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25: Yet Another Star-Crossed Couple

Tzuyu

He knocked three times on the door from outside.

I looked through the small opening under the door and saw Jungkook's shadow. Just like me, he was still sitting on the floor while leaning on the other end of the door. I don't know how long we've been like this. Not socializing and only the door separates us.

For some unknown reason, I also knocked on the door three times.

"Tzuyu are you okay?" I heard him spoke so I just closed my eyes. I shuddered even though I knew he couldn't see me.

I'm not stupid. Of course, I'm not as smart like those teenagers who go to a normal school, but I know how to feel. And I have a strong feeling that they are hiding something from me. Why did Jungkook suddenly came back? Why did I suddenly have slashes and wounds? Why do I feel like I'm going to die?

I have a strong feeling that something is wrong with me.

There was so much playing in my mind, one by one frightening possibilities entered my mind. What if I die? What if one day I won't wake up? What will happen to my parents? To my friends?

I felt a thin object hit my hand on the floor so I looked at it and saw that it was a piece of paper.

I picked up the piece of paper Jungkook had inserted from under the door.

Tzuyu stop crying.

That sentence was written all over the paper. Three words that went on, over and over again. Of course, it's just one word that is repeated but the paper is almost full because of the amount of writing, he also did the same at the back of the paper. I don't know why he did it, isn't he tired of writing it?

I just scratched my head and crumpled the paper and threw it at the end of the room.

"Don't tell me to stop crying, you don't know how bad I feel right now." I insisted and slammed the door slightly before leaning against it again.

Again, I felt him insert a paper from under the door so I picked it up and read.

Tzuyu I missed you.

Just like the other paper, that sentence was written all over.

God knows how much I missed him but I don't want to get hurt anymore. I'm done.

I was about to throw it away too when I saw that he slid another piece of paper again.

Tzuyu, I'm sorry for everything.

This time. He's apologizing by writing. Does he really think this will be enough for ditching and pushing me away?

"You don't know what it's like to slowly die inside." I insisted while just letting the tears drip from my eyes. "I'm not okay and I feel like I'm never going to be okay."

"You're right, I don't know how it feels and it's because of you. During the times when I was having a hard time and I felt like life was fucking me, you suddenly came into my life."

I felt a thin object hit my hand on the floor so I looked at it and saw that it was a piece of paper.

"It's okay with me even if you don't speak, just listen to what I have to say." I heard him say so I nodded even though I knew he wouldn't see what my answer would be.

"I'm selfish. Asshole. I have no other thoughts but my own feelings and well-being. I don't know how to keep a promise and I'm just good at words. I don't know if my stupidity will change, but Tzuyu, I have something that will never change and it's how I feel about you. It's okay for me even if we can't go back to the way we used to be as long as you just let me stay by your side. Tzuyu believe it or not, I love- "