When its over

Mystery is a Mystery.

  - I'm trapped in my mind and I need out.

I hurt her and I don't think she will forgive me.
I caused her pain and grief and a year without me.
I hurt her the most and I can't forgive myself.
I just want her to know I love her.

(Unknowns Pov.)

Life can sometimes be a mystery but to some people I am a mystery to and some I am not I mean I was famous one time. Let's just leave it at that. I am pretty sure you know who I am by now or you haven't in that case it sounds like your pretty dumb. If you don't know who I am by now. So many things have happened in one year it's been really crazy. But right now I am trying to keep a low profile because you know who "Her." I mean it's not like I'm on the run. Because why would I run from someone that is so sweet,loving,caring and very harmless.
Sometimes I wonder what she is doing and if she is okay. But I know Once I come back in her life and if I do that things are going to change and she isn't going to forgive me. I don't want Jer to hate me but I know she is going to because of things that happened or she thought had happened a year ago.
I know that if I show up and knock on her door she is going to be shocked out of her mind. Because I am still here.

                                       [Flashback.]

"I love you my love." She whispers in my ear. God knows that I love this woman. She is my life my air my breath my everything. I would die for this woman. Everyday j am going to wake up and I am going to see her beautiful face and tell her how much I love her and how much she means to me. "Good morning baby." I tell Jer and she smiles. Aww there is that beautiful smile that I love seeing. I love seeing her happy. Because if is happy then I am happy.
"good morning." she says back. I kiss her sweet and tender lips. And it takes her a minute for her to kiss back but she kisses back. And I deepen the kiss and I am earned wth a moan that comes out out of her sweet and perfect mouth.
I wish this could last a lifetime because for a moment it felt like time stood still.

                                       [End of Flashback.]

I am woken up by flashbacks of her again or where they a dream because sometimes I have dreams of her and flashbacks but if guess my mind can't make up what it wants because it wants one thing and then it wants another. Sometimes it's tiring being away from my girl. I have been away from her a year a fucking year. A whole mother fucking year. Now how the fuck did I manage to stay away from her that fucking long?. I must be fucking dreaming or some shit or I must be on some fucking shit.
I check what time it is on the clock in my hotel room and it reads 3:30 am. Well at least it's not 10:00 am in the morning and people buzz my phone a million times to get my ass awake.
I am a person that loves sleep.

once I am half asleep and awake I hear my phone ring.And who the fuck is calling at 3:00 in the fucking morning?. I grab my phone that is lying beside me. And I am blinded by my fucking light on my phone "Ughhhhh." I scream. I answer the call this mother fucker better be calling me with something important or I swear to fucking god I will end that person's life. "Hello." I answer.

                           

    
              Authors Note:

Hello hello my loves I am pre writting this so I don't have to worry about it. I can only update on Sundays.  I hope everyone has had a good weekend so fair I missed writing so much. And I am glad I am writing again. But who do you think is calling hero?. Until next time Ellie. Happy valentine's day y'all Today's me and my boyfriend's when your anniversary but hope you like this chapter and what did you think about the teaser trailer for AWF!??. Like it was so freaking hot.