Anti-Academy

A Future

Sang POV

The most curious thing to ever happen to me was ending up in the hospital...the first time. My life looks nothing like it did several months ago. The second time I had a horde of people in the room waiting. For me. They waited at the hospital for me to wake up. Who does that?!

Once my eyes opened everyone waited patiently for me to make a choice.

Everyone had picked a side.

Academy on one side.

PRTS on the other.

One or the other. They all began talking at once, then arguing. It made my head split in two. It hurt so badly that a nurse ran in to administer immediate pain relief.

I would never choose one family over the other...Yes, they were both my family. Were their organizations both good? Who knew for sure, but I was not about to lose any connection to my real Mother. I wanted to know everything about her. I was also not about to lose the brother and sister of my heart. Max and Marie may have technically been cousins but I loved them like my siblings.

One moment of horrid truth doesn't change years of them always being there for me, taking care of me and loving me.

So I made everyone leave except for the most important leaders of each side. Max, Marie, Owen, Sean, Dr. Roberts, Roman, Timur and Alla.

It's ridiculous how long this feud has gone on because of misunderstandings and stubbornness. It took about five hours but... by the time everyone had said their part and did their thing checking sources and seeing if each side was actually telling the truth... it was over.

The feud ended with me. And I was happy about that until Dr. Roberts said he was ready to release me and the bickering started again.

Who would I live with? Who was more qualified?

Not once was I asked what I wanted. They took my neutrality to mean I would never want to make decisions for my future.

So that is why I am sitting in this huge garden on the same bench that not long ago put me in the hospital for the second time after three months of being trapped in a mansion. I got what I thought I wanted at first. Family and security while getting to know my real father and learning about my real mother yet still keeping Marie and Max close.

Roman allowed Max and Marie to come and go freely. They left during the day on missions but at night we would crash in the theatre room and watch movies. It was nice bonding but the day always passed slowly.

I spent hours hiding in the library whenever I got the chance, researching and learning new skills. When I wasn't in the library Sergio had me in the gym doing strength training and learning self-defense or in the kitchen loading me up with healthy carbs and lots of protein.

This is one of my very rare moments of alone time. When I get to day dream about my future. Dream about what I wish I could do instead of what I actually am. Just like I've done my whole life.

Why can't I be happy?
Why can't I be satisfied that I am not being tortured?
Why am I not overjoyed to be safe and respected and protected and cared for?
What is wrong with me?
How come I want to be away from everything and everyone while still wanting to keep them close?