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7: The Challenge

Tzuyu 

Time check, its 2:18 am and I still can't sleep. God knows how much I hate sleeping but I kinda want to sleep now because I repeatedly remember the embarrassment of the tampons and also because of the pain in my stomach. I hate my brain, as if I was being played with it. I don't want to remember but really came back to my mind. I no longer have any control over my brain.

Every time I get intense I have nothing else to do but eat but unfortunately my mini-fridge is empty. Maybe the cafeteria below is open.

I took my red jacket and tied it around my waist just in case I got cold or had an emergency down there. If you know what I mean. I also took my polaroid camera and put it in my pocket just in case I get bored, because my iPod is already low on battery.

I love taking photos actually. People like me who have no certainty in life have nothing else to hold on to but memories from photos. Yeah my life sucks. There is no certainty that things will happen to me every time I wake up so it would be better if I have memories from the past. I'm sentimental.

I slowly left my room, because I remembered what Old Geun said that we are not allowed to go out after 10pm. The elevator was just near his quarters, I was afraid he would see me and scold me so I just went down the stairs.

I was just a few steps down the stairs when I caught sight of a man sitting on the middle stairs. He turned his back on me but I recognized him because he was wearing a black beanie. Come to think of it I don't think I have seen him not wearing his beanie.

Honestly, my heartbeat suddenly quickened due to nervousness. I'm still really ashamed of him because of what happened earlier. I'm greatful but still really awkward. I was about to climb back when I heard him sigh as if he was having difficulty in breathing.

I looked back at him and I was surprised when I realized he was holding a brown paper bag, where he was breathing.

"Jungkook are you okay?" I no longer hesitated to step down to approach him.

Both of us are surprised to see each other. Him, surprised, probably because he didn't expect me to be here and Me, surprised to see a lot of blood in the floor.

I couldn't help but to feel pity for him especially when I got close to seeing him having difficulty breathing as if hyperventilating as blood flowed from his nose.

He had a hard time speaking so he just raised his hand as if to drive me away. I can't just leave him here so I leaned over him and held his trembling and very cold hand tightly.

I felt very sad when I saw nothing in Jungkook's face but pain and suffering.

"Jungkook take a deep breath!" I just said softly and accompanied him to take a deep breath.

Jungkook and I just stared at each other as we took a deep breath together.

I'm no expert on things like this, maybe I'm just up to moral support but I guess it worked because in a few moments his breathing gradually returned to normal.

He suddenly let go of me and he looked straight at the stairs down. He torn the paper bag he was holding and threw it away while wiping the blood that was still dripping from his nose with his fist.

I took the handkerchief from my pocket and handed it to him.

He looked at me again but now his forehead was furrowed.

"Take it ...." I handed him the handkerchief again. I was scared because he seemed angry so I just forced myself to laugh awkwardly, "Just wash afterwards? Hehe." I offer.