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pokimane and valkyrae | three

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trigger warning !   mention of suicide and self-harm

   GOD CREATED THE WORLD in seven days, but he didn't make this life perfect as he intended at first, it was full of up and down hills like the lands he created. those lands were harder for some to climb, so they created tunnels but most of them never saw the light at the end of it.

   you stood in front of the body-sized mirror in your bedroom, your sleeves rolled up which once were hiding the scars that were still walled with pink flesh and bloody corners.

   "y/n/n, we should...-" imane opened in, phone at her ear. you turned away, tugging your sleeves down as fast as you could before running to get your phone.

   but you weren't as quick as you thought, your muscles getting tense when you hear the brunette sigh. "forget about dinner, just come home." your head turned, seeing imane pinching the bridge of her nose, with her other hand 

   "please don't tell chel, please, she would blame herself." you ran up to the brunette, grabbing her by her shirt's collar.

   imane only sighed, her hands wrapping around yours. "you have to tell her y/n/n."

   "she's gonna blame herself, she is gonna go mad and she'll be sad and angry at me, she'll hate me and leave please don't, please imane." as the oldest in the relationship, rachell tended to take everything upon herself even if it wasn't her fault, she felt like it was.

  "she nor I would ever hate you for this. I do not understand yet why are you doing it, but we can help or get help for you." you shook your head. help? what is it about getting you help? you are just moody, right? that's what your mother always said, just moody.

  imane caressed your cheeks, trying to find your gaze. "it's okay, y/n. this doesn't mean you are screwed up. the three of us will come up with something." you shook your head again, your words chocked by sobs as you grabbed into imane's shirt. tears were pouring from your eyes as you silently tried to convince her to stop.

   "I came as soon as i could but the traffic lamps and-" rae stepped in, eyes on her phone but her words were cut off as she looked up. she saw you soaking the other brunette's shirt.

   "what happened?" the phone was put away and rae came up to you, her hand resting on your back gently.

   "y/n, you have to-"

   "I don't want to, she's gonna hate me!"

   "I would never hate you y/n/n, you are the light of my life. both of our lives." rae pointed at imane. "take a deep breath and just tell me. I will be here with you through everything. you hear me?" you nodded, taking a few deep breaths before letting go of imane and distancing yourself away from the two other girls.

   eventually, you made up the courage to tell her. "I am cutting myself..." your voice chokes, everything blanks before you as your close your eyes, waiting for the judgment.

   but it never came.

   instead, arms were wrapped around your shoulder. embracing you into a warm, tight hug. "it's okay, everything is okay. we will solve this, the two of us will help you and everything is gonna be alright." you nod at rae's words, opening your eyes to see her but you only get greeted by her hair and a glace of imane who is trying not to cry herself.

   after showering, dinner, and getting to bed, you told them why you were hurting yourself. the people on the internet were cruel, calling you names, and not just you but imane and rae too. but all that was under your pictures and posts. you figured if you don't talk about it just ignore it and try to forget it, it will disappear.

   you ended up hurting yourself as they got more and more forceful and ugly. the thoughts of ending it all crossed your mind not once, but you couldn't yet do it since imane and rae, you couldn't leave them just yet.

   so you told them everything, laying in their arms while you did. they were understanding, they were suggesting all sorts of things that you could do to help cope and get better. but you insisted on talking about the rest tomorrow, you wanted to sleep and you finally could sleep peacefully after a long time.

notes
*awkward blush* h-hi...! it's been a second 😖