Sugar And Ice

chapter 16

Grabbing one of the few remaining cupcakes, I eat it. Didn't think I'll miss baking or eating them. Helping me distracting myself with how Dimitri left me. I don't like his punishments. If he's planning on doing the same thing as last time, he has another thing coming. It's extremely confusing when my body tells me one thing and my mind another. Hearing the door open. I see Mari carry a big flower pot, quickly getting up I help Mari bring it to the counter. "What are you doing Mari?" I ask her as we bring it to the counter. Wiping my face because it was heavy. Mari stars cleaning her hands, "just wanted to clean it and put some fresh flowers for when Hazel comes back. Dimitri said your mother is coming and i wanted to bring life to the castle." Smiling at me, she looks at my neck and I quickly cover myself where Dimitri ripped it. "I'm going to change, I'll be back."
Turing my back to her and living the kitchen. I make my way to my room. Looking in the closet, all the shirts with high collar fabrics are gone. All the remaining blouses will show my mark. "Seriously?" Rolling my eyes heavily. He was fast at removing them.
I get up, grabbing another shirt since this one is destroyed. Putting it on i look around and out of curiosity, I go to open the double doors to that room up. And to my surprise it's unlocked. Turing on the light I remember everything. I start looking around, examining everything. I stop at the whips first, different shapes, sizes and different materials. Which are handing on the wall infront of the bed. How can people do this? Do people really enjoy this? Who has he brought in here? How many? I don't care, do I? Pushing that thought away for now. I continue walking around. I see what seems to be canes hanging next to them. Oh no, he's not touching me with these. Whips I think i can do but not these. Shit! What are you talking about Mila? You're ok with whips now? I shake my head at myself, my internal drama talking to its self.
Going to the drawers, opening them up one by one I see what seems to be small toys of some sort. Different shapes and sizes. Some are fat others are skinny. They're small at one end and get bigger at the other end. I should have watched porn or something I fill clueless. Opening up another drawer, this one filled with more stuff and some are penis shaped. I definitely don't want that. Closing that drawer quickly. Opening up another, I take out what seems to be little clamps but for what? I don't know? Where would they go?
"They're for your nipples." Scaring the shit out of me making me almost drop them. I quickly put them up, slamming the drawer up with a bang. Slowly turing around I see Dimitri at the door breathing heavily and extremely sweaty. I think I see blood on his face and knuckles.
Keeping a hard face, i make my way towards the doors. Dimitri blocking me from leaving. He's chest going up and down and sweat dripping down with a mixture of blood. "What did you do?" Looking up at him. Looking down at me, "I just worked out" putting a strain of hair behind my ear. "What kind of workout leaves you bloody?" Questioning him. "Today, Ufc style of fighting, I want my people to be ready if anything were to happen. So we train both physically, with weapons and mentally as well." Tracing my neck with his fingers. " who would fight you? And why?" I ask with a confused look. "You truly don't know but it never hurts to be prepared. It's only been a couple of hundred years since we've had peace." Looking back up at me.
"I need to go. I told Mari I'll be back to help her." Trying to push myself around him. Dimitri standing still like a rock. "Dimitri! Move please." Looking at his chest again. Grabbing my chin brining my face up. "You're the only one that's been here. All of these toys have never been touch by anyone. And only will be touch by you. You're the only woman that's been in my bed and in fact, in this castle." Looking at me deadly serious. "I don't care." Forcing myself out of his grip. He just smiles finally letting me go, reaching for the door to go to Mari.
Finally going back to the kitchen, Hazel is back with lots of stuff. She looks at me with a smile and I smile back. She looks down towards my neck, staring a bit. Making me fill self conscious. "Oh honey, Dimitri really went big didn't he Mari?" Sounded concerned. "Wolfs can be assholes with the markings." Shaking her head unpacking flowers. "Hazel it's not your business or mine. Keep your thoughts and opinions to yourself." Scolding her. Not knowing what to say i just keep quiet. "What can I help with?" Looking at everything, Mari gives us orders and we do as we're told. Happy to be busy while my mother makes her way here. I can't wait to hug her. She'll have a ton of questions and myself as well. Is she supernatural or my father? How was i able to do that? Looking at my watch, it's been several hours. She'll be here shortly. Mari is making dinner. She settled on steaks and potatoes. I'm actually pretty hungry and the only thing I've had was the one cupcake. Mari and Hazel finished the rest, loving them. We got lucky with the three that were left by Dimitri.
Bringing flowers to several vases, I stop and look at the painting with Dimitris mother and himself. She's beautiful and Dimitri a sweet looking baby. I smile at their happier times together.
"I was around 15 when she passed away. My father became a mess. Unconsolable even having me wasn't enough. I didn't know what kind of pain he had going on until you. Now I understand why killing himself was his best decision. " Speaking softly behind me, sounded sad but somewhat understanding of what his father had done. "How did she pass away? I ask him. "She didn't want to be werewolf like my father. She passed away from an infection in her leg, after cutting herself. It slowly spread, killing her several days later. My father tried to convince her to let him change her put she didn't want to. My father respected her wishes. I blamed him for not saving her and if I were him I would have still changed her." Sounded angry at him.
"He did the right thing, it's not up to you to decide on behalf of someone without consult first. You just took it upon yourself to decide what I wanted. You didn't give me time to think about anything it."
Walking away, he grabs me hard, slamming me into him. "So you rather die instead of spending forever with the person you love?" Looking at me flaring his nostrils, his icy blue eyes staring back at me. " You didn't give me the choice Dimitri, can't you understand that? Your father asked your mother and he respected her wishes."
"AND NOW BOTH ARE DEAD BECAUSE OF IT." Screaming at me, grabbing me harder, making me pull myself away from him. This is an angry/ hurt Dimitri. Someone who thinks his parents betrayed him. Leaving him alone. Maybe they thought he would have found his mate soon after, not realizing it would have taken this long. "You're angry at them, not me. I think your parents thought you would have found your mate soon after. They couldn't have known it would take this long Dimitri. You can understand that right? You can't be mad at your mother for wanted a normal death and you can't blame your father for killing himself. You just said the pain is horrible. Imagine if you lost me? Do you think you could live without me?" I try to reason with him. Hugging me tightly, to the point that i can't barley breathe. "Don't say that ever. I can try to understand they're reasons, if that's them, but even after over 1400 years the pain is still there." "You were just a boy Dimitri. But now a man, you should let them rest in peace and let your anger go towards them." I whisper to him. He stays quiet, still holding me tightly. We stay like this for a while, finally letting me go. I walk towards kitchen Mari and Hazel are working together. "What can I help with now?
"I think we have everything covered, I believe your mother just got here. " Turning around I bump straight into Dimitri, my face in his chest. He chuckles, "I didn't even hear you get in." "I'm a great hunter." Winking his eye. "But Mari is right, they're here. Are you ready Mila?" Looking at me with a worried face. Nodding my head yes, but scared shit less at what I'll learn, i put on a determined look. My world turned upside down in a few days time and its about to happen again. But to what extent? We're about to find out.