So Sick

Cancer Issues

*Chapter 9*

Today is the day the boys leave for Australia. Its not a tour but they agreed to do some shows and interviews. Anyway, they're leaving me for 2 weeks alone with my mother who is sick. We're at the airport saying goodbye. I gave all the boys hugs leaving Niall last. A tear fell down my cheek. "Please don't cry babe. Its only for 2 weeks." he smiled down at me but i saw right through it. I looked into his eyes which are filled with the words "im sorry". "Niall, how can i not cry? Your leaving me with my dieing mother. But i know its your dream and you have to. Im just gonna miss you." I dug my head into his chest as we stood there. He rubbed his hand across my back as Paul tried getting Niall and i apart. Before Niall let go he leaned down and whispered something in my ear. He said "This isnt goodbye. Its a cya later. I love you beautiful" as he spoke i stood still and kept my eyes closed. His warm breath against my ear. When i opened my eyes he was gone and so was the plane. I then headed to the exit. I finally got home and plopped on the couch. My mom and my bro i think are out shopping so im home alone. i decided to go on twitter since i havent been on in ages. I have over 2,000 followers since Niall and i started dating. There are so many pictures of me and him. I have alot of directioners that like me and ship Nassie but alot of others dont. Some tweets caught my eye.

To @Cassie_Tyler

@Cassie_Tyler Why are you so ugly? Niall deserves better than you! Nobody likes you. Stop ruinning Niall and the rest of 1D's lifes!!

Ouch. That hurt.

To @Cassie_Tyler, @NiallOfficial

@Cassie_Tyler, @NiallOfficial I love you guys! I totally ship Nassie! Thank you Cassie for loving Niall. You are his princess :)

Aweeeeee. Out of all the tweets this last one is my fave.

Tweeted by @NiallOfficial

Hard day saying "Cya Later" to my beautiful girl Cassie. Gonna miss her so much over the next 2 weeks. Love ya babe. Cya soon <33

This brought tears to my eyes. I logged out and turned on the tv. Fresh Prince of Belair. One of the best shows ever. The rap began playing and i rapped along, listening to my 5 fave guys rapping along to. The sad thing is, it was only in my head.

*1 week later*

Okay its only been like 1 week but i can't take it. I miss Zayn, Liam, Louis, Harry and most of all Niall. i texted Niall once for like 5 minutes yesterday and that was it. I thought i would be able to handle this but apperently i cant. I got up off my bed and sat on the couch next to my mom. "Hi mom. Whatsup?" i say trying to be cheery. "Thinking" She answered while staring at nothing. I wish this time she could tell me that it will be alright. Tell Mike and I that we wont lose our mom, but unfortunatly she cant. I know its not alright. Thats why Mikey lives with Aunt Lucy, Layla and Jack. Sometimes i feel like my mom is losing her mind. Which she kinda is beacause she has brain cancer. I was brought out of thought as my mom began to stand up. i watched as her legs started to wobble and she fell to the ground. Me with my slow reflexes dived after her. I grabbed her waist and helped her back on the couch. "Are you okay?" i asked trying not to panic. "Yes. Im alright. And you are....?" she looked at me confused. I made sure she was settled on the couch before i darted to my room. I pounced on my bed like a cat and dug my face into my pillow crying. My mom's cancer is worse than i thought. As thoughts ran through my mind i hear footsteps. i looked up and saw my poor sick mom standing in my doorway. "Honey, Im okay. My legs went numb thats all. Well, id better get some sleep. Night sweety." she turned around and headed towards her room. I then picked up my phone and read my texts aloud.

From Nialler <3

Hey Princess, I get to see you in a week. Miss you sooo much! Love you <3