cynical | soonhoon

bonus #2 || happy early anniversary!!

tw; mentions of sex (haha yes that means wonwoo is in this chapter😭), and maybe a touch of stupidity ;-;

soonyoung paced back and forth in the small kitchen of jihoon's apartment. he was clearly anxious and the multiple glances he took towards the front door proved that it was jihoon's arrival that he was anxious for. the redhead had moved in with jihoon following their acceptances into the respective colleges they applied for. soonyoung got accepted into a pretty local university that was about a half hour walk from jihoon's apartment while the latter got into a music program at a campus that was at least three times as far as soonyoung's campus. that meant that jihoon usually got home later than the redhead did and most nights soonyoung waited like this for his boyfriend to get home.

however, this time was vastly different. soonyoung didn't make it a habit to pace back and forth nervously every night when he waited for his boyfriend, but today was quite the occasion and the wait was very nerve-wracking. soonyoung was not an inherently patient person so it was bad enough that his patience was being tested but his nerves really were working against him. his heart ached along with them, beating so fast that soonyoung felt as if the organ would burst right out of his chest and make a run for it. it didn't cease its beating when jihoon had finally arrived at the apartment looking as drowsy as ever.

"rough night tonight?" soonyoung asked as he grabbed jihoon's light jacket and hung it on a coat rack nearby while jihoon rubbed at his eyes. the short male got really clingy when he was sleepy which is why he laid his head into soonyoung's chest and sighed. breathing in the familiar and comforting scent of his boyfriend, jihoon closed his eyes and let himself fall victim to the affection the redhead was willing to offer him. soonyoung wrapped his arms around his boyfriend in a protective stance before he heard the latter mumble something into his chest. "yeah, the train was delayed at the station for twenty minutes. I'm just really tired."

"do you want something to eat? we can sit in the kitchen, I made dinner." the redhead suggested to his boyfriend, pulling jihoon away from his chest so that he could brush back jihoon's bangs and wipe his thumbs over jihoon's eyes. the short male was indeed very tired, soonyoung could tell by the way his heavy eyelids persisted in its own agenda of closing shut and letting the short male fall asleep. soonyoung was sure that what he had planned would perk jihoon right up. both him and jihoon were opposites, especially when it came to evaluating their energy gauges. being the more active, social, and energetic of the two soonyoung figured the responsibility of cheering jihoon up was up to him. it did work most of the time, but jihoon was very tired this time so he wasn't really up for anything that didn't involve him going to bed and falling asleep as soon as possible. "I'm just really tired soonie, I'm going to head to bed."

"okay jihoon, sleep well!" soonyoung smiled enthusiastically at his boyfriend as he walked towards their shared bedroom. his smile dropped as soon as jihoon was out of sight and was replaced with a frown of disappointment. the redhead's eyes filled with tears and his lips quivered as he walked into the kitchen and stared down at what he had prepared on the counter. there sat a cake small enough to be considered a rather large cupcake if looked at from afar. it wasn't much, especially since soonyoung had had to trim out all of the burnt parts of the cake hence its size, but the redhead had been really proud of what he had made and was sure that jihoon would love it; he didn't expect that jihoon wouldn't even be willing to look at it.

soonyoung whimpered softly, unable to hold back his tears anymore as he stared down at the cake. one of his hot tears dropped onto the lettering on the cake, the same lettering that enscribed the words "happy anniversary to us jihoon!" on them, which caused the frosting on the cake to start to melt. how could jihoon have forgotten one of the most important dates in their lives? sure he was tired but he hadn't forgotten mingyu's birthday last week when he was exhausted from pulling an all-nighter to complete assignments; he even got mingyu a present! how could jihoon not even mention their special day?