Love In New York (Sequel Forgive me, Help me, Be with me) {Completed}

Chapter 42: Fireworks on New Years

-Santana pov-
Today has been a very slow one. The club is over for New Years and we are having a nice party. Everyone is getting along so well. I am almost scared to hope it stays this way.

Beth has talked more, Juniper has crawled more, Judith is babbling more, and Amelia is so close to walking. Our family is all doing fine too. Ann is out of her wheelchair thankfully. It all is building up so quickly.

You know it will come crashing down. But I do not wanna focus on that. I wanna focus on the plus side. The plus side that we are together on New Years as a family.

"Hey" I turn to Blaine and nod "Your girls sent me over"

"They are so wrapped up with the babies" I put a hand on my stomach "I really want to have twins"

"You can still grow" Blaine smiles "I just hope to be godfather"

"So you can do gangster lingo?" His smile turns into a smirk and then we both laugh "I am so glad we came back to this place...we were gonna end the engagement in New York"

"Really?" I nod and look over toward the girls "Did they know?"

"No" I sigh and shake my head "It was all me"

He puts a comforting hand on my shoulder "Why?" I turn and look at him "Why did you wanna leave?"

"I tried to get pregnant twice over there" I feel tears threatening to flow "I tried twice and failed twice..I was not going to be able to give them more of a family...I was going to fail at being a fiancé"

"That would not have made or broke you" I look away and fed him still looking "Would it have?"

"I have always wanted to give birth to a kid" I wipe a stray tear away "If I would have failed again...I would have lost it all"

"They would not have left you" I do not respond cause it was not them "You would have left them?"

"I want to give them the world" I put a hand on my stomach as I watch my family laugh "This is the world they want"

Blaine does not say anything else and I am ok with that. We go into a slightly tense silence before he walks away. It is times like this I wish I could drink. But I have given that up to be able to have kid after kid.

Anything to give them their world.

-Time skip-Lucy pov-
"Hey" I jump and turn toward the doorway to see Blaine looking nervous "Is Rachel here too?"

"Yeah I am" Rachel walks over to us holding a changed Judith "What is goin on?"

"It is about Santana" I share a confused look with Rachel before looking back at Blaine "She...I should not really say"

"What is it?" He looks very hesitant "Blaine if you do not talk I will chop off your balls!"

"She tried two other times and failed!" I raise a confused eyebrow "She failed getting pregnant twice and then...she was gonna leave you two because she wants to give you the world and thought not being able to get pregnant...she thought she failed as a fiancé"

"The depressive episodes" I sigh and see Rachel shaking her head "That is why she is being secretive about her emails"

"She is going to keep having kids till we hit that dream number" I look at Blaine and give a small smile "Thank you..we will deal with this"

He nods and walks away "Stop hiding Santana" She slowly moves from the shadows looking down "I know you can not see your feet so face is please"

"You are mad" She sniffles and I see her body slightly shake "I-I just want one of you dreams to come true! I have always wanted kids! Rachel having one and then you probably having one...it scared me"