I Promise- TommyInnit x Reader

Chapter XII

Tw: middle of the chapter panic attack/ anxiety i will warn you before but this is a heads up :) stay safe yall

By the time Tommy got back any trace of what had happened earlier was gone, and you and tubbo were now sitting on his bed watching YouTube.

Suddenly tubbo jumped up and gasped.

"What??" You asked.

"We could build a fort!!" He said excitedly, his eyes glowing with excitement.

"That's for little kids Toby" Tommy said rolling his eyes.

"Well that sounds like a wonderful idea to me tubbo!" You said, feeding into his enthusiasm.

"Yeah okay. I guess we can do that" Tommy said with a small smile.

"YAY!" Tubbo shouted as he proceeded to tell everyone the things they needed to get and where they needed to put things.

You ended up pushing the bunk beds closer together and using blankets to make a sort of cave on the bottom bunks.

When you were finished you grabbed some snacks and put on a movie. The three of you got comfy under the covers. You were in the center with Tommy on your left and Toby on your right.

As the movie went on you really felt the wariness from your day. Not to mention your anxiety meds made you pretty tired when you took them, and you took them every day.

You placed your head delicately on Tommy's shoulder and closed your eyes, just listening to the movie, and enjoying the moment.

If you get triggered by anxiety or stress attacks DO NOT read this next part, just skip and I promise you will still get the point.

The next thing you knew you were dreaming, as you usually did when you took your meds later than usual. The dream started off pleasant, you were taking a walk with Tommy and tubbo. All of a sudden however they looked at you and started saying horrible things. They talked about how you were worthless and no one would ever love you. They closed in on you in the dream and started hurting you.

You woke up crying and we're bombarded with both of the boys asking if you were okay.

"Don't hurt me... don't hurt me" was all you could manage to get out through choked sobs.

"Hey, it's okay it was only a dream" Tommy said placing his hand on your arm.

You immediately flinched as if you were about to be hit. And he backed off a bit. Seriously concerned for you now.

"I'm getting Wilbur" he said and ran off to go get him.

They came back and Wilbur led you to a sitting room not too far away. He hugged you until you stopped crying and were ready to talk about it.

"What happened?" Wilbur questioned, "that was not a normal nightmare. And you seemed almost scared for them to be around you."

"Well um..." you said, your voice shaking, "I forgot to take my medication this morning. And I took it, but it makes me have horrible nightmares when I take it late. I thought they were going to hurt me."

"Y/n, you do know they would never actually hurt you or say anything like they did in your dream right." Wilbur said eying you.

"Oh, uh yeah I guess not." You said not making eye contact with him.

"Oh my god. You think they might actually say those horrible things don't you." He said.

"I.. uh, I... yeah" you said breaking down into tears once again and hugging him again.

"That's all in your head, they both adore you y/n. I know it can be hard, especially with your anxiety, but they love you. They would never do any of those things."

You and Wilbur talked for a little while longer before he decided you needed to go back to bed. It was 2am after all.

You walked slowly back to your room, petrified to see how they would look at you after the whole ordeal that just happened.

You opened the door and came face to face with a very worried looking tommy and Toby. Tubbo ran up and gave you a hug, and Tommy did the same right after.

"I'm so sorry." You said to Tommy.

"It's not your fault, it was just a bad dream. Everyone gets them. It's not like you did something to cause it." He said, trying to be helpful.

"Well uh. Tommy I need to tell you something." You said trying to stay as calm as possible.

"Y/n, you don't have to do this right now." Tubbo said trying to make sure this was what you really wanted to do.

"No no, I'm ready tubbo." And you told Tommy everything. Including what your dream was about.

He sat with you on your bed, listening intently on every word you said.

"Y/n, I understand why you didn't tell me. But don't worry, I am your best friend, and I will always be there for you. No matter what, okay. Promise me you will tell me when there is something going on this big in your life again okay?"

"I promise" you sighed. Then you fell asleep next to him.

He held you close but not close enough for your liking. You assumed he was still a little freaked out by earlier, rightfully so. You scooted in closer, and fell asleep at his side.

a/n pleaaaaase stay safe and don't take any of this too seriously. also if anyone has anxiety please let someone trusted know. They can help you and if not please contact me. luv yall

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