Beside You - RamKing

Chapter 18

*Kings PoV*

"Can i... ask you a favour?" I looked up and placed my spoon down on the plate, which was by now completely empty.

"Of course you can Phi", he softly said, coming a little closer and taking my hand in his. 

"Help me...seeing my scars in the mirror."

His eyes widened and he looked at me, shocked about my requested. Rams eyes moved from one side to the other, trying his best to avoid my gaze, as if I would give uo if he didn't look at me.

"Phi... I don't think that is a good idea... I think we should take it slow and not overdo it, or else you will feel bad again."

There definitely was worry in his words, and his sweaty hands only underlined it. I knew how much he cared for me and how worried he was... but this was one thing I had to do. I just had to... Even when speaking optimistically, the scars would stay evident, they would clearly stay with me for my whole life. And even though the scars on my wrists and ankles, as well as on my neck, were starting to fade... I would need to accept that they will be with me forever.

"honey..." I softly whispered, placing my hands on his cheeks and lifting his face up to mine before kissing him softly. Even though he hesitated, Ram quickly kissed me back, placing his hands on my cheeks and gently holding my face in his hands. 

We separated a couple of centimetres, still looking in each others eyes and our breath caressing each others face. 

"After seeing those memories last night... I want to face it. I want to face what they did to me so I can  accept that it is in the past."

Ram hesitated a bit, before finally nodding and helped me up. With my arms around his shoulders, we slowly walked from the bed to the bathroom, where there was a whole body mirror, as well as a small hand mirror. My feet came to a halt in front of the bigger mirror, carefully taking off my shirt while Ram was getting the small mirror.

"Are you really sure?", he asked again, wanting to make sure that I was really determined, to which I nodded.

With elegant movements, he started unwrapping the bandages from my back, until there was nothing left that covered my upper torso, He went on to carefully wrap up the bandages, while I had a look at my body through the mirror. I had surely lost weight, seeing how my shoulders were a bit more evident as well as my body-line. But I could just gain that weight back over time, nor problem. When stepping closer, I could see the faint pinkish scar around my neck, from where they had strangled me.... P Thara had said though, that those... the one on my neck and my wrists/ankles would disappear almost completely after some time, since they weren't too deep in the first place. But it was something different for my back...

"Here", Ram stopped behind me with the mirror, adjusting it so I could see the scars that were hidden from me normally, for the first time.

Upon seeing them... I felt sick. It was as if my stomach was turning, and before I knew it I was already over the toilet and vomiting. Ram hurried to me, carefully rubbing over my shoulders until I felt better and stood up with his help, flushing the toilette and cleaning out my mouth.

"King..." he whispered softly, removing a handful of strains from my face.

"I'm fine... I was just shocked when seeing them",  I whispered back to him and just wrapped my arms around him. Not only because my body was getting a bit exhausted from standing, but also because I wanted to feel the warmth of his body and hear his heart beating. My arms wrapped tightly around him, my head looking for the homey feeling i always got when burying it against his neck. nAnd just breathing in the smelled of the lavender body-wash we had here and the shampoo that smelled like a blooming flower-field.