Greetings. This is a small vent writing. Also, if there's bad grammar I'm sorry.
⚠️TW: description of depression⚠️ ———————————
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You were laying down in your bed, tissues and other trash littered the floor. You felt so hopeless and worthless. None of your friends have texted you and when they did, you became snappy at them. Even your partner, Hange, hasn't texted you. You fell further into your bed and started tearing up. That is, until you heard your front door open. Normally, you'd panic but at this point you didn't care what would happen. You wanted this pain to stop. Little did you know that the intruder was Hange since you heard them yelling for you from your front door. They usually did that when breaking an entry.
The yelling stopped and you heard loud footsteps coming towards your bedroom door. "Hellooo!" Hange bursted through the door and sang to you. You covered your face with another pillow. Yes you missed them but god damn, they were too loud. Hange scoped out your room, seeing the trash and immediately realized the situation. "Hunny? Are you ok?" You took the pillow away from your face and glared at them. "What do you think?" You snapped. They nodded and came closer to you and reached out their hand to rub your shoulder.
"Would you like for me to make you something to eat or do you want takeout?" Your expression softened and you grabbed onto Hanges hand. "Neither. I just want you." You saw them nod and they laid down on the bed next to you. Hange grabbed a hold of you and pulled you closer. "Baby... what happened to you?" Hanges tone was small and hush. You shoved your face in their chest, letting out a sad noise. "You gotta talk to me hun or I can't help."
"I,," You started trembling. Hange felt the shake and started rubbing your back. That small gesture caused you to completely crash. "I don't know! That's the problem! I don't know what's wrong with me. I-I just woke up and I was trying so hard to do things today but, but," You couldn't finish your sentence but Hange got the story. They hushed you, kissing your head.
"Oh baby." Hange sighed. They hated seeing you this way. This isn't the first time you have gone through this with them but every time it was something different. Sometimes you can be cheered up with ease, but sometimes, like today, you just couldn't and it takes hours or even days to get you back to 100%. "Baby, we need to see a doctor this time. This has been happening a lot recently and I'm starting to get worried."
"But I'm scared. What if they can't do anything to help me? What if they send me to a hospital? I don't want to go there." You whaled, gripping onto Hange tighter. "Baby, that might help." You looked up at them. "No it wouldn't! It might make it worse. I don't want to go. Please don't let them take me." You started hyperventilating at this point which caused Hange to freak. "Ok ok, no mental hospital! I'm not going to let them take you and I won't send you away. Hey, shh, breathe baby, breathe." You started catching your breath but you still cried.
You sat there, sobbing in your beloved's arms for a half an hour until you started to calm down from your breakdown. Only small hiccups and small sad noises can be heard from you. Hange shifted a little so that their hand was on your head and their arm was around your lower body. "Are you hungry?" You nodded. "How does takeout sound?" You nodded again. "Ok, do you want to go downstairs?" Another nod. Hange let out a small 'ok' before helping you up and walking you to your couch.
"Where do you want me to order from?" You only thought for a few seconds before blurting out "(F/R) please." Hange smiled at you. "Of course my love." Hange stepped away to order the food, them already knowing what you want. Once they were gone, your mind drifted back to the doctors. You were scared but you really needed some sort of medication. You were brought back to reality when you felt something grab you and pull you into something hard. You looked up to see Hange sadly smiling at you. "Hi baby." You smiled back. "Hi."
"So... about the doctors." Hange cupped your face. "You really need to go. I can go with you if you want." You looked away. "Ok fine. I'll go but you're coming with me."
"Perfect." Hange kissed you softly. You smiled into the kiss but pulled away shortly after. "I'll call the doctors later but please just hold me." You laid your head down on their chest. Hange chuckled softly and hugged you. "Sleep love. I'll wake you when the foods here." You nodded and started drifting off. "Thank you." You breathed out and finally fell asleep.
