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6. lifeless

Zhang's pov

Just like that, he drove away and I let him go. He said he likes me, he loves me but I just let him go...

Zhang's entire body became stiff as he saw wuxie drove away. He was confused and shocked by the sudden confession. They were good friends a few hours before and now they are going to be strangers!?

Wuxie, it hurts. Seeing you go it hurts a lot. Why do you think you are any less? Why do make yourself pathetic? You are not wuxie. No matter how you think you changed... Those eyes never changed.
If those eyes looked at me like a lover then... You must have loved you since 5. You never changed. Wuxie comes back to me. Why don't you listen to me? How come you said you love but didn't want me at all...

Zhang's body dropped to the ground. In the lone road, he kneeled with eyes covered. He was trying hard not to cry. But it only made his heartache more.

Wuxie..

Wuxie...

"I don't know about love or anything. But seeing you leave me like this... It hurts wuxie... IT HURTS"

He held his hands against his heart. It was hurting for real. He knew wuxie is so important to him. Zhang had thought of wuxie as his life long companion. He never wanted to part ways with him. But Zhang didn't expect wuxie to confess his love to him. From a very young age, Zhang had vowed to be with him forever. But he never thought of giving a name to his relationship with Wuxie. Friends. That's what the others described them. When everyone asked Wuxie he also said Zhang is his friend. But all those times Zhang was trying to be with Wuxie, for him, being who he wanted Zhang to be. When wuxie said he is a friend Zhang become one. When Wuxie wanted him to be a guide he became one. When wuxie needed support he was there. When Wuxie wanted a punching bag Zhang was ready to accept all his anger. So if now Wuxie wants Zhang to be his boyfriend Zhang will happily accept it. For Zhang, wuxie is the only one.

But wuxie's inferiority complex and his insecurities had taken control of his consciousness. He already thought of an outcome in his mind and he didn't give Zhang the time to respond. He just left like that.

••••••••••
Wuxie's office next morning

Wuxie was late to next morning. Pangzi was ready to nag him. But as soon as Wuxie stepped inside the room pangzi lost all fun. Xiao Hua also watched him pass before them. By only a look they could tell something was wrong. Wuxie placed his bag on his desk, precisely on top of his keyboard. He sat on the chair facing back. His eyes were swollen and were still teary. Pangzi moved close to Xiao Hua who was closely watching the lifeless Wuxie and asked him in a low voice,

"Eh.. Xiao Hua. Don't you think our Wuxie is.."

"Heartbroken."

"Huh!? What?"

"I think he got rejected."

"Eh. Xiao Hua, Wuxie liked someone? How come I didn't know it... And Xiao Hua who is she?"

Pangzi was eager to who the lucky girl. Xiao Hua seemed to sense something after all he has a keen observation. Pangzi elbowed him to spill the tea.

"If you don't know then you don't have to know." Xiao Hua gave him a smirk.

Pangzi frowned but xiao didn't care. He went back to his desk but pangzi stood there watch wuxie leaning back in the chair with eyes closed. Pangzi has a carefree personality. But seeing wuxie losing his cool self somewhat made him worry.