Sugar And Ice

chapter 10

              Going back to the kitchen side and entering through the door. Mari has put almost everything back. Olga grabbing my attention,  "I have to leave Mila but I'll be back tomorrow morning, ok." Giving me a hug and holding me at arms length. She wants to say something but she's not sure. She keeps twitching her noise thinking about it back and forth. "No problem really I'll be ok" reassuring her with a big smile. I know she can tell I'm not ok with anything but it's all we can both do at this time and moment. With a nod she exist. I hear a car come to life and slowly fade away.
       "What would you like for dinner my queen?" Mari ask me coming down from a kitchen lader. "Mila please, I am no ones queen." I say once again. "Sorry my child, Mila " she gives me apologetic smile. Going to the double door refrigerator peaking inside, "What can I make you my dear" I'm not hungry" twitching my nose. "I just want to go back to my room please, but I don't remember exactly how to get back. If you could help me that would be great." Rocking on my feet. "Of course, come on, lets go". She intertwine our arms together and we leave through the grand dining room. We're almost the same height, she has long blonde hair and beautiful green eyes. She looks like she's around 50 or so. She makes me think of my own mother. I need to go home or even hear her voice would be nice.
         Paying attention to where we go, we end up back to my room. Opening the door, we both suddenly hear a ringing sound and I realize it's a cell phone. My eyes get big and a big guy comes from the corner, speaking to it,  heading straight to us. I never even knew he was here or anything. Stopping infront of us, he hands me the phone. Grabbing it in putting it in my ear, "hello?" Keeping my eyes on Mari. "Mila, I hope you had a lovely afternoon with Olga." I'm frozen in place when i hear Dimitris voice. "Can I call my mother? Or even Victoria?" I ask him trying to sound stern with my voice. "I will be back soon and when I'm back, we can talk about everything in more detail." He calmly tells me. "Fuck you" I tell him not being able to hold my tongue. I end the call giving the phone back to the guy who's eyes got a little big at my outburst but quickly recovers. He walks away the same way he came from. "Well my dear, I'll let you be. If you need anything. Someone will be by the door." Tapping my cheek, before leaving.
       Walking in and closing the door behind me, I slide down to the floor with my back on the door. Bringing my knees to my chest, wrapping my arms around them crying until I had nothing left.
            I'm running, surrounded my snow and the dark. I see the full moon and stars on the clear black sky. My heart beating out of my chest, my legs burning with exhaustion. Falling on my hands and knees, my hair in my face. I feel my neck burned and I  scream in pain. Tears running down my face, hands twisting me around to face him, Dimitri. With a bloody mouth and teeth, smiling down at me, his golden eyes shining bright even in the darkness. Opening my legs with his legs...quickly waking up, my heart beating at a fast rate,  looking at my surroundings, I remember where I'm at. Shaking off the bad dream I breath in deep calming myself down. It was only a dream Mila only a dream.
          Without realizing, I fell asleep right by the door. I didn't even realized I was that exhausted. Getting up and going to the bathroom to pee. I feel the need to take a hot shower. Turning the water on. Doing my business, looking at myself and down at my neck. I take the bandage off looking at my bite mark, which still stings at my touch but doesn't look as bad as before. I then take my clothes off from the day before. Entering the shower, letting the scolding hot water wash everything away. Finishing up, wrapping myself in one of the towels, I walk out to the room and scream in shock. "Fuck Olga, you're going to give me a heart attack." Jumping at my scream, "Sorry" she laughs. She's standing by several racks of clothes. She has blue jeans on with a black long sleeve sweater, black boots. Her hair in a messy bun. She's looking at everything with bright eyes. "Oh Mila, these are magnificent. Look at the shoes and accessories. The jewelry are exquisite." I run my hands through everything, noticing that everythung is in my size and honestly I don't care for any of it. Looking at my face noticing my look. "You don't like them? Tilting her head at me. "I don't care for them." I grab black jeans and a red sweater and put on black sneakers. Brushing my hair and leaving it down. "Can we go out again" I ask her softly." "Of course, we can play around later i guess, rolling her eyes looking and sounding dramatic. I laugh. "Let's go get breakfast, yes?" She ask me while leaving the room. "Sure, let see Mari. She's adorable." My smile reaching my eyes. "She's been here for a few hundred years, she runs the house and her husband is the grounds keeper. You'll see his beautiful work once the snow starts melting." I will not because I will be gone by then, but I keep that part to myself.
       Mari is making coffee when we walk in, "morning girls, coffee?" Mixing her coffee with sugar and creamer. "Yes please" we both say in unison we start laughing. "Ok girls calm down, it's too early for this." Giving us a warning look, we burst out laughing some more. After breakfast we go walking around the castle again. "Where do you live?" I ask Olga. We live in a small cottage about 10 minutes away."

"If you don't mind me asking , do you have any children? Looking at her.
"Not yet, we both don't feel the need to have any yet. But we do want some, we have a life time for them you know. " She says looking straight ahead. "How many people live here?
"Close to 250, but we're scattered everywhere."  "Wow" is all I could say.   We continue to walk until lunch time. Mari has fruit and sandwiches ready for us. All the three of us talk and laugh at our stories. We have a lovely lunch until one of the guards comes out of no where and hands me the phone again.
       "Yes?" My whole mood changes. "I'll be home tomorrow" Click handing the phone back. Ringing again, he answers handing to me again. "Yes?" "Don't you dare hang" click,  I smile doing it again. I don't want to hear your voice. It rings again and once again he answers giving it  out to me. "Yes?" "If you" click. "Leave" i tell the guard and he dose as I told him.
         Olga and Mari look at each other with raised eyebrows and bust out laughing. Shaking my head i start laughing too with them. He said he'll be back tomorrow, but in hesitate i didn't ask what time before hanging up. Shit! I need to go tonight. Everyone should be asleep right? With the day carrying on and staying indoors with Olga we head back to my room. We play around with the clothes and stuff until dinner. Once again she leaves, explaining that she wants to go back to her Viktor, which is adorable I must admit. Even after all these year, they seem like newly weds.
             I'm not hungry again so I skip dinner getting a frown from Mari but she leaves it alone. Staying in my room I pick out my items for my travels. Filling a backpack with them, pacing back and forth looking over at the clock what seems to take forever. I finally seat on the chairs looking out the window.
             Everything is still, black skies where you can see the stars and the full moon shining bright,  illuminating everything that it hits. Looks quite peaceful and beautiful, but deadly in a sense. Finally looking at the clock, it's a little over 2am. Slowly getting more and more impatient i open my door peaking on both sides. I see nor hear anyone. It's now or never.
              Making my way to the kitchen, I hear voices and my heart starts beating fast. Putting my backpack and jacket down I go in. Few of the guys are drinking and talking. All dressed in black suits. Coughing to get their attention. They all look up to me stopping on their tracks. All standing up, "What can we do for you?" One of them ask which I assume is the leader. Smiling at them, "Sorry guys, didn't mean to disturb you, I skipped dinner and my stomach won't stop growling." Laughing a little. Play it cool, not to much not to little. "We will leave you be." He responds, snapping his finger  motioning everyone to leave. "Thank you" I tell them. Stopping on his way out, facing me,  "If you need anything else we're around the corner." I nod my head with a smile. Going to the dining room, which is still dark, I hear them leave out of it. Peaking back out  I grab my backpack and jacket. I open up cabinets, drawers, the refrigerator several times to give the illusion that I'm fixing myself something to eat. I turned the microwave on for well over 20 minutes, that should give me enough time for a head start. Turing the water on as well to make as much noise as possible at once. Putting in my jacket followed by my pack back, I slowly open the door looking at my freedom.