calzona separated

Chapter 5

Callie's pov
Sof was so excited, it was amazing. She was the happiest I'd seen her in months. She loved going through the airport, flying over the country and seeing the clouds, and when we arrived in Seattle all she would talk about was Arizona. It was great.

After being dragged through almost every shop there, we got on the shuttle bus with our suitcases and bags and made our way to Seattle. I was a little nervous because it would be time for sharing my daughter again, but hopefully we would all be happy.

"Sweetie, are you ready to go see mommy?" I asked as I took her hand and stepped out the cab.

She looked at our new house my dad bought us, then looked up at me. "Why can't we live with mommy?"

"I'm sorry sweetie, I'm not going to live with her. But you are sometimes, so that'll be fun wont it?" I asked with a smile. I don't want her focusing on this. "We can go find your mommy now, she should be at the hospital"

"I wish you could come and live with mommy as well"

"Sorry Sof. Come on, let's get these bags inside then get a cab to the hospital"

"Okayyyyyy" she said with a small smile. That's not her usual smile. Her usual smile is like Arizona's, even though they don't have the same genes. They both have cute dimples, and spread it like a contagious disease.

I took our bags in the new house then took the cab to Grey Sloan Memorial. God I missed Mark. I wish he was here. He would've hated all this.

A few hours earlier (leading up to the same time)

Alex's pov
I was still concerned about Robbins and the plane situation. Callie texted and told me she got on ok, but it was a weird situation. I was going to drive to the airport to pick Arizona up but she said she was already getting a taxi back.

When I was stood at the nurses station checking my charts, that's when I finally got a text from Robbins. A day later than I was meant to, but nonetheless it was a text from Robbins.

Robbins
Hey Alex, I'm outside the hospital, could you come meet me please? X

I replied as quickly as I could, this was weird.

Me
I'll be right down

Getting in the first elevator that arrived, I went right down to the hospital entrance and ran out the doors. On the way I grabbed my massive hospital coat, it was freezing outside.

It was Robbins. On a bench. In the dark. Alone. With mascara round her eyes. And a suitcase sitting next to her.

"Hey" i said as i walked over to her and sat down beside her. I took off my coat and put it round her shoulders, she was shivering.

"Hi" she gave me a smile back, not happy and not fake, but like she was trying way too hard to look happy for everyone else.

I said nothing but put my arm round her, and I felt her lean into me.

"I'm sorry for turning up late, did you get left with my patients?"

"You don't have to apologise Robbins, don't apologise for anything" I paused before speaking up again, "are you ok?"

"Yeah, yeah I'm- I'm great" Az unconvincingly smiled before she crumbled.

I took her hand and held it tight, her trembling lips trying to get some words out.

Through tears, she started. "It just brought back so many memories you know? Nothing bad happened at all, the flight was as smooth as it could be, but the whole time I was telling myself something would go wrong, something bad would happen. The only thing that happened was having a breakdown, and that only started because of telling myself something would happen. It's so stupid. Planes never crash. And how often are people in a plane crash twice? Almost never," she sobbed, "so why the hell am I so scared?" She was beating herself up over her fear, that's what must've been getting to her. It wasn't all the plane crash, but the way she dealt with the horror.

I wrapped my arms around her and held her unsteady body. "Stop beating yourself up Arizona. It isn't your fault that you're scared. Sometimes it's good to be scared, it means you still have something to lose. When you're ready, if you want it, we will get you help. You will not always feel like this, ok? I'm here for you, and one day it will be a lot better than this"

Arizona's pov
I was still being supported by Alex, his words replaying in my mind. Sometimes it's good to be scared, it means you still have something to lose. The world is such a scary place, but it can't always treat me this badly. It has to get better, I have to get better, but I'll need help to do that. And he can help me with that. It's going to be ok.

Just then, I heard footsteps running up behind me. I would recognise that laugh anywhere. I turned round to see my something to live for.

Sofia came running up to me. I assumed the high-heeled slower steps were Callie, meaning they were already in Seattle. Wow.

What would Sofs reaction be when she saw the makeup down my face, the darkness under my eyes, my messed hair, my broken smile? Too late to worry about that. Alex slowly released his arms, seeing my stumble back a bit, he steadied me subtly.

As I suspected would happen, Sofia stopped in her tracks. The smile slipped off her face, and she turned back round to Callie. "Mama, what's wrong with mommy?"

"I think she's just a bit sad, she's missed you lots" Callie knew me, she knew what I'd been through and she knew how I felt, and I think she knew I was grateful to her for covering for me. I gave her a small nod and smile, before looking at my daughters beautiful little face.

"Mammas right, I've just missed you lots and lots" I smiled at her. The realest and biggest smile that'd been on my face in a while. "Now come here and give me a hug"

My girl ran up to me as i crouched down, and I got knocked back a little by her leaping into my arms. A few tears escaped my eyes, "I love you so much," my voice cracked.

Sof took a step back and looked me in the eyes. "don't cry mommy, I'm here now" she smiled at me, then fell back into my arms.

I held her. Callie wasn't completely wrong, i had missed Sofia lots.

Still holding my daughter, I looked up at Callie. "Thank you" i mouthed.

A/N-
Used my fav quote in this. 'Sometimes it's good to be scared, it means you still have something to lose' love u richard

Quick question- are we happy with the chapter lengths or do we want shorter, longer, the same?