. I found a cut floral sundress which usually wasn't my type but I paired it with my Doc Martens to make it a bit more me.
"I'll go and get changed in here." I said walking into the restroom closing the door behind me. I wasn't bothered about him seeing me naked, I just knew if I saw him I probably wouldn't be able to control myself. I got myself changed, and walked back into the room hoping he would have some clothes on.
"You ready to go?" To my surprise Anthony was sat on the bed wearing a white T-shirt, black shorts and a pair of sunglasses.
"Yeah I'm ready." As we walked out of the room the rest of the guys were now up and having breakfast.
"Morning you two, where you off?" Flea asked as he took another bite of toast.
"I'm gonna take Faye out to get breakfast and see Vegas." Anthony said grabbing his wallet.
"Okay well have fun." Chad said giving us a funny look and I knew exactly what he was thinking.

As we started walking down the street I noticed a lot of people recognising Anthony.
"Here put these on" he handed me his sunglasses.
"Why? Do you not want people to know your with me?" I asked calmly putting them on but could feel my frustration increase.
"No no nothing like that! I just want to protect you from stupid magazines and tabloids. I don't want anything to ruin this." He said sincerely as he grabbed my hand and lead me along. I could feel my heart flutter as Tony's grip tightened on my hand. As I looked up I saw a bunch of paparazzi, my stomach instantly flipped and I felt so nervous.
"It's okay, let's go to this diner here." Anthony whispered as he pulled my into the nearest diner so we could have breakfast. The paparazzi stayed outside trying to get shots of us.
"You sit this side and I'll sit that one, this was they'll see me but not you." He directed me with his hand on my lower back. He was so caring.
"Thank you Tony." I smiled at him.
We sat and looked at the menus before the waitress came and took our orders.
"So... what you been up to for the last 7 years." He asked taking a sip of his drink. He looked worried yet eager for my reply.
"If I'm being honest kind of hard." I felt nervous to talk about it with him but I knew I needed to, in order for me to let go of the past I needed to talk about it.
"Do you want to talk about it? I mean I'm here if you do." He grabbed my hand from across the table and I could feel tears but I wasn't going to let them fall.
"Well after I left the tour I went home and packed my stuff up. I didn't have anywhere fo go but that's when John called the apartment, he said I could stay with him for a while if I needed and he told me where his spare key was. I made him swear not to tell you. After I caught John doing heroin I left, I couldn't be around him and I know I shouldn't of ran but I did. That's when I met Fred, he took me in. He was working at the bar at the time so I helped out where I could but I was consumed with depression." I could feel myself tearing up. "I developed an earring disorder and started taking drugs. I just wanted to feel numb. Fred kicked me into rehab, got me clean and then got me my job. I then got my own apartment and well not much else interesting happened." I laughed quietly as I took a sip of my smoothie.
I looked up to see Anthony looking shocked. He almost had tears in his eyes. He held my hand again rubbing it with his thumb.
"I'm so sorry that happened to you. I will never let you get hurt again." I gripped my hand a bit tighter before the waitress came and brought our food to the table. Anthony ordered avocado on toast and I got a cheese and bacon melt. We ate our food in silence, both feeling very content in each other's company. That's when I realised that this man in front of me, was the love of my life. I mean I know I've always loved him but there will be no one else like him to enter my life, no one else that I'd want. I want him and only him, till the day I die.
We finished our food and Anthony kindly payed for it. He grabbed my hand and we began walking outside until he stopped at the door, he turned to look at me lifting off the sunglasses he gave me.
"How about we go outside, just us, no glasses? I want the world to see us, no one can bring me down right now" He smirked at me with that smirk that I can't resist.
"I'd love to" I put his glasses on his T-shirt and grabbed his hand again. We decided to ditch shopping as there was a lot of people who had noticed Anthony now and we'd spent almost 3 hours just sat talking in the diner. As we walked down the street I could hear the snapping of cameras and the groans of teenage girls as they realised he was holding my hand. We got back to the hotel and we were both on cloud 9. This felt different than last time, more secure and he made me feel more like a women and not a little girl. We walked back into the penthouse to the guys sat on the couches. John has his guitar and Chad was sat at the piano that was already in the room.
"Faye I need to ask you something." Before I managed to get through the door John had already grabbed my hand and dragged me outside onto the balcony.
"John what's wrong?" I looked at him concerned.
"Do you remember that song that we wrote, I want us to sing it well practice it for now and see how you feel. Please?" He held both my hands, squirming excitedly like a little kid. I didn't know if I wanted to sing or play again, it'd been so long.
"Okay, okay, I'll do it only if we do it alone a few times, I'm a bit rusty" I said as John picked me up and span me round into a hug. As we walked back inside John was smiling like a looney.
"What's got you so giddy?" Anthony chuckled as he patted the couch for me to sit next to him. I sat down and waited for John to answer.
"Faye and I wrote a song about 6 years ago and I found it before we came on tour. I asked her if she wanted to practice it and maybe come on stage one night and she agreed." He was still smiling from ear to ear as he tried to organise his note book.
"I agreed to practice it and that was it." I sat back into the couch not realising I sat back into Anthony's arm which was now around my waist.
"Well I think it's great, I can't wait to hear it" Anthony smirked at me while placing his hand firmly on my waist. He was well aware of what he was doing but I didn't mind.