Anti-Academy

Confessions

SANG POV

How much crazier could this night get? Meeting the roommates was not supposed to lead to a heartfelt confess all about family dramas. Why did I suggest that I would tell them things? Personal things about not only myself but others. Are there things that maybe I shouldn't share?

"I want to tell you somethings but the first thing that you should know is that I am new to all of this. Roommates, friends, family....school. My pare... my mo..." I pause taking a deep breath before continuing, "I was pulled out of public school after the pre-grade classes, supposedly because I was much more advanced than my peers but really it was just for control. I know that now. So I have been self-taught everything I know. There is more I would like to share but it involves more than myself." I pause because of their expressions. They look strange like maybe they don't believe me or maybe they feel sorry for me? I don't know so I just look at the towel in my hands and wring it tightly. "Do you... I just need to make a call before I..."

Soft hands cover mine, gently removing the mangled towel. Startled I look into Ez's gorgeous green eyes. "Sang, You don't have to share any more than what you are comfortable. We aren't expecting anything more than that. If you want to talk to someone or anyone before you share with us, that is ok. If it turns out you can't share things with us that is okay too. I shouldn't have made you feel like it was mandatory to purge all of your secrets at once...I just..I really want us to work out. You seem really awesome."

Smiling brightly I nod my head.

"So Noelle will make us some popcorn, Farah will turn on Hulu and find Call me Kat to give us some much needed comedic relief after our first impressions. You go and get comfortable, make your calls, and I will go and apologize to Bia and see if I can't talk her into joining us." Without waiting on a reply she heads off into the hall way. I nod to the others and try not to rush out of the kitchen, but when I get around the corner I rush to my room and quietly shut the door. Some instincts never completely leave you no matter how safe you feel or know you are.

Pressing my back to the door I dig my phone out of my back pocket. Giggling at the 80+ text notification signal. Opening it I notice that Luke and North add the others to the chat and they are loving the picture of the counter full of delicious treats.

As curious as I am to read each and everyone I bypass them and pull up my contacts. Scrolling through the names I try not to panic as I decide who to talk to.

Should I call Katiya? It would impact her the most. She's been attending here for five years she'll have the most to lose if she doesn't want people to know about me. I could ask Ivan or Kye but this is their first year too they won't know how the school will react to an unknown family member popping up after sixteen years of not existing. Definitely not Rome; he is trying not to blame me for what happened to his Mother and younger brother but who can blame him for struggling with that, he was only two when he lost her. Sergio...uh maybe...I'm always asking him this stuff though. Will he get mad at me for interrupting him? What if he's already made it home and is busy?

I chew on my lip making it sore before I make a decision.

Of course he picks up before the first ring finishes "Sang. What's wrong?"
"I'm fine, Sergio."
"Really Kukla (doll)? Because you don't sound fine. What is happening? The roommates being suki (b*)?"
Before he takes off ranting in Russian I interrupt. "Sergi, no I just...well my roommates, we were talking." I pause trying to figure out how to word my question.
"Well I would hope you are talking to each other. How are you going to live together if you don't talk?"
I laugh outright by how puzzled he sounds about that. "Yea, well we were talking about our families."
"Byla der'mo! (F*ing S*) What did they say! Do I need to come back? Alexi! Turn left, get on the interstate. Potomu chto ya, blyad', skazal! (because I F*ing said)"
"SERGIO! No! They haven't said anything, I haven't told them anything yet."
"Oh, well don't let them push you round you dont have to tell them anything!"
Having enough of his interruptions I yell as loudly as possible through the phone. "Ne mog iby vy menya perebivat'!" (Would you stop interrupting me!)
"Izvinite! Sang." He blows a long heavy breath out. "Ok, Talk."
"I don't know what to say? There are so many people my showing up effects. What if Katiya, Ivan or Kye don't want people to know that I'm kind of kin to them? What if I say too much or say something I shouldn't? Who can I talk about? Are there topics that are supposed to stay secret? Am I a secret? How am I even supposed to tell them about myself if I don't even know all of it and just found out the truth?"
"Oh, Sang. You can tell them what ever you want. You were never and will never be a secret. There is no kind of kin to us. You are ours and we are yours. If anyone has a problem with that they won't be around for long. Nothing about you has to be hidden away anymore Sang. Katiya, Kye and Ivan would've told you the same. Hell anyone would have. but I'm glad you call me." Clearing his throat he continues, "You don't have to worry anymore Sang. Nothings going to change our minds. There's nothing you could do that would make us hate you, or not want you. So no secrets, no hiding, you go tell your new friends whatever you want them to know."
"Thank you Sergi. I love you too."
"Yea, kukla (doll). I love you."

Hanging up, I place my phone by the bed, wipe my hands down my pants to remove the sweat and leave my room. My room leads right into the living room so as soon as I step out I see all the girls laying comfortably around the room with their own popcorn bowls.

"I'm a Sokolov." I say immediately as they all look at me.

"Well s*," Bia replies first. "That's enough of an explanation."
The other girls nodded solemnly.
"Alright, Sang. Come sit and watch our show with us. We absolutely love this show. It's hilarious!" Noelle says patting the seat beside her on the couch. "So this girl, Kat owns a cat cafe..."

"A what!?" I interrupt. She has to be kidding right? A cat cafe? But honestly it was the funniest show to watch with new friends, to start fresh, to begin living.