Krystalline Thoughts

6 | Am I Good Enough?

Lying awake, without you next to me

Sleep just out of reach, my night going rough

In a state of mind that I can't stand to be

I always think that I messed up

You say that if I do wrong you'll tell me

But I worry that even if I do, you might not speak up

I worry that I'm not the man you need me to be

I might just be in my own head again, telling is tough

But as many times as you say you love me

I still can't help but wonder, am I good enough?

You may not see it but to me, you're perfect

But that just reminds me that I'm not

I feel like you're too good for me, though you'd probably object

Whispers of doubt occupy my thoughts

Or is it just my insecurities that I project?

Please don't misunderstand, I don't doubt you or us

It's me I doubt, I feel I'll never be good enough

I don't want to ever lose you

Though I'm scared I'll fuck this up

Ruin what we have, out of the blue

Though I hope I never do

Because I love you

- 12/9/20