Sugar And Ice

chapter 15

POV OF MILA

Running after a little boy, who's laughter brings me absolute joy. Three people appear out of no where but something is off about them. I only see what seems to be purple eyes, under their robes. Calling to him to come back to me but it's too late. They grab him and he's gone. Running and screaming after him. Screaming Dimitris name, "Dimitri, Dimitri, Dimitri. They took our boy, Dimitri, they took my baby boy." Falling to my knees, feeling his arms around me sobbing uncontrollably.

Snapping my eyes open, breathing heavy. Only a horrible dream. I feel Dimitris arms around me. "Dimitri?" My voice hurting and feels really dry. "Good morning" as he lets go of me. "I need water please" Sounding extremely raspy. Getting up, he grabs me some water. I drink it like a desert that hasn't had water in days. "Thank you". I tell him as I hand it back empty.
I feel so sore and and my body feels drained. Twisting my neck, it still hurts but a little less. I try to get up slowly bringing my legs over the beds ledge. Grabbing the bed, getting up, I feel pain in my gorin. Getting flash backs of how it happened. I feel my cheeks get red. Taking a step i wobble a little bit but I'm ok. "Mila, let me help you." I hear Dimitri. " I got this." I snap at him.
Going to the bathroom, I'm looking around and the bathtub is in broken pieces and their's no mirror. I stand there and i start to remember everything.
"Mila?" Hearing his voice right behind me. I do my business ignoring him as he continues to stare at me. I remember myself hitting him, oh, that'll be fun. Going back to that room.
The screaming! What the fuck was that? I felt....I don't even know how to describe it. I threw him against the wall. I was angry and I did that. Walking back and forth.
"Mila, look at me." Dimitri sounding concerned. "I just need time to myself, to think, to breathe." Running my hands through my hair. Breathing fast, feeling like I'm in the ocean, swimming against the current. Never catching up to the shore. Never catching my breath.
Turning around to face him. Walking up to be infront of him. "I remember what happened and I'm sorry that I did that to you." Turning my head and turning it back to him. " You know what? No! I'm not fucking sorry." pushing at his chest. Taking him by surprise. His face contours to the angry one but I don't fucking care. After what I did, he should be afraid of me. Or that's what I tell myself. "How fucking could you Dimitri? Pushing again. "What gave you the right to choose for me, huh?" Pushing again. "If I had told you no to turning me. Would you still have done it?"
Taking a step towards me causing me to step back. "Yes, I would have still done it." flaring his nostrils "You know why?" Shaking my head no. Taking another step to me, myself hitting the wall. "The minute I found you, is the minute i woke up, started breathing and my life finally started. I've roamed this earth year after year, decade after decade, and centurie after God damn centurie waiting for you. The only one made for me. The only one that I'll ever love." He loves me? my heart skipping a beat. "The only one that will make my life totally complete. You're too young to understand. Too young to understand that what we have is special and unique. Something we shouldn't take for granted. I know you feel the same way. But you're afraid to admit it. Even though we've known each other for a few days, you know it's true. Love doesn't wait. It hits you right in your face." Finally taking a deep breath never taking his eyes off of me.
"It still doesn't give you the right." Looking down, trying to make my myself sound convincing but I know it's too late. He might be right but I'll fight myself to keep my sanity with all of this and this situation that I'm in.
Not knowing what to say at his declaration, I push him out of my way exiting the bathroom. I go back to the bed, laying down facing the window away from him, covering up with the comforter. " I want the after pill and birth control Dimitri......please." After a few mintues, I hear him grunt but says nothing then the door opens and closes.
Turning around, huffing and puffing looking up. Now what? What do I say to that? He basically declared his love for me. Do i feel the same way like he said? And more importantly, how did i make that happen? What am I better yet? Is my mother hiding something from me? Herself or for my father? And I definitely can't get pregnant this soon. Imagine a baby 9 months from now with someone you don't know at all. "FUCK EVERYTHING " I shout, not to anyone in particular just the whole world general. I need to go outside. Clear my head and think things through.
Getting up to get dressed, I get black jeans and a black turtleneck to hide my neck. My whole body is still bruised so I'll keep it covered, finally getting dressed, my hair in a pony tail, i leave the room. Remembering the way out, i find myself in the kitchen with Mari and another woman. "Hi Mila, what can I help you with my dear." Smiling at me. "Nothing right now, I just need to go outside for a walk. " "Oh that sounds wonderful. This is Hazel, she's visiting me for a while, we've been friends for a long time. " " Your majesty" bowing her head down. God i hate that. "No need for that, I'm not the queen. Just Mila please." Tilting her head to the side, she nods. "I'll leave y'all be." Leaving both of them in the kitchen.
Finally breathing fresh air, looking at the sky, it's grey but still feels fantastic against my face. I walk and walk, thinking over everything and this and that but it's useless. I continue walking until I'm wore out, hungry and tired and without no resolution. Going back through the kitchen, I smile to Mari not seeing Hazel. "Where did your friend go?" Raising my eyebrows. "She's going to town, do a little shopping." "Oh" Nodding my head. I slump down on the island head down resting on my arms. Turning to look at the ovens. I can picture being back home at the bakery with my mom and our baking ladies.
"Mari, can I bake some cupcakes?" Her face lits up, "well of course, it's your kitchen. You can do what ever you want." Grabbing my cheeks. Making me giggle.
"You look beautiful when you smile." Dimitri says, making us both jump. Looking at his direction he's at the dining room door. Mari retreats, getting ingredients out for me. I put my head down hoping he'll leave me alone a little bit longer. " Mila, these just got in." Lifting my head up. To look up at him. Handing me the pink plan b box. "Thank you Dimitri." At that moment I feel a little happy towards him. Glad he didn't fight me on the matter. Greatful he didn't force me not to take it. Getting up, I go to the refrigerator opening it up getting a water bottle out. Tearing the tiny box open i grab the pill putting it in my mouth taking a big gulp of water, washing it down and throwing the evidence away.
"One other thing." He says. Twisting myself to look at him. "Your mother is on her way and she'll be here later this evening." My heart starts pounding fast. What! Did I heard him right. "She's on her way, really? " He nods his head yes. Rocking back and forth from his toes to his heels. With his hands in his pockets. Running to him, i jump wrapping my legs around him, squeezing him as tight as I can. "Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!" Holding him tight with glee. Quickly realizing what Ive done ,I get off, my face getting red, feeling embarrassed. "Sorry about that." Making my voice sound put together. Why do I want to touch him?
Raising my eyebrows at him in suspicion, "But why? We've had a normal life, we're normal. Well?" looking down, "I was atleast." Looking back at him. "You might think you know her but we truly never know what people will do an order to protect the ones they love." Dimitri says sounding understanding of what my patents must of done. " Did you ever meet him?" Searching my eyes for answers. "My mom has always said I was 2 when he passed away, from a car accident. I have no memories of him. And now that I think of it. I don't recall a picture of us together. Only my mother and myself. I don't think I've ever seen his face." I whisper to him. He nods, grabbing the back of my neck pulling me to him, kissing me on the top of my head. "I'll let you ladies be, I'll be in my office."
Walking away, leaving us. Leaving me with more questions then before.
I return to Mari. And now I have more questions than answers. "Are you ok, dear?" Mari eyeing me with a worried look. "I think i am, I'm both ecstatic to see my mother and scared at what she'll reveal. That's if she has anything to reveal, really." Sounding down, playing with my hands. "Mari why is life crazy? Why can't it be simple? Maybe come with an instruction manual with all the steps." Opening up ingredients and measuring them out.
Mari grabbing my hands, bringing her hand towards my cheek. "I don't know, but I do know, that if you have to fight the current to get to wherever you want to go, to get want you desire. Once you get there and reach it. Whatever or whoever it may be, it becomes priceless. Something you'll hold dear to your heart never wanted to let it go. The storms are just the trails we all must go through an order to bring out who we truly are and appreciate it even more after we have it. Do you know who you truly really are? " Looking deep into my eyes. "Don't think about your mother, Dimitri or anyone, only yourself. Were you truly happy or just simply living? Single tear falls from my eye, Mari wiping it away. "I thought I did and was or so I thought, but not too sure now. " Tapping my cheek with a gentle touch and a smile. "Life will punch you in the face, drag you down kicking and screaming and burn you up to ash. But like a Phoenix you will rise up, come out stronger and become who you truly are." Giving me a big smile. "Now let's finish so we can eat them, yes?" Hugging her for everything she has said. "Thank you Mari".
We decided on just simple strawberry cupcakes with strawberry frosting. The kitchen smells amazing making me feel home sick. Sticking them in the oven we start cleaning while we wait for our cup cakes to bake. Mari starts grabbing what seems to be some lunch ingredients. "What are you making?" Eyeing the ingredients that she pulled out. " just some shchi, which is cabbage soup." "Oh, that sounds good." " Its one of Dimitri favorites" slowly her voice down at the favorites. Ha, good for him.
Cutting and putting everything in a big pot she starts cooking it all together. Cupcakes finally done, I take them out, so they can cool down. Working in unison, we are in a comfortable silence. Once cupcakes are cooled, I start frosting, just a simple whip on top.
I have to use the restroom, luckily for me their's one in here so I don't have to go searching for one. Going back to the kitchen, I see a a shirtless Dimitri eating the cupcakes, not eating, inhaling them is a better word. Licking his fingers one by one slowly, one after the other. His tattoos on full display. His front and back are equally covered like his arms. His tone stomach and back muscles flexing with every moment he makes. He has workout shorts and shoes on. Taking my eyes off him and looking at the remaining cupcakes only a few are left.
"Did you really just eat that many?" I ask him tilting my head and rising my eyebrows at him. Licking his fingers now looking at me, I feel myself blush and he just grins as he sees the effect it had on me. Grabbing another walking towards me inclosing me with one arm. Myself between him and the wall. "These are really good Mila, it's been a while since I've had a delicious dessert but don't tell Mari I said that." " He says while eating between bites. His fingers getting dirty again. "Open your mouth," his eyes getting darker and becoming golden honey. He brings his fingers to my mouth. "No" i tell him. Walking to the island away from him. I hear him chuckle, and in a second, he rips my shirt from the neck. Exposing my mark. "What the hell Dimitri." Grabbing my hair pulling it down making me look up at him. "I don't like it hiding. This shows the world you're mine. " His eyes looking deadly serious. "Fuck off, you can't tell me what i can and can not wear." Rolling my eyes as I pull my hair out of his hand. "Behave yourself Mila, you still have a punishment awaiting for you but not tonight as your mother will be here later. But tomorrow, it's a different sorry." He smirks walking away leaving me breathing quickly with what he just said.