Wake up, go to school, homework, read on exams/tests, repeat everyday
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Go to school with a fake smile, "laugh" with fake friends and come home and cry.
Go to the schools bathroom to cry.
Days, weeks, years go by and you're still doing the same things all over again every single day.
What's my life, who am i, what did i do wrong.
I hurt, i get hurt.
¯I push you away–
:
It's all my fault im sorry
I cut. I starve. I lose feelings, i feel numb. Someone help me
Your words can't reach me. Why do i feel like im not here.
Nightmares, good dreams, love. Hate.
I want to heal
I couldnt heal, like always
Thoughts running wild in my head, i can't control them anymore.
Oh help
Help
Help
But you never will. You can't even hear me.
But you know, even if it all was fake, i enjoyed laughing with you once. When you were truly happy.
Walking on a dark winter night, it feels so good. The moon is do beautiful. But still even something so big and beautiful can never hear me. My words will never reach you, the way i want to.
These are my thoughts. Really messy and you probably won't understand what im writing about 'cause its rlly weird and messy lmao. But its ok hahahah.
