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19: The Real Jerks

Tzuyu

As I opened my eyes I was shocked at the ceiling that greeted me. It's not the ceiling of my room and I don't attach luminous stars on it. Shit, where am I?

Even though I was a little dizzy, I slowly sat up and scratched my head. I felt pain on my forehead and when I touched it I was surprised because there was a bandaid on it.

"Tzuyu are you okay?"

I turned around and saw Jungkook at the door. He was carrying a bowl full of water and dipped a small cloth in it.

I don't know what to say to him. Just hearing his name already makes my heart hurts, and now we're facing each other in the same room? Geez, can this day get any worse?

I suddenly remembered Jeongin, I don't know how long I slept so I quickly searched my cellphone out of my pocket to call them.

Wait.... Shit! Where is my phone?! Why isn't it in my pocket?!

"You dropped your phone when you passed out. Jeongin kept on calling, he knows you're with me." I turned to Jungkook again when he handed me my cellphone.

Awkward. I couldn't look at him when I picked up the cellphone. His voice makes the situation worse too. Its no longer cold like the other day. Call me delusional, but hearing the tone of his voice, I feel like the real Jungkook is talking to me again. The one I knew, the one I used to love.

"Tzuyu I thought your condition is getting better? Are you really taking your medications?" He said so I just forced myself to smile.

"Jungkook can you just please shut up and stop acting like you care?" I stood up and looked across the room. I don't know where I am but seeing the rock band posters and messy things, I'm probably in Jungkook's bedroom.

"I'll stop caring for you once you start caring about yourself." He insisted so I scoffed.

The other day, he didn't seem to care about me and he pushed me away and now he says he cares? Oh dear God, I know Jungkook's crazy but not like this ...

"So in this case, do you still care for me?" I said sarcastically and raised an eyebrow at him, "Dude! If you really cared you should just take me to the hospital. You shouldn't have brought me here. Look, I honestly don't want to see you anymore but thank you because you didn't left me on the road. I need to leave, they might be looking for me. "

I didn't wait for him to react. I hurriedly walked out of the room but when I passed him and we turned our backs on each other he suddenly spoke.

"I can't go back to that hospital, Tzuyu sorry."

I was stuck in my position and in an instant, the annoyance I was feeling disappeared and was replaced by sadness.

"He's been here for almost 12 years. He's been fighting for his life ever since he was a kid." - Jeongin

"This hospital has always been Cooper's home. He spent countless days of agony and depression here." - Old Geun

"Every time I see her or any of them, I just remember the hardships I went through in that hospital. I survived! I will never go back to that hell!" - Jungkook

I get it now...

"In this world, there are two kinds of blind people. Those who are actually blind because of their disability and those who are blind about truth and reality."

That blind kid was right... I can see with both of my eyes but I was still blind. All I ever thought about was being with Jungkook but when he shut us out, I was blinded with anger and disappointment... Jungkook wasn't the jerk. In fact, we were the real jerks.. We were the jerks because we didn't understand him, we became selfish ... We forgot the hardship he went through ... I became selfish.

I just realized that tears are flowing from my eyes again and Jungkook and I were still turning our backs on each other.

"Jungkook I understand now. Don't worry, I'm not mad at you. I'll just explain to our friends so they can understand you too. I'm sorry for what I said to you." I just looked up as I tried not to crack my voice.

I waited for what he would say but I think he wouldn't say a thing so I just sighed.

I started to walk away but to my surprise, all of a sudden, there were arms wrapped around my waist and a head sank into my shoulder. Jungkook hugged me from behind so I was again stuck in my position and just stared at the emptiness.

"Tzuyu sorry." He said again and I cried even more when I realized that he was crying. I gently stroked his hair.

I laughed a little, "Crazy, I'm the one who should apologize to you. Let go of me now, if you don't, I will assume that you still like me." I just joked with the words coming out of my mouth.

A few moment passed and he was still hugging me so I just removed his hand and I immediately left.

I really can't understand him.

I don't know if he's sadistic or he was just making fun of me, but I want to stop this...

I do not want to get hurt again...

I still have a lot of problems besides him...

This ends here.

I returned to the hospital carrying a pack of chocolate drinks. Fortunately, there is a convenience store nearby and I was still able to buy drinks for them.

"Miss Tzuyu what happened to your forehead?" The nurse at the front desk asked me as I passed.

"I bump my head, I'm really stupid." I just joked and smiled.

If there's one thing I'm good at, thats fooling people into thinking I'm okay with the use of my smile. I mastered it actually.

With a smile in my face, I skipped along the halls of the hospital. I'm still sad but at least Jungkook and I are okay. I accept that our closeness will never be restored. I accept that this ends here, less than friends but more than strangers.

When I got to my room I was surprised when Jeongyeon, Jeongin or Jimin isn't here. They are usually here, where are they?

"Hi Ms. Tzuyu." The nurse greeted me as she put the medicine on my bedside table.

"Hi! Where are my friends?" I asked.

"They're at Sir Geun's office, there's probably something important to talk about." She said so I just smiled and hurriedly went there. Maybe Old Geun can drink a chocolate drink. He won't have a heart attacked again because of this, right?

"He's not responsible?! If that's the case, I'll just kill him!" Just a few steps into Old Geun's office I could already hear Jeongyeon's scream. Hey, my friend is going crazy again. What is it this time? Sometimes I'm really worried about her being moody.

I was already holding on to the doorknob and was about to enter.

"Jeongyeon, we can't do anything. Tzuyu signed a waiver. The doctor who gave her the medicine is not responsible." I heard Old Geun talking. I was the one they were talking about. Wait, why are they fussing about that?

Instead of entering, I just listened to their conversation.

"That won't do! If something bad happen to Tzuyu because of that medicine, he should get his coffin ready!" I heard Jeongyeon shout again.

"But is there a way for Tzuyu to get better?" I heard Jimin talk.

"Jimin, you saw what happened to Tzuyu. In a flash, her heart suddenly stopped beating. If we didn't do everything we can, Tzuyu might have died. As I told you the other day, Tzuyu's nervous system was so affected because of those experimental stimulants, the medicine was too strong so instead of healing her, her condition got worse. Go back to Tzuyu's room, she might already have arrived. Later, her parents will come too. I don't know what to do, it's hard to tell her parents that at any time their child may die-- "

"But Old Geun, please do something! It's not too late, is it?! The doctors can still do something!" Jeongyeon pleaded.

"Tzuyu, what are you doing here?"

I heard Jeongin's voice from behind me. I also heard Jeongyeon suddenly fall silent.

My hands were shaking and so were my lips. I can't stop shedding tears so I hurriedly ran away.