Meredith's POV:
"You're killing me you know that?" I say jokingly. He smiles "okay but I do love you and I always will." Cormac responds. I look away from him. "I love you too." I say. "I never in my life thought that we would break up. Meredith I thought I was going to marry you." Cormac says. I don't really know what he's saying to me right now "you- you what?" I ask he smiles "I wanted to marry you I still do I want you in my life." He answers I nod. "Cormac you didn't do anything wrong." I say he nods "I know. I mean I could have been there more but I know." Cormac replies and then I remember the text I got. "Addison texted me... the day I went home." I turn and look at cormac again. He's face drops like I told him I was dying or something. "She uh- she said you two kissed?" I ask raising an eyebrow. "Mommy can I sit on your lap?" Austin asks. "Yeah." I say as he walks over and crawls onto my lap. "Uh- no well yes but no." Cormac explains. "Hm" I say while looking at Austin. "Meredith please listen." Cormac asks. "I'm listening go." I reply. "I walked into the on call room with her to say thank you. She kissed me and then she tried to do it again but I walked away to tell Bailey." Cormac says. "Did you want to kiss her?" I ask looking back at him squinting because it was sunny. "No! God no. I wanted to be kissing you. I want to kiss you right now. Meredith I would never cheat." Cormac says.Cormac's POV:
Meredith doesn't say anything she just looks at me. "I-I'm sorry I wasn't a safe place for our babies." She says. I look at her sad "it's not your fault." I say she smiles "but it kind of is." She replies. I shake my head no. "I'm glad you got to see them." She says. "Stop. I can't- I can't talk about them right now." I reply she nods. "Addison said the same thing you did. She was honest and apologized." Meredith switches the topic. I nod. "I'm sorry I didn't tell you about that sooner." I say Meredith smiles "it's okay there wasn't really anything to tell... I mean if you didn't kiss her or didn't enjoy it." Meredith says. "Mer I wanna kiss you." I say moving to the seat next to her. "I want to kiss you really bad." I say she smiles. "I know you do." She says placing her hand on my knee. "Meredith can we please try again?" I ask. "I don't know if I can cor." She replies.Meredith's POV:
Cormac becomes disappointed. "Why not?" He asks. I look at him in the eyes. "Cor you kissed my ex's ex and there's so much baggage..." I say. "Mer I didn't kiss her. I swear. I didn't and I love you." He says. "I hear you. I love you too but I just don't know that I'm in love with you." I say a tear rolls down my cheek Cormac reaches to wipe it like he normally would but he hesitates. He does it anyway and then rubs his thumb in my face. I lean into his hand a little. "I'm going to kiss you now." He says as he leans in. He kisses me, I feel like everything is fine again. I do love him but I need more time. He pulls away resting his head on my forehead "was mommy choking again?" Austin asks and we both start laughing "yeah, mommy was choking again." Cormac answers as he looks at me. I lean forward a kiss him one more time, this time a little longer. "I love you Mer" he says. I smile a nod nod because I was crying."Alright Austin let's go." Cormac says. Austin looks at me and then at cormac "no!" He cry's. "I want to stay with Meredith." I look away from Austin because I was crying and didn't want him to see. "I know bud me too but it's time to go." Cormac picks Austin up off my lap. "Will you come sleep at my house tonight?" Austin asks. Crying I look at him and shake my head no. "No buddy. You're not going to see me for a while. I love you, be good." I say my voice cracking in the middle. "But I love you and I will miss you." Austin says as I stand up. "I know. I love you too. Tell Liam I said goodbye." I say Cormac looking at me all three of us are crying. "I will miss you too." Cormac says making me laugh because he said it the same way Austin did. I hug him resting my head on his chest. "I know." I say and then let go and turn to walk away. Austin starts crying loud like a baby. I look back at them Cormac just standing there. What the fuck did I just do?
"Uh why are you crying and why is Austin screaming?" Amelia asks walking next to me into the hospital. "We broke up." I say bursting into tears at the ends of my sentence. "Oh my god." She say. "I'm so sorry." She continues. I shrug my shoulders "it's fine." I walk into the hospital and can still hear Austin crying. "Oh my freaking word." I say Amelia looks at me "might uh Wanna help him or something." She suggests. Cormac walks in the hospital behind me holding Austin who is kicking and screaming. "Austin!" I say and he immediately stops. "Enough." Cormac looks at me. "You do not need to scream like that." I continue. Cormac mouths the words thank you and starts to walk away I smile. "So what happened?" Amelia asks. "I'll tell you later." I reply.
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Your Eyes Hit Me Like a Tsunami (Merhayes)
De TodoMeredith grey, coffee, endless nights, and cormac Hayes.