The Guy I Couldn't Stay Away From

CHAPTER 9

Louvina's POV

I sit in silence. Enjoying the sound of the trees as they rustle against each other and the breeze. The damn breeze. I was cold. I had goosebumps all over my skin but I refuse to go back. I came to clear my head and I've been here for about three hours but my head wasn't quite cleared. It was almost as if I was missing something.

I continue staring into an empty void lost in my thoughts until I hear feet trampling over grass. I snap my head in that direction and I can't say I'm exactly surprised when I see Adam. He is the only person who knows this place, my secret haven. He brought me here whenever I missed Abbey so much and I was sad. The serenity helped comfort me so I made it my secret spot. I knew Abbey was going to call him to help in looking for me so I actually expected him.

"Remind me again , why did I make this my secret spot when you of all people knew about it?" I ask with a slight grin.

"You forgot this was my spot before I, like the gentleman that I am, decided to lend it to you" he says amusement written all over his face.

I only scoff and continue to stare into the void.

He sighs and joins me on the ground.
"Wanna talk?" He asks.

I hesitate. If I'm supposed to be staying away from him, telling him what's bothering me might bring us closer. Just like when Abbey wasn't here.

"Just like old times?" He asks again. Playfully nudging my shoulder.

I roll my eyes, trying to hide my smile.
But it suddenly drops when I remember the reason why I'm here.

"I'm just tired of the distance that comes between us when its Mark's death anniversary. Earlier, I was trying to get us together but they won't budge"
I sigh and pout.

He chuckles lightly.
"They're not over it is all. Plus while Abbey was explaining why you left, she did mention something about your dad considering what you said" he says.

My eyes widen. He is? That must be why he looked off. He was thinking about what I said!

I jump onto my feet. If he was considering then I should leave. As soon as I turn to go, a hand grips my wrist.
Oh yeah, I totally forgot that Adam was here.

I stare at our hands and look at him with a raised eyebrow.

"Abbey also mentioned that your eyes have been quite dry this year. You gotta,let it out Lou" he says concern all over his face.

"I'm not crying alone" I tell him trying to free my wrist from his awfully tight grip. I'm going back home to cry with my family like Mark would've wanted.

He thinks for a while. Still not letting go.

"Okay think of it this way. Instead of crying with your family out of bitterness from Mark's death, you should cry out of happiness because Mark is now in a better place"

I gasp lightly. He is so right. We have to celebrate the fact that he's in a better place! How did I never think of it this way? I am happy but I feel tears welling up in my eyes. I turn away from Adam when a tear rolls down my face but he turns me back and wraps his arms around me.

"Shhh... Let all the bitter tears out" he whispers. When I hear this, I come apart. I start sobbing out loud and soaking his shirt with tears. He continues to pat my back gently.

About after 15 minutes of heartbreaking sobs, I stop. It felt like a heavy weight had been lifted off my chest. I just stand there, arms wrapped around Adam's torso.

I pull away from him. I knew it was wrong but it felt so right.

"Maybe I should get back" I say, a slight blush creeping up my face.