Sugar And Ice

chapter 13

       I wake up, with the need to use the restroom. My eyes slowly adjusting to the sun and my surroundings. I'm back in the same room as before. Slowly looking around I don't see him here. Sighing in relief.
        Trying to move my body i whine in pain. I feel like I was in a accident hit by a dump truck maybe. Everything hurts, I feel extremely sore. Trying to turn my neck i cry out in pain. My neck is throbbing uncontrollably.
         I start to remember everything clearly, it hits me like a ton of bricks. Breathing in fast, as everything is flashing infront of me of what happened earlier. Bringing my hands to my face i start to sob. I really didn't fight him off, I gave in. I feel like absolute shit. Wiping my tears away, I looking at the time and its a little before eleven am.
         Slowly trying to get up, looking at my arms, they're both full of bruises. I try to take the sheets off but everything hurts so much. straining myself to take the covers off. I look at my body. I gasp in shock. I'm naked, my body covered in bruises. The inside of my tighs are by far the worse looking area. I have dried up blood, evidence of my lost virginity and his semen. I quickly cover myself and I start to cry some more. Not because of my body or lost virginity but everything is hitting me head first. I should be angry at him but the more I try, the harder it is. It's like my body knows he's the one. My mind is the one that needs time. It's too much to take in.
           I fall asleep again, finally waking up around three pm. I need to use the restroom urgently. Forcefully making myself to get up. i wobble myself to the bathroom. Relieving myself, I wipe myself and it's extremely tender. Not wanted him near me ever again. Standing up I see everything more clearly. How is this even possible? Wobbling to the sink, I look at my neck again. Taking a deep breath letting it sink in, its fucking horrific. Tears fall down, God i need to stop with the crying but that's seems like the new normal. Breathing deep and blowing out. Looking at my puffy red eyes. Grabbing the sink with both hands, looking down. One step at a time Mila, one step at a time.
          Looking up at the mirror I see Dimitri standing at the door dress in all black,  his arms crossed in front of him, his blue eyes looking at me. Quickly going for a towel to cover myself i winch in pain causing him to move towards me.
"NO" getting away from him.
"Mila" Sounding angry that I backed away. "Fuck off Dimitri" standing my ground or at least trying to. Wrapping myself tighter, looking at him. "I...I...I..." Sighing in defeat "I just want a hot bath." Mintues seem to go by  until he finally nod his head. He goes to the bath tub and starts the water. Putting some bubble mix in. It starts to foam and the room starts to steam up. Waiting by the door for him to leave he starts to undress himself. "Ummm...what are you doing? I want to take one by myself. Can you leave?" Sounding annoyed. I just want to have few mintues to myself, to think and not think. Ignoring me, he continues to undress. Once his fully naked, I turn around to walk away but he grabs me from behind. I winch again as he picks me. Bringing us both into the tube.
            Slowly sinking into the water, my muscles began to relax. I'm between his legs, I feel his cock grow bigger. I tense up and try to move away. Grabbing me putting me against his chest. "I will not fuck you today so don't worry, you can relax." Whispering in my ear, grabbing my hair putting it on my side showing the mark he left me. He slowly traces around it. "Dimitri? It really hurts." I whisper to him. "I know" is all he managed to say. "I wanted it to hurt, I want you to see it everyday and everyone else. That's a fraction of what I have planned for you. The pain and anger i felt when I didn't see you where you were supposed to be." Breathing in deep, "is something I don't want to go through ever again. But don't worry, it'll heal soon. It'll be your beautiful beauty mark and everyone will know from a distance that you're mine." Pulling my hair forcefully, forcing me to look at him. I whimper but he doesn't let go. His very angry with me still, his eyes golden honey looking at me. Tears falling down my cheeks. "You look beautiful when you cry when you're at my mercy." He whispers with a smirk. Bringing his face closer to mine. I put my hands on his shoulders but his to strong and I'm in too much pain to fight him off.
           Kissing me softly, I let myself fall in. He lets go of my hair, and I slowly start to twist myself on top of him as we continue to kiss each other. He brings his hands on my breast massaging them. I can't seem to stop myself but I want him. Even in this state that I'm in, my body still craves him. I want the pain and pleasure that he can give me. I slowly sink myself letting him inside me, inch by inch,  burning me all over again. Pulling myself away from his lips i stop myself. It hurts so much. I close my eyes taking in deep breaths adjusting to him. Grabbing my face he starts kissing me again. He hugs me tightly as he picks me up, I wrap my legs around him. Still inside of me he walks us out and into the room. My back hits the soft mattress, my bottom right at the edge of the bed. He starts to pound me, fast and hard. Causing me to whine and moan in his mouth as he drinks them in. I hear his grunting everytime he pushes inside of me. Hearing his harsh breathing and grunting makes me come alive even more. I keep my hands on his shoulders for support not wanted to move. He keeps one hand behind my head, holding a fist full of my hair, keeping me in place. Bringing his experienced fingers between my legs. He starts playing with my swollen nob, circling and putting the right pressure going round and round.
           I start to build up, that tighten feeling in my stomach. "Dimitri " I whisper into his lips. I cum with a powerful scream, arching my back breaking away from him. Taking his fingers away he grabs my head with both hands while I'm screaming my release keeping me in place. He gets bigger and pounds into me faster and harder. Grunting hard and deep, when I suddenly feel him pulsating inside of me as he found his release as well, I realized I enjoy that feeling of him cumming inside of me. I should be worried about sexually transmitting disease not enjoying it.
            I'm in complete bliss, my body aches and I'm even more in extreme pain then before but in complete bliss of happiness, I'm at that blurred line of pain and pleasure mixed in. The only one he's tought me. We're both breathing heavy, keeping our foreheads together. He pulls out slowly, i curl up to a ball closing my eyes.
         He picks me up gently, resting my head on his chest. Brining us back to the now cold bath water. Surprisingly, it feels amazing. Still resting my head on his chest. "I've never been on birth control" I whisper. Rubbing my fingers together  on my lap. He stays quiet. Running his fingers on my back. " I need some before I get pregnant, if that's even possible. Is it?" Looking up at him. "It is, with mates." He finally says. "I need some." I say again.  Twitching his nose at me. "Dimitri? We barely know each other. Not even a week you know it's crazy, right? To even think about having a baby anytime soon." Looking away from me, i see his veins popping up, his upset but restraining himself, he knows it's crazy too.
                 I turn around grabbing the sponge and soap and I  start to scrub myself. "Let me help" Dimitri grabbing it from me. He cleans me off being as gentle as he can be. Taking extra precautions on my inner tighs and groin. I winch while he cleans me. "I'm sorry but I'm not, I lost control once I saw you. Once you're fully changed, you'll be stronger." He tells me. "What do you mean, fully changed?" I questioned him. Never stopping washing me, "once I bit you I gave you my werewolve DNA. The next full moon you'll be a full werewolve." He states matter a factly.
         Taking in what he just said. I turn around quickly, slapping him as hard as I could across his face. I don't know what takes over me but I feel energy in my body that takes over me.              
              I get up and start to scream at the top of my lungs. Breaking the mirror, breaking the tub itself. Dimitri flying away hitting the wall. Looking at me in complete shock. Water going everywhere. The whole castle shakes as I scream in anger, at everything, at him. How dare he take that choice away from me. How fucking dare he do this to me.
          Feeling completely drained, i fall to my knees, looking at Dimitri as he quickly comes to me, catching my head before I hit the floor.     "MILA! MILA! MILA!" I hear him scream as my world goes black once again in his arms.