Love In New York (Sequel Forgive me, Help me, Be with me) {Completed}

Chapter 6

-Rachel pov-
"You girls got everything?" I nod as I pack the diaper bag "Alright...don't be out too late and stay safe ok? Please don't drive emotional either! Most importantly! Don't let anything split you three apart"

"Alright mom" I give her a quick hug and pick up Amelia "Let's go meet your sisters and moms in the car"

Today we are taking the girls out. We wanna spend some time with them and talk. Yesterday made us kind of open our eyes. We really need to discuss somethings.

I get Amelia in the van and get in the back. I'm the designated seat mom today. It's a weird silence in the van. It's tense but comfortable.

"I'm worried about Juniper being bullied in school" I look at Santana in the rear view "She's has a penis and when they find out...she won't stand a chance and neither will Judith"

"But we aren't homeschooling" I sigh "I know how it feels to be bullied and it's not fun"

"I agree to that" Lucy frowns "I just don't wanna ruin her by sending her to her death"

"Let's save it for the park ok?" I get Santana to look me in the eyes "We don't need to drive emotionally"

Santana nods and we start fully making our way to Central Park. The air has become more tense now. Even the babies look worried. I sigh as we make our way to the park. Here goes nothing I guess.

-Time skip-
We've been sitting at the park for a hour now. The girls are playing in a dirt patch currently. I am against it but they do need immune systems. I've only had to stop Amelia from eating the dirt.

"If we send them to school what do we do?" I look over at Santana confused "They can't just come home and pretend to be fine! They all will be in the same grade! They will all face something!"

"Then we fix it then" I look at the girls as they play "We can't predict what will happen"

"We can only do with what's we have" Lucy smiles "What we have are three beautiful babies"

"I want a apartment" Lucy and I quickly are looking at Santana "I don't wanna just mooch off of our moms! I'm going to college to be a doctor...maybe I can shadow or intern for money?"

"I want a house too but we need to wait" I put a hand on her shoulder "It's just not the right time"

"You know I've got a idea" Lucy is quickly up and running "I'll be back!"

It takes a little bit before she comes back. She has a guitar guy with her. I am soon pulled up to my feet and looking at her confused. But when the music starts it clicks.

-Lucy-Rachel-Both-
I wish I could tie you up in my shoes
Make you feel unpretty too
I was told I was beautiful
But what does that mean to you
Look into the mirror who's inside there
The one with the long hair
Same old me again today

My outsides are cool
My insides are blue
Everytime I think I'm through
It's because of you
I've tried different ways
But it's all the same
At the end of the day
I have myself to blame
I'm just trippin'

You can buy your hair if it won't grow
You can fix your nose if he says so
You can buy all the make-up that M.A.C. can make
But if you can't look inside you
Find out who am I to
Be in a position to make me feel so damn unpretty

I feel pretty
Oh so pretty
I feel pretty and witty and bright

Never insecure until I met you
Now I'm being stupid
I used to be so acute to me
Just a little bit skinny
Why do I look to all these things
To keep you happy
Maybe get rid of you
And then I'll get back to me (hey)

My outsides look cool
My insides are blue
Everytime I think I'm through
It's because of you
I've tried different ways
But it's all the same
At the end of the day
I have myself to blame
Keep on trippin'

You can buy your hair if it won't grow
You can fix your nose if he says so
You can buy all the make-up that M.A.C. can make
But if you can't look inside you
Find out who am I to
Be in a position to make me feel so damn unpretty

I feel pretty
Oh so pretty
I feel pretty and witty and bright
And I pity
Any girl who isn't me tonight

Oh oh oh oh oh (Tonight)
Oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh (Tonight)
Oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh (Tonight)
Oh oh oh oh oh

I feel pretty (You can buy your hair if it won't grow)
Oh so pretty (You can fix your nose if he says so)
I feel pretty and witty and bright (You can buy all the make-up that M.A.C. can make)
But if you can't look inside you
Find out who am I to
Be in a position to make me feel so damn unpretty

I feel pretty
But unpretty

A group of people close by clap and I smile. Music has always been something that brings us together. It's the thing that brought us together. It's truly been our saving grace.

If it wasn't for music there wouldn't have been glee! With out glee I wouldn't have any of this. I honestly can't imagine a life without this stuff. I sit down and Santana is quickly up.

She whispers to the guy and he nods. He tunes his guitars some and finds his chords. He must be really good at this. I wonder if he is in a band or something?

My thoughts are stopped by a angels raspy voice.

-Santana singing-

I'm nothing special, in fact I'm a bit of a bore
If I tell a joke, you've probably heard it before
But I have a talent, a wonderful thing
'Cause everyone listens when I start to sing
I'm so grateful and proud
All I want is to sing it out loud

So I say
Thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing
Thanks for all the joy they're bringing
Who can live without it, I ask in all honesty
What would life be?
Without a song or a dance what are we?
So I say thank you for the music
For giving it to me

Mother says I was a dancer before I could walk
She says I began to sing long before I could talk
And I've often wondered, how did it all start?
Who found out that nothing can capture a heart
Like a melody can?
Well, whoever it was, I'm a fan

So I say
Thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing
Thanks for all the joy they're bringing
Who can live without it, I ask in all honesty
What would life be?
Without a song or a dance what are we?
So I say thank you for the music
For giving it to me

I've been so lucky, I am the girl with golden hair
I wanna sing it out to everybody
What a joy, what a life, what a chance!

Thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing
Thanks for all the joy they're bringing
Who can live without it, I ask in all honesty
What would life be?
Without a song or a dance what are we?
So I say thank you for the music
For giving it to me

So I say thank you for the music
For giving it to me

The crowd claps again and the babies babble. I smile as I look at my little family. I have loving fiancés and amazing babies. Life couldn't be better.

I really need to start living in the now. I've been so focused on Broadway I haven't looked around me. I pick up Juniper and make her dance as the guitarist plays.

We stay a bit longer before heading to the car. We didn't get everything out but that's ok. It means we will actually talk more. It means we will have more in depth talks.

And I think I'm ok with that.